Together can never be close enough for me/Feel like I am close enough to you/You wear white & I'll wear out the words I love you and your beautiful"

Hey! I feel good today, I thought you should know. As I was walking home from the bus stop listening to: Just the Way you are by Bruno Mars, Not Afriad by Eminem, and Got your back by T.I. I was thinking about just how great life is. I'm alive, and in the 21st century, with a great family and good friends. I have no right to be pouty about anything. I'm just enjoying life. But anyways something or rather someone else came to my mind while I was walking. Prince, the princinator. The more I think about it the more I don't think Prince fits him anymore. Maybe it never did...Not trying to say he's not princly but I can't really imagine him in tight spandex leggings and one of those old fashioned shirts with a crown on his head. I just can't see it but for the purpose of this blog, it works.

For the record, I am well aware that there are 3 billion guys out there. Every kind a person could dream of. Why am I stuck on just this one prince? I have no idea. I think my brain and my heart need to have a little conversation. They just both haven't gotten to it. My brain is saying, there are many fishes in the sea fishes that might actually like you or even think that your on the same planet once and awhile. Then my hearts like...ahh prince...ahh prince...ahh prince It literally beats like that. What should I do about it? I want honest to goodness advice. From you, my readers who are probably just 3 of the best friends I have but even those of you reading this that aren't them. Is it stupid for me to be fawning over him when he hasen't showed any interest back? Should I just try and find out once and for all what he even thinks of me? I'm just dying to talk to someone about it but I have no one because most just think i'm crazy for liking one person for sooo long. Maybe I am crazy. hmm...

The sad part is he doesn't even try to win me over and my hearts like already enslaved to him. Imagine if he actually said he loved me or something like that, my heart my have like a heart attack (God forbid). I was trying to think if I had a friend who was telling me about this whole situation. My advice to them would be "tell him how you feel...If he likes you back you'll be happier and if he doesn't like you he's a jerk and you don't need him anyways". I really suck at taking my own advice for the record. I guess with him I figure saying something would be nice but what would happen afterwords. It probably wouldn't lead to anywhere right now and it would just make everything awkward forever. The clock is ticking though, he's going to be gone in a few months.

I guess my secret plan is to suddenly become like Kim kardashian or whatever his dream women is and to just not be able to resist me because I have super girl powers. yes! good plan?? Probably not, but it will have to work till I have a better one.

song of the day: Marry me - Train (thats what the lyrics are from too)

quote of the day: Happiness is like a kiss. You must share it to enjoy it.