Ok so I dont know exactly how to to put this because I kind of never have. Its a part of my past that I dont even quite understand. From when I hit first grade to just recently I was kind of scared. And embarassed of being me. I couldent do it. I felt like there was something wrong with me. And to be honest im not sure what caused it. when I was in maryland I got a lot of compliments and I was the cute little girl because a lot of my parents friends didnt have kids then so me and my cousins were the cute african kids in town but I just didnt feel good about myself. Now that I look back on it maybe it was being one of two black kids in my class. It was always awkward during the martin luther king days when the teachers would be like kids at school couldent sit next to black people and blah blah blah. I hated those days. It took this year and maybe last year where I started to feel like I didnt care and I liked myself. Just the way I am.

Ok now that ive been honest with my blog twice and deeply regret both back to normal stuff. Patrick swazie died yesturday. What a shame. Ive never seen dirty dancing but I plan on seeing it sometime now. Kanye apolagized to taylor. I havent seen what taylor or latoya jackson said on the view today which sucks because I really wanted too. The gossip girl season premire was ahmazing. I feel in love with chuck, dan , and nate all over again. I love the name nate dont you? Especailly when its short for nathen and nathaneil (however you spell that)

Song of the day:
Im still loving paparazzi by lady gaga and sweet dreams by beyonce and anything NOT by kanye west.

quote of the day:
Happiness is nothing more than good health and bad memories :) I like that.