"I finally found the good in goodbye, I used to want you so bad"

Hi everyone, I hope you're all good in every way. I don't know if this happens to everyone, or just me but there are moments where I hear something and it sticks. And just makes everything more clear. Yesterday mine came from church. I know everyone has different beliefs and I think thats maybe how it should be because different things connect with different people. I think at the end of the day there's just one god and different ways of worshiping him. But, if you don't believe thats cool too :) All are welcome at this blog. Anyways the words were about what gets you through tough times. And he said you get through not by focusing on what is wrong and what you want to happen, but focusing on God. The rest will happen as it's meant to be as long as your heart is in the right place. Now these exact same words were told to me by my best friend the other day. She was telling me to stop focusing on this guy, to move past but not over. I guess I didn't really understand what she meant but it was finally clear.

I may think I know what's good for me and what I deserve but I don't always know. And the truth is I have no control of what the future holds. So there's no point of sitting and stressing about it. Or worrying. Or even...hoping. For most people hope is a good thing, but for me hope means letting myself get carried away and...it's not a good thing. So i've officially set myself free of the crush, even though it was totally more then that..the word crush doesn't do it justice. That doesn't mean I don't facebook stalk every once awhile, and I don't sit down and sometimes think of him. It's at the most random times too. Like I just recently realized that my dad totally thinks he's a good guy, he actually remembered his name! He never remembers my friends names. And they talked...and it wasn't weird and I wasn't embarrassed. But anyways, i've given up on that idea and i'm waiting for the world to send me someone or something amazing my way. No more trying or crying. If it was meant to be it will be. In the words of the great Beyonce I finally found the good in goodbye..for now. Lets hope it actually lasts this time.

Song of the day: Best Thing I Never Had by Beyonce (Yes, i'm still in love with it. The wedding dress in the video blew me away. I loved it. Plus it's fitting for my current situation)

quote of the day: Sometimes all you need is a broken heart to realize that something even better is right in front of your eyes.Waiting to be found