I'm on the edge of glory and i'm hanging on a moment of truth, I'm on the edge with you

Ok so yesturday I watched the Dianne Sawyer interview with Jaycee Duggard. Wow. Wow. Wow. Anyone who saw it would probably say the same thing. Jaycee Duggard is a girl that was kidnapped by this psycho and his wife for 18 years. Can you believe it? Thats a lifetime. She was forced to live in the shed in his backyard. The man was already under trouble with the police for rapping another young girl, parol officers would come in and out of the time and none of them noticed or asked about why Jaycee was there. During her time in the shed she had two children with her rapist and gave birth by herself with just the man and his wife helping. There was a complication with the her first child and her capturer had to stick his hand in and untangle the umbilical chord :o . You'd think after all this happened you'd be pretty messed up and depressed right? Nope, she's happy as can be. She said being sad would mean the man won. Anyways, next time you think that you're having a rough time or can't find a reason to smile think of Jaycee. She went through a terrible situation and still found the light in the darkness.

I think thats the secret to happiness. The secret to everything being alright. Finding light in the darkness and holding on to it. Lately i've just felt bleh. Bleh means i've been a little down and I haven't been finding the spark in life. I guess I feel a little abandoned by those I love the most. When you're alone your forced to think about things, even things you don't want to think about. I've avoided thinking about things for a long time which made me avoid talking about things and just being quiet and silent like when I was really little. I think some of my friends thought it had something to do with them, but it had nothing to do with them and everything to do with me. Oh well. Life goes on. The light that i've found in my own personal darkness is education. Because education = pharmacy job which = Christian Loubitons, shopping, and traveling.

Education is something that I know will result in good things. There's nothing negative that can come out of it. There's no way my education won't want me or will choose someone else over me. There's no way my hard work will turn to nothing. Too bad education isn't as fun as other things...but I have to hope the fun will come later.

Random Fun Fact of the day: A baby was born at sixteen pounds in dallas texas! Thats the size of a six month old baby and he came out like that. The poor mother. But what do you expect...everything's bigger in Texax haha

song of the day: The Edge of GLory by Lady Gaga

Quote of the day:"The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for." - Bob Marley