"Who is that girl I see/Staring straight back at me/ when will my reflection show / who I am inside..."

Dear blog,
guess what? I talked to prince. Yes I know what your thinking, "this again, hasen't she realized its not him". This time it was him. How do I know? I could tell by his voice. Yes I realized it could have been a recording but for the sake of today i'm going to pretend it wasen't. What'd we talk about? His music thing. Remember when I Taked to you about that website? I was serious. I really really liked it for the record. It has nothing to do with me being my prince but everything to do with the fact that hes really talented and he has an open passion for music that you can feel through the computer. Does that sound weird? Not to me, I can actually feel it. And I like it. I listened to this one song over and over again and this is a characteristic I only do with songs I like. Such as airplanes. My mind was telling me to say the stuff I thought about the website and stuff but instead I didn't go as deep. Why? I was nearvous. I do that around important people. And in my book prince is a step above Obama. So imagine if you were on the phone with the president. Woulden't you kind of loose what you meant to say?

But like I was saying I like it. The songs and him. For awhile it was the songs more then him but now I feel like maybe its ok to believe in love again. The reality is that the "new mariam" lost that. I had lost my belief that theres someone out there for everyone and even though it dosen't seem like it I fall under that too.

The truth is that the new Mariam cries a lot. Only instead of it being inisde crying its outside crying. Why? idk. I guess you can say its because when your waiting for something and want it SO bad and it dosen't happen it just kind of hurts. But part of being a Mariam is that even when it hurts you have to remember every cloud has a silver lining. What I always tell myself is that if your gonna live you best enjoy it. Because life is so precious and so short that every minute of it should be spent the best way. And the best way isen't holding a box of tissues crying because some boy dosen't realize what your worth. The best way is walking on the beach with no shoes on a pedicured toes. The best way is to let yourself follow your passion and do what it is you like to do. If what you like to do is watch Tori and Dean episdoes all day. Do it! If you like to sing then do it and don't worry about what your sounding like or what people will think. Just be you, always.

song of the day: Reflection: Christina Aguleria

quote of the day: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

That says nothing and everything and some of you wont understand but its crystal clear to me.

I'm also gonna quote myself because I was reading this weeks blogs and it made me crack up:

said I was gonna start being honest right. Well theres your honest right there. I read it like the bible and like every little post is the key to my happiness and all the pathetic little girls on there are mine to demolish.

I liked the demolishing part. I should use that word more often. DEMOLISH!