Dreams. They're something special aren't they? I'm not talking about the random one where you're dating Justin Bieber or when some evil monster comes and attacks you. I'm talking about the ones that happen when your awake. When you let your heart believe for just a second and day dream. I've been doing it a lot more lately because I really feel like I was born to be somebody. Somebody worth something, somebody special. Weather that means being one of the last girls in my generation with values, or being somebody's faithful wife. Maybe being an author since i already wrote one book and am working on it's sequal. Maybe being a singer, even though I didn't make chamber :/ (still upset). Or maybe...I can be an actress. I spent the whole day saying, "I'm Mariam Ali, and YOU'RE watching Disney Channel. I know I'm weird, but i'd like to make it. I'd like to become someone big someday. I've always wanted too, but I was even more inspired after watching Nicki Minaj and Selena Gomez's E! Story. They were regular people, just like me. But they had a dream and they fought for it and they got it.

What I learned today though, after some research was being on disney channel isn't easy. I would need an agent who costs lots of money, and I would probably need to be a lot skinnier and a little prettier. And the chances are as they've always been One in a million. Am I crazy for wanting to be that one? For wanting to shine and prove everyone wrong? I think this started when my uncle called me a little while again. I hadn't talked to him in a long time and whenever we chat we always get crazy ideas into each others heads about making millions and showing people just how talented we are. We've always been more like friends then an Uncle and a niece. It's nice, I feel like I can tell him stuff about boys or wild dreams without being judged. I told my parents about my latest ambitions, and got a long lecture about success through education being a guarantee and acting not being an excuse not to study.

I want to study. I want to go to college and study pharmacy. I Think I can be perfectly content as a pharmacist. Actually more then content, comfortable. But will it bring great joy to my life? Of course not, what's so great about counting pills. The vacations I can take with that pharmacy money...now that's great but the job itself. No. I guess the reason i'm not truly following my heart is i've seen a good amount of people follow their dreams and fail. So i'm going to study hard and get my degree and get those scholarships, THEN pursue my dreams. And if it was meant to be it will be. That's for sure. Well we just took a little vacation into my soul. Hope you enjoyed it.

A few other dreams of mine are:
To have my own talk show host, Like Oprah and Tyra combine

To be editor in chief of people magazine (I love to write, I love celebs, I love that magazine so why not?)

Write a best selling novel similar to The Notebook. A true romance that makes you laugh and cry and feel in ways you never thought words could make you feel

To make an album entirely of songs by me. And to make them life changing. To be the kind of artist Taylor Swift is to me. An inspiration, and a friend when no ones there. The album should give advice and have a song for every emotion possible

Have my own reality show, and have a life increadible enough for people to actually want to follow me around.

Yuuup that's it

Song of the Day: If This Was a Movie by Taylor Swift

quote of the day: "Everything comes in time to those who can wait." - Francois Rabelais

(what are the chances this is the first quote I see on my quote website when I just blogged about the same concept. crazyyy. It's my luck)