2/22/10

Hey everyone!! Today was a fairly good monday. I intelligently found a mistake on my teachers gradebook in chemistrey and all my worries ended. I know have a high B+ nearing an A in Advance Chem. I feel proud of myself. But along with the good news, there was also some bad news in chemistry. At our school there will no longer be a zero hour. Its gone, and this is bad for some peope like me. My current scheduale is packed full, and that is with 3 elective classes. Spanish (which basically isen't an elective because you need to credits to get into a good college), Orchestra, and Choir. So I'm going to have to quit either orchestra or choir. I enjoy choir more, BUT orchestra is going to give me a better chance of scholorship. Everyone can sing. This whole scheduale thing makes like really difficult. The scary thing is college is so close. We're soon going to be grown up. I personally can not wait, but im feeling like I am kind of wasting my high school expirience. Although I am perfectly content with my life, I haven't really gotten crazy wild yet. Thats definatly on my bucket list. I'll get to it some day.

Theres a certain guy that I haven't been able to get out of my mind. It had been ahilwe, and I was in control. But today I was on facebook and I was like hmm, I think im gonna look up random guy and without even realized it I typed in his name. The one I was really thinking about. Who was I thinking about? Prince. The same prince thats a girl magnet? yes. The same prince I have no chance with? Yes. Why am I still thinking about him? Because I totally cant shake it off. Its weird. I am normally a girl who can really control her emotions but this is one of those things I absolutley can not help. And althogh a part of me deep down inside keeps saying "life goes on, life goes on" (the new motto of the year), the other part is screaming just wait. The moment will come when all will fall in place.

A moment on one tree hill I love more than anything is when lucas is asked "who do you see next to you when all your dreams come true". If I were to answer that question I would see my parents, my brother, my aunt beatrice, my grandma, about 6 of my best friends, and prince. These are the peopel that are there when MY dreams coem true. But in this fantasy its not hard for me to talk to him. In this fantasy we are both open books and that feeling I get when I see him is mutual. Is that really possible? OR should I wake up and smell the coffee. In reality not everyones dreams dont come true, but I dont see why I cant be that one person.

Today was my dads birthday. I want to give a shoutout to him. Hes the best father in the world and although we have our fights I love him! Happy Birthday dad!

song of the day: When I look at you - Miley cyrus

quote of the day: Promise me that you'll let your head follow your heart.