"You can break everything I am/Like i'm made of glass..made of paper/Go on and try to tear me down/I will be rising from the ground like a skyscraper"

Hi world,
Today's a down day. You know, I always come back to this blog when I have a down day. Always. I'm just not good at talking to people. I'm not good at letting other people know that I'm not perfect, and i'm not happy all the time. I'm not good at letting other people in. Lately it seems like everyone around me is happy, AND head over heels in love. Literally everyone. And they tell me all these great stories and i'm happy for them, truly happy for them. These are the people I care the most about and I know that they deserve it. But then I start to wonder, why don't I deserve it? Why don't I deserve a fairytale, a prince, the gift of being secure, and the gift of being able to open up. Why? I try not to be selfish, and I try to be appreciative of what I do have but it's not always that easy.

And sometimes I just want someone to notice. Someone to care. Everyone is so busy in their own worlds that I feel just plain alone. On the upper hand my little cousins came over yesterday and I played games with them for awhile, and they made me feel loved. My family does too, it's just I wish I had more friends who shared the same interest. Who were willing to just be there, no matter what. You know what they say, that which does not kill you can only make you stronger. So maybe this is my time to gain strength. To prove that no matter how hard people knock me down, i'll rise up. Like a SkyScraper.

That last line wasn't my genius it was Demi Lovato's. And she's been a big help to me lately. I've been watching her interviews and hearing her tell her story of depression, and insecurity. She talk's about her eat disorders and loosing friends she thought she was close too. And the world sent her a gift...the song SkyScraper. It's up lifting. And inspiring. And it'll make you cry if you've ever felt what she's singing about. Like the world is falling on top of your shoulders. Like there's nothing you can do to better yourself. Like your loosing yourself among the pressures to be perfect. So thats what I have on repeat. SkyScraper. And with hope, i'll be rising from the ground like a sky scraper and truly achieve not only greatness, but true happiness.

song of the day: Skyscraper by Demi Lovato

quote of the day: That which does not kill us makes us stronger.