"Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavments even if it leads nowhere. Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place should I leave it"

Hi readers.
So about an hour ago I decided to let go of all those guys. And don't take me for a "fickle" teenager. I seriously want to try this but what I didn't realize was how sad it would make me and how empty I feel just an hour later. Its hard to let go of you biggest dream. What you want the most and idk why but my biggest dream happens to be a boy. But the problem is the boys biggest dream isen't me and its not easy watching someone you truley care for see right threw you. Its not easy at all and I thought that by giving up i'd be ending the pain. But the pain I have now is worse then the pain of being ignored or whatever. Its so difficult figuring out whats best for a person. But I just want the pain to go away period. I'm waiting for that lucas and peyton moment where everything just comes into place and her waiting for him pays off. What I need is answers. Should I hold down or should I just let go and find something or someone else for me. My problem can easily be described by the song Chasing Pavments. I'm wondering if I should give up or stay on the ride even if it leads nowhere. I need sort of sign or direction to figure out what I should do.

You can't force someone to like you, but you can give them no reason to hate you. I've done that. Tried my best to be a nice person and hoped that maybe he would see the same light that I see in him. But hes not seeing it and its so sad. Its sad that I can sit here all by self torn up about someone and wheather I should try and end my feelings for them when their out there somewhere thinking of anyone but me. Some would say the fact that its one way is reason enough to just stop and look for another guy. Maybe I need to stick too it and see through the pain to figure find the light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe after I end this bittersweet crush I'll realize that I'm better off without it. I just don't know. I have no clue.

song of the day: Chasing Pavments