April showers bring May flowers

Hi Readers! Hows life treating you. My life is ok...it could be better but its hard to be cheerful when its stormy and rainy. But im glad its spring. I'd rather take rain then snow anyday. But both make my hair curl up and it looks really cute for awhile untill it drys and looks bad. But you guys probably don't read my blog to hear about my hair. So the gossip of the day is that Jon Gosslin is sueing kate for primary custody. I don't watch the show but I don't know how they'll be able to have a show called kate plus 8 when kate dosen't live with the kate. But the good news is she survived the first round of dancing with the stars! Some more big news is that Jim Carrey and Jenny Mcarthy broke up. They were a really adorable wholesome couple. Some more big news is that Glee comes back next tuesday! I'm watching them on oprah as I watch this and I can not wait to see what happens next. Especially the madonna episode! Thats going to be awesome because madonna and belt it out with the best of them.

So for those of you who don't know I live in kansas! Kansas is a small state and I happen to live in one of the biggest towns in kansas. That is not saying much! I live in a small town. The only fun options of things for teenagers to do is shop downtown (we only have like 4 good stores), Swim at the outdoor or indoor pool, and go to the movies. Thats about it. Now you can always hang out with friends which is fun but eventually theres nothing left to talk about so whats one of the things that mariam does to entertain herself? Cable Television...now people tease me about it all the time but the reality is I don't have much money to spend and theres really nothing else to do so I follow my tv shows. One of my favorite on tv right now, is Gossip girl! I just adore gossip girl, me and tyra banks have that in comman. The story lines are great, they always suprise you, and last weeks was fabulous. But the sad part is my favorite couple broke up... so you all want to do me a favor. Cross your fingers and make a wish (now that wish is that mariam isen't going crazy, and that chair becomes an item again). Thank you :)

So you've probably all heard the saying I used as my title today. April showers bring may flowers. Well April has been an ok month seeing as i'm healthy, and have amazing amazing family and friends but I'm not getting far in making all my dreams come true. Education wise, as always i'm doing fantastic but i'm still looking for luuuv. At least I think I am. Sometimes I talk to my sensible friend who reminds me that i'm only 15 years old and I have my whole life ahead of me to be love. Then I talk to my non sensible friend who says look for someone. Its what you need to add some spark to your life. Go for your crushes before their in someone elses arms. But one of the many barriers between me and luv and some my other goals is the fact that i'm not as confident as I need to be to really get anywhere. I feel like if I go for things and try the only possible result is me getting hurt. And I have to say i've learned this from expirence. I can't live up to the potential that I have in my mind. I have some strong and really decent views but does it matter if no one can hear them? Sure I have this blog. And readers I tell you everything thats my buisness and some things that aren't my buisness. And if the stuff that I Type for you to enjoy would just come out of my mouth maybe i'd be somewhere else right now. To tie this back to the tittle i'm just hoping that good things will come to me along with mays flowers

song of the day: Don't Stop Believing - Glee version (speaking of glee if you go to myspace.com/gleeauditions you can send in a video of your self singing and possibly land a spot on gLee.

quote of the day:
be careful of the geeks you make fun of they'll be your boss one day - bill gates