I re-read something today. Do any of you remember that paper I told you I read. The one that was phenomenally amazing? I read it again today. And the effect still hasent left. Its magic. I love using that word. When I Say it I dont mean witchcraft or harry potter magic. I mean its people reaching the greatness that God has instilled in them. We all have greatness in them but the things and people I say are magic have reached it. And that paper reached it.

No guy I've ever ment besides the writer of that (prince charming as is now refered too on the blog) has ever written or said anything nearly as beautiful. I wish it was a lie and guys just walked around saying and writing beautiful things like that but it dosent happen anymore. The guys I know from school are all cute and attractive and nice but their not really smart. And if they are they dont seem to have themselves figured out as much as he does in that paper. He knows his weaknesses and he knows how he feels about his dreams where as a lot of people dont. Their just messing around sort of. Anyways I could go on and on about that paper.

I was talking to my friend about the whole dating thing. And ive blogged in the past about how the whole point of dating is finding the person you want to be with forever. Your true love. And she kept on telling me sometimes you just want to have fun you know. I dont get it. Is going to dances not fun? Is going to a birthday party now fun? Is going shopping w/friends and family not fun? Why do you have to be with a guy for it to be considered fun?

I've realized some of my deepest fears are things I want to happen. Like ive always had this weird thing where I was scared that after a school dance I was worried someone would walk up to me and be like PHONEY! You arent really shy your just pretending. Because when I dance im not really scared of anything. Im just having fun and if thats a loud person then thats what I am. If its a quiet person its what I am. Whatever it takes to have a good time while dancng. And I guess you can say i kind of want people to know im really not shy and that I can be outgoing and fun you know?

Song of the day:
Obsessed - Mariah Carey

Quote of the day:
Serena: How's your mom doing with the divorce.
Blair: Great. So, my dad left her for another man. She lost 15 pounds, got an eye lift. It's been good for her.
-gossip girl