Do you ever stop to wonder....

Do you ever sit and wonder if maybe your just one step away from making all you dreams come true? Do you ever sit and think that maybe that boy loves you too? That maybe just maybe all these little nervous set backs were meant to happen, just so that one day, the right day something good will happen. Do you ever sit and wonder if maybe its all your fault that you've been sitting here single and its all not just based on luck? Do you ever stop to wonder if your hard work will pay off? If your just wasting your time or sticking through for a good cause? Do you ever stop to wonder if its weird to have so many little memories and if the one their about still remembers them too? Do you ever stop to wonder that maybe life is just a game, and maybe the only way to win is risk it all, your pride and all? Do you ever stop to wonder if maybe it all really does matter, whether your feet are too big, or about that scar on your cheek? Do you ever stop and wonder what would happen if you just did what you wanted and let nothing stop you?

Well I wonder, and i'm still wondering. Its never ending my what ifs. What I need personally is to figure out how to get past worrying about what could happen and just be. Just do what feels right at the right time. Loose the shyness and just go for it all. What if what I need is to give him a call... or just get over it all and face what is. You see how my brain works?? When I say i am trying to forget the what ifs they just happen all over again. AHHH......where are the signs when you need them the most and why do I waste oppurtunities when I need them most. Maybe what i need to get over the what ifs is...him. my brown eyed boy.