I dialed the numbers and he picked up the phone. He said hi.. Its amazing how many things I wanted to say at that moment like do you know how amazing you are, do you know I dream about you, do you know I think I may even love you I like you so much but instead I said hi is blank there and he said yeah and the conversation was over. I like this guy. A lot. And hes not just a guy hes a guy I feel comfortable around. It makes me smile just thinking about him. Hes perfect. From what Ive seen hes never made a mistake. Hes been nothing but kind to me. I talk to him like I havent talked to many guys. I dont feel like I have to be careful or like I cant be myself. Somethings just diffrent about him. Hes beyond cute. He sings and watches one tree hill. And I can just see myself working with him



Whats the problem? I cant even begin to say it. I dont know where to start. I dont know what he'd say. I dont know if he'd even like me. I listen to the lyrics to his song over and over again and pretend it was about me. I know pathetic right, but I just dont know.....I want him to want me. But I dont know how he feels. I cant ask how he feels. Ive tried talking to him via internet a couple times it didnt work. He just never replied. It kind of made me face reality. The truth is he probably only thinks of me as his sisters friend. Or some girl. I know he could have anyone in the world he wanted. He just has that kind of charm ya know? But could that person be me? Could I even love him the way his amazingness deserves? Should I tell him. Should I give up. Its a bid mess and I dont have the answers. I might never have them but all I know if I like him soo much. He means a lot to me unlike the other crushes ive had. But I cant say it. I could talk about other things with him. I had the pleasure of spending a couple days with my best friend and him and we talked and it wasent weird but it wasent like "datish". I dont know. Its a confuzing mess but maybe all it takes is 3 words.



song of the day: All my life



Quote:

All my life, I pray for someone like you and I pray that you feel the same way too.