"Lead me/ Love me and free me/ Kiss me and free me/I will feel bleeeseed" - Will you be there? Michael Jackson

Hello blog,
Today has been an intresting day. It started out one of a kind with a super weird dream. I was in the car getting a ride with this family friend of ours on our way to target. The whole ride over we were talking about how hes an illegal alien which is weird because hes totally american. Before I know it we had driven into target. Thank god no one got hurt but I got taken back to my house in hand cuffs and was told that in a few days I would be taken off to juvie. Unfortunetly it was all over the news and all kinds of things. I was embarassed and started crying. It was terrible. I woke up in tears, I cry in my sleep more then I cry when i'm awake. It was seriously sad, but a few minuts later the phone rang. In my head I thought, OMG! Its 5 a.m. whats wrong with the world. Then it rang again and I thought, its someone from africa. When it rang a third time I was tempted to pick it up but truth be told I didn't want to hear bad news which is all that can come out of an early morning call. I got up at the regular time put my clothes on and found my parents upstairs on the phone with somber looks on their faces. My great uncle has passed away.

Now I've met my uncle twice before and he was a good guy. He had a nice smile that would cheer you up. You know people who smile and just light up the world? that was him. Not because he had perfect teeth or whatever just because he was one of the few people left in the world who had genuine happiness. As a little girl I didn't realize he was an alchaholic. He passed away from stomach problems and was only 59 years old. The weird thing is I didn't think I would be sad but I was all day. Part of me was sad because he had passed away but the other part of me was sad because my great uncle had just passed away and I was sitting in a classroom going on my buisness as if he'd never been alive at all. Thats the problem about not living around your family. I thought about my cousisn and the faces that I can't even place a name too. I thought about how they were probably all in morning in africa walking barefoot as the tradition holds. I don't know but I feel so dissconected and for the first time in my life I want to be connected to my family over there. But I don't know how I could do that. You know another thing i'm mad about is the fact that I was able to hold the tears in over a death, but when I had guy issues I coulden't contain the tears. I'm seriously messed up.

On a more light subject theres been some celebrity children drama today. It's funny because I just recently did a blog on them. The first news I got when I got back from school was about Miley Cyrus. TMZ (keep an eye on them their breaking big stories) got access to a video of miley cyrus grinding on a fourty year old man at a party. This was back when she was sixteen. No comment from the cyrus family or disney yet. I don't ever dump on miley because I know shes got talent. I also know what disney stars can become. You have all heard of Christina Aguleria, Justin Timberlake, and Britney spears right? They were all disney stars and have all topped the charts. Disney may be a joke at times but it gets you out.

The other big celelbrity news also involves videos. Private webcam videos of Blanket, Paris and jermaine jacksons son have come out on youtube. Blanket Jackson is so cute and has a bubbling personality. In one of the videos he was dancing, in another he was reciting star wars, but all anyone can talk about is blanket jackson saying "shut up" to his cousin. But anyways it was really cute and you should check it out on youtube. Theres only one video os paris and shes saying "monkey please help me". No one really understands what thats supposed to be.

song of the day: Can't be Tammed - Miley Cyrus

quote of the day: Carry Me
Like You Are My Brother
Love Me Like A Mother
Will You Be There - M.J.