3/22/10

Hi everyone! Sorry for the weird blog posts yesturday. I was in the worlds weirdest mood and me being weirder then usual can be a little scary. Bear with me though the blog will get better. Oh and guess what??? I bring you good news of great joy (recognize that, its from a very famous book), Healthcare reform has passed! I had blogged about it earlier and although not a single republican voted on the bill the democratic majority won. The passing of this bill could possibly and most likeley will lead to universal health care. Ever heard of it? Universal healthcare is a government system where everyone gets 1st class healthcare paid for by the government. Its worked fantastic for all the other countries. I hope it will work well here too.

Last night I could not sleep. I think I was so used to the other scheduale that sleeping at 9:30 was like sleeping at 3 in the evening to me. so I tossed and turned for what seemed like hours and when I did fall asleep I hit the jackpot and had my first dream about prom. As much as i've been looking forward to it i've never had a dream about it. The weird thing was it wasen't even my own prom. I was at a prom with someone else. It was scary realistic though. I had to use my winter formal dress because there wasen't enough time for me to get another dress. I went to ediths house to get a weave and curled it in the dream. Then I drove off to meet my date. And let me tell you it was the perfect date. If I ever really got to go to prom with him it would be like the highlight of my life. We went and danced around for awhile and then a song played (stinkay leg) I was a little embarassed because I didnt know how to do it right so I admitted it to him and we laughed about it. It was the perfect dream...and to think theres a teeny tiny chance that it could happen. mmmmm, the beauty of dreaming is that i can live a fairytale through the dreams.

Yesturday while in a weird mood I sat and evaluated my life again. Remember I told you that was a good idea? Well I did and I figured out part of my problem is sometimes after going to school for a long time I change. Its the people rubbing off on me. From being around people that say life should be like this, or this I figured out that eventually I start to think the same thing. I start to compare myself to the supposedly "best most popular people" and I forget that thats what I dont want to be. I just want to be a content person with lots of happy memories throughout my life. So today when I was at school I studied myself. I figured out that I spend a little amount of my class time talking. I dont really talk in school. Im very quiet. I listen a lot though. I hear bits and pieces of so many conversations and those conversations are the problem. I shoulden't be listening to them. they rub me the wrong way and eventually I loose myself in this big bad world. I'm back and I know what I want. And this time im gonna get it. Im serious about this. I want to seriously put my mind on everything and make sure that everything on my list comes true. Any guesses what the number one thing on the list is???? well I know and with hope soon i'll be telling you it already came true.

song of the day: A dream is a wish you heart makes - from cinderella

Quote of the day: Peace begins with a smile - Mother Teresa