Chris Brown a.k.a. cute wife beater & Rihanna aka ex of the cute wife beater

So I was reading and watching some stuff about chris brown and rihanna on the wendy williams show and I didnt know who I felt worse for. Rihanna was the one who fell in love with someone who didnt love her enough to treat her with the respect of a stranger and instead hit her like she was an enemy. Poor girl right, I feel like thats the ultimate rejection there. Chris hated her so much that he hit her. But then...Chris said on larry king he loves her to this day and always will. It seems like he does care about her but the question is why would he do that? And hes been trying to do a fan tour and apperently its for real failing. And he has a new album coming up and they pushed the date trying to get some hype over it but it wouldent work. He will always be labeled as the wife beater. And its something hes gonna have to live with for the rest of his life. Seeing her move on to someone who he knows is a better guy then he'll ever be and seeing her life happy and her career sailing while hes dealing with the oppisite. Thats when I feel bad for him. But everyone needs to tune in and see what rihanna has to say on 20/20 tonight at 9!

I want love in my life. I get a lot of love from my family but thats not what im looking for right now. I feel like I really want romance. A guy to care for me and love me. to be there whenever I need him. Ive always really liked the idea of walking up to a guy and sitting in his laugh and resting my head on his shoulder and him holding me tight. To the point where you can feel the love. And i've been more attracted to guys then ive ever been. And then I get this weird feeling inside like maybe none of them are the right guy and the right guy for me is sitting in kansas city,mo thinking about some pretty cheerleader he can get with the snap of his fingers. Easy as that. But I guess right now I dont mind who it is as long as they figure out my greatness. And they love me and Im able to love them. I hung out with a boy today after school. His name is jacob. That makes 2 jacobs ive blogged about. Hes a cute boy and hes not little which is good. Were the same age and I feel comfortable around him. Its nice. He also lives down the street even thought we dont hang out that much when we do I like it! I know this is mating season and its just the hormones but I feel like I cant help it....

I feel like theres some things I deserve. Is it wrong? I mean I feel like ive been a good enough person to deserve something good. Perfect. Wheather it be one day, a guy, maybe a call from you know who :) but something to show that theres someone out there rooting for me. Right now it seems like although nothing bad is happening to me, thank god nothing that big and great has happened. Or maybe im just not seeing whats right in front of my eyes. Idk. I just feel like somethings missing. I cant put my finger on it.

Song of the day:
Spotlight Gucci mane and Usher

quote of the day:
The only thing that lasts longer then a friend's love is the stupidity that keeps us from knowing any better.