"I just can't be living this way/So starting today I'm breaking out of my cage/I'm standing up I'ma face my demons/I've had enough/now i'm so fed up

I am proud of myself. Do you ever analyze your life? I do sometimes, I think about where I was, where I am, and where i'm going. I like to think about a future where I'm better as a person and the things that i'd like to accoplish in life. This year has been a really good one for me because I feel like I have made some progress. I'm not as scared of everything as I used to be, and I'm less worried about my lame "secrets" getting out or something. I feel more open to be myself, and then I realized what it was that really made me feel that way. Diversity Club! Its made the biggest difference in my life and I didn't notice it until today's meeting. There are so many lessons I subconciously learned from Diversity Club and at the end of the day it made me feel good about myself.

Do you feel good about yourself? There was this Tyra show and there was this 9 year old girl talking about how her face was too fat, and she needed to get her teeth done. She was embarrassed of the way she looked and she was the cutest little thing. It makes me so mad that the society that we live in now makes people feel so bad about themselves all the time. If your not the cookie cutter person then your doing something bad, you need to work on being more or less like everyone else. I guess everyone goes through a time in their life where they feel a little insecure. Janet Jackson, one of my idols said at one point she would look in the mirror and find nothing good about herself. And she was making millions of dollars, there were posters of her in rooms all over the world but she didn't love herself. Its sad, because Janet Jackson is amazing! That just shows that everyones insecure, but if you learn to love your insecurities life will be a little bit better.

Today, in choir the teacher asked me something and lately she's been on a kick of calling me sweet. I honestly don't mind, I want to be known and really be a sweet nice girl. But anyways she mimicked me talking today. The old me would have been so sad and insecure but I didn't even care. My voice is me, and no one has the right to make fun of me for it. Some people are always saying I have a high voice, hello i'm a girl! At first I was all insecure and asked my friends what they thought, they all said there was nothing wrong with my voice and stuff. It used to kind of make me mad or worried about the way I sound but not anymore. You know what helped me? Knowing the people who talk about me are nowhere near perfect and never will be. What right do they have to say anything about me if they haven't reached perfection themselves?

Over all message of the day? Just love yourself. Your all beautiful people. Want to know how I know? Your reading this blog which most defiantly makes you awesome.

song of the day: Not Afraid - EMinem

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And by the way everyone, today is my grandma's 70th birthday! I don't know if shes reading this but HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!