"Smile though your heart is aching/ Smile even though its breaking/ When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by.." Smile by Charlie, MJ, and Glee

Hey readers,
I've been feeling yucky ever since I got back from school. The day started out ok. We talked a lot about immigration in spanish again. Thats like our new favorite topic in there and we waste like 30 minutes a class dissucussing diffrent ideas. Let me just say that some people at my school are sick. Talking about shooting down, and poisening. Their inhumaness just gives me shivers. Anyways after spanish I had seminar which was filled with fun because now i'm part of this glee fan club with some cool people and we'll meet every thursday to discuss glee. FINALLY people who enjoy television almost as much as I do. Then after that I did some more school things. When the bell rang to release I stayed to help Diversity club sell some cookies. We did pretty good and I bought a dollars worth. I know its sad but I dont have much money. I'm poor, and not ashamed to take donations :)

Anyways it went pretty well but I was a little dissapointed in my friends. Sometimes they just act so stupid. I'm not trying to me mean but its true. They act like 4 year olds sometimes and it's embarassing. And as cute as four year olds are its not cute when your in high school. I don't think I can take that anymore. I do have a few friends who are on the same maturity level but I'm starting to feel diffrent from them. One on one or even three on three we all can enjoy ourselves then act our age. But the minute one of our friends shows up everyone lets their gaurd down and acts like kids doing stupid games and making noises. If you know me at all you know that is NOT what I consider fun. I don't mind getting silly and being a little imature sometimes but they take it to a whole nother level and it bugs me. So how do I solve this problem? I count down days till summer. For the record it is 18 more days including weekends now. YAY!! I think a break from my social circle is muched needed.

I guess sometimes I just need someone to talk too. That is a big part of my problem. I need someone to sit down and just talk talk talk talk talk talk talk too. Although I do have some great friends and a wonderful family none of them really have time for me to just let it all out. My mom is easily annoyed and has a million and one things to think about. My dad is on a ship somewhere far away. My brothers world revolves around the wii. You can see how this can all be a dielema to me just letting go. I feel pretty lonley sometimes. I mean not that i'm a loner theres a million people around me most of the time but even when i'm in a room full of people I still feel alone. Maybe I should start boyfriend hunting... Theres really nothing around. JD has now sucken too low for me to even like him anymore. He posted this terrible rumor on facebook about this poor girl and I guess i'm starting to see his man whoreness. Then Plan is graduating in like a week so thats not gonna happen. Prince is a few miles away and I honestly don't think he wants to be chased after. He has a lot of life ahead of him and I for sure don't want to be a road block. So wahts the answer to my problem. Lots of bubble baths and oprah. And most of all music to keep me entertained. When the radio is playing i'm not alone.

song of the day: Smile - originally by Charlie Chaplin and performed by many others along the way.

quote of the day: We're born alone, We live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for a moment that we're not alone