Hey everyone! So I dont know if I meantioned it but there was a dance at my school yesturday. All in all I would give the dance 2.5 out of 5 stars. So if this was on the grading system it would fail. Why you ask? Well it was fun because Olivia gave me a ride and such and some of my friends were there. But there were not that many people total there. At first I wasen't really into dancing because I felt if I did the whole world could see me. It was weird I know, but eventually I did start dancing and I was having a really good time but the issue is a lot of my friends didn't really want to dance. And theres this alicia keys song that talks about how you can have the world on a golden platter but it wont mean anythign without friends to share it with. That was the story of my life yestruday.

I felt like I noticed an absence. 2 of my really really really good friends are dating people now. And i am really happy for them, they have nice guys who treat them like princesses and who mean the world to them. Theres nothing better a person could want for their best friend right?? Well along with me being happy for them I'm also just a little jealous and kind of miss them. Normally part of what makes dances fun is akira and I just kind of talk about boys and crushes and come up with plans we never go through with and its just the funnest thing ever. But yesturday she was buy with Terry and we only got to talk for a little while.. MY other friend was there but she left early which was kind of a downer. So I found myself talking to someone I dont even know that well who used to be my arch enemy about a boy. Sad huh? Which boy was I talking about? Plan. He was the world yesturday.

He looked adorable in this cute hat (Did I meantion I now have this thing for guys who where their hats a certain way, J.D. does it too) and he was wearing this like polo with a tie. He came with a big group of friends though and they were having a really good time together as a group. This blond girl was practically drooling over him. I dont blame her, but you know blonds finish first and mariams always finish last. But I did catch his eye a couple of times and that was nice. I was thinking about asking him to dance to my song (Take you down by Chris Brown) but then O. said I might embarass myself and get my feelings hurt. So I didnt ask, and then the girl who I talked too was like "isen't he ghetto, bad idea!" . I dont understand why all guys who are of color that is some sort of black have to be ghetto. I really think its stupid that just because they happen to wear a sort of thing and cuss that people are just like Oh god! it would be like dating the btk. Latley I just have an attraction to that kind of guy because I realized their more real. I like real, it also seems like they have a lot more fun and not to meantion their super cute. Tell me what you want but i'm going to stick to this for now.

Well I gotta go. Todays my brothers birthday.

song of the day: If I ain't got you - Alicia KEys

quote of the day: Its not how much you do but how much love you put in the doing