I'm having a lot of trouble following my own advice. I mean I guess you could say there are soemthing I just know I should do in order to make a better world for myself but I dont do them. Maybe its because im not quite sure whats right or wrong. A big part of it is fear. I've gotten over fear of myself. At school I feel a lot more comfortable just being me even if thats really quiet at times or saying something dumb. So that was a nice step for me. I realize that your supposed to try to do everything you want to do it life Now. Because who knows if your gonna get another chance. Theres no time like the present right?

But does that seriously mean I should pick up the phone and call prince charming? That I should use my dads credit card and buy that book im dieing to read? That I Should forget my homework and just watch titanic because its something I love? Thats acting on your feelings right. Even though something is a little wrong there, like taking my dads card. I know its the wrong thing to do but its what I want and Im supposed to be living to the fullest, correcto? I could call prince but i've never once called him before and just saying I like you dosent really do anything for me right? But thats what I want to do. Watching titanic would be fantastic I even have the movie but ditching my homework hurts me in the long run.

So when do we truley do what we want to do. Will the day come when a person is truley free to do as they please without worrying about all these rules and expectations. Some people will tell you retirment? But think about it. By then if your young your in you 60s and you might not be physically able to do any of the stuff anymore. Like those who want to go bunjee jumping cant because their bones are week. And memory loss starts affecting people as they get older so you may have forgotten theres even a prince you need to tell something. Some people say while your in college. Welll I happen to know for a lot of people during college theres a money problem. College is expensive and not many people can afford it. So your supposed to be saving your money to be self dependent. When your an adult most people settle down. It dosent mean your dreams arent there but how are you gonna do it when your possibly married and have children. Or what if your not married because you never called that guy/girl when you were in 8th grade or whatever.

Everything you do affects you now but why is everything you want to do wrong in some way at whatever age group you are in. What is it deep inside your brain holding you back? Is it your intelligence? You fear? Or is it the part of your brain that makes up excuses to keep you from possible getting dissapointed or hurt?