"Right now hes probably dancing w/a bleach blond tramp & shes probably getting frisky/Right now hes probably up behind her..."

Hey everyone!
I have big news about a change in my life. I am completly starting over. Forgetting all the boys of the past and moving on. Why? Because the truth is none of them have ever given me reason to care about them. I give give give and get nothing back. Whos it helping? Definatly not me because at the end of the day i'm the one hurt while they all go on living their happy lives with their slutty "Friends". So heres to looking for a nice boy. Not nice looking but a nice boy who gives a shit me about me. Because the ones I've been giving all my focas too probably don't care if i'm dead or alive and i'm done with that. Before I held on because it was all I knew, but now I realize that there are 3 billion guys out there who are just waiting to be loved. And who knows if it was meant to be maybe it will happen but I have officially let go of all those other guys.

Don't get me wrong. Their not monsters or anything, some other girl would be lucky to have them but i've just figured out that girl is not me. And I'm tired of wasting my time caring for people who don't feel the same way or who have a funny way of showing it. From now on my heart only goes to those who deserve it. The guy who sends cute emails, flirty texts, and dosen't complain about how much flowers cost. When that guy shows up at my door I'll be there to show them that their love and care is appriciated. I won't just ignore them because i'll realize that someone caring for you for just being you is something big. All though some people ignore it and don't understand that being loved is a privlage not a guarente someone out there does. And THATS the guy I want to end up with. THATS the guy I want to be thinking about. For now its just me and I don't mind it because someone out there is worth the wait.

song of the day: Before he cheats - Carrie underwood

quote of the day: (In my mind I imagine all those guys I wasted my time singing this). I'm only gonna break- break your break- break your heart. (they can check that off the list)