I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze and love it a riddle

Hello everyone!

How are you all doing? I'm doing ok. Yesturday night I had a choir rehersal for contest on thursday. It went really good. It felt amazing to be part of a womans choir that good. It wasen't just my regular class but all the women in the choir program singing together and if you haven't been to a freestate concert that is a lot of women. We are singing nigra soom (meaning I am black in italian), and She weeps over rahoon which is an erik whiticar peice. I had never heard of erik whitickar before this but choir nerds are obsessed with him. He has one of a kind music. The song we are singing is almost creepy. Theres this part where the altos just start whispiring. It will definatly giving you chills.

On to a less serious subject, I read a line in a book that was seriously awesome! Ok so she said something unimportant around it but what she said was "that would be one of the 6 things I could say if I was a doll". It really got me to thinking what would I say if I was a doll!! I dont think i'm one of those people that repeat things. If i'm in long conversations i've caught on to the fact that I saw "you know what I mean" a lot. But other then that I dont really have a phrase that I say that much. It also got me thinking what my doll would look like. For starters it would be the first plus size barbie in the history of the world..not nesessarily a good thing. But hair would be so cute! And if I had to pick an outfit to wear for it it would be this flowerly blouse I got from forever 21 with dark blue skinny jeans. I would also want to wear the black shoes with a gold bow on them that I got from forever 21. In the doll world mariam carries around a louis vuitton. And I would want matching jewlary. I also would be a non- cheap doll which means I would come with more then one outfit. Long story short someone needs to make a doll out of me. I think you know who my ken doll would be... What would you in a doll world be like?

So on a more serious subject you know how latley before peeple buy something or get a new car they look on the online reviews. Well I was just thinking, if I owned a buisness it would be so easy to log in with diffrent names speaking about how great my little cafe or whatever is. Not to meantion you would give your friends free products to discuss how great it is as well right? I'm a little shakey when it comes to trusting some of that online buisness.

Guess what? My life is in a pattern. It seems like I cant get out of the same part of the maze, hence the title of the day. It seems like on certain aspects of my life I break through the wall (hard as it is, well for me since I have a brave-o-meter of 0) and then I glance at the other side of the maze. I see the finish line, and then I get pushed back where I came from. Actually I think being pushed back might be better, instead I get ignored. And its not really a good feeling when you see how good things could be, and then you go back to the old ways. Am I making any sense? Probabably not.

I hit a breakthrough with my piano playing! No one knows the secret but I totally figured out what can get me with that passion. You know what it is? I imagined two scenes while I was playing and it made me play with unimaginable passion. They weren't dirty seens but maybe they were a glimpse at the future. I caught one glimpse of me in a wedding dress all dressed up and at first there were a ton of people watching me and the groom dancing. And then suddenly everyone dissapeared around us as the song became more passionate and it was just us. It was so wonderful. And I didnt even realize my playing change till I got up and people around me were like starring at how good I was and my teacher goes "why cant you play like that all the time". And I thought to myself, now I know how to play like that." I just have to get the same happy at heart vision in my head.

Thats all for now readers. Have a quality day!

song of the day: The show - Lenka

quote of the day: Love is a game that two can play and both win.

Piano