Today im gonna talk about people with physical handicaps. I feel really bad for them you know becaue life is SO hard when everything is fine with your body and add something to make it harder. Theres this kid with a wheelchair at my school and I was chatting with taz about him and we were just thinking. I have a house in which you must climb stairs to get into and around and the child cant do it. There are so many things you dont think about that make life so much harder for them.
Little people big world is a show about dwarfs and I mean they talk about how the world was created for "regular" sized people. Imagine not being able to reach your doornob handle of the guy being able to see you in your car at the drive through window. That may be taking it to the extreame but just be extra nice to those people. They need a little more love to keep them going
Latley i've been seeing something special in people. Not all people but people non the less. I've been describing it as magic. I think its because I heard a quote by p. diddy where hes uses that and I absolutley adore it. Im think about people like M.L.K. when he spoke, he spoke with power like he was getting the word across in a way that other people cant. Or Maya Angeleou is a great american poet and she uses words in a way an averge person dosent. Michael Jackson could dance and sing like no other. Michael Jordan can play basketball with so much grace its like your watching ballet.
Do these people have magic in them? Are the better then everyone else? Or do they just let their magic come out. Do you think its a posability that I would be able to write a speech like Maya's and say it with the power and strength Martin Luther king had in his voice. Do you think I could moonwalk like michael jackson or Do a slam dunk like jordan? Is it there hardwork and effort that got them there or is there just something inside of them that was meant for greatness. Just ponder about that for a little while
Song of the day:
I'm in a backstreet boys britney spears in the early 2000s mood. Bye bye bye, or hit me baby one more time, or I want it that way (you are, my fire my one desire). Lets party like were in the 90s.
Quote of the day:
Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
About Me
- Forever yours, Mariam
- My name is Mariam and through this blog I'm discovering things about the world, and about myself. Through all my blogs you'll see craziness, political insight, celebrity mania, musical interest, total drama queen-ness,all about boys, and ever changing views on everything. I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I enjoy writing it. You're about read the pages of my epic diary. Welcome to my world, and feel free to come back ;)
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
I have another story for you. On monday it was the last monday of the night and me and my friend taz go out for lunch on the last monday of the months. Its gonna be a tradition we have for our whole time at freestate. Since taco bell just opened we choose that. Went into taco bell and it was my first time and I got this thing. I dont know what kind of taco it was but it was good. and there was like 10 people from my school there. And there was this group of guys and guess who it was? the spanish druggies. They pigged out and left the place all trashy and we finished about the same time so me and taz left a few feet behind them. They had a "joint" and they were all smoking from it. Ive never seen that before. And they kept worriedly looking back at us and this group of girls who was also working back to school but no one said anything and the next day the spanish guy got my books and put them away. I think it was his way of saying thanks for keeping your mouth shut and letting me kill myself slowly......i dont really know what to do but its none of my buisness
The tyra show always has fantastic topics. And today the topic was race and the questions everyone wonders and no one gets to ask. I payed close attention to the black people one because technically thats my race. They were asking why we put so many barretts in little girls hair. I never realized no one else did that. But I do know I walked around with a head full of barrets as a little girl and I guess thats my blackness. They also mentioned that it takes all day for black peoples hair to be done (that ones true). Ofcourse they mentioned that we all like ribs and friend chicken but thats because its GOOD. They talked about black guys with their perfect shoes, jewlary and dogs which a lot of the tougher ones are big on.
With latinos they talked abotu how they all fit in one car, the tight clothing, why they always dress their little girls up like their going to a wedding (I see nothing wrong with that, why not look beautiful all the time), they talked about how they eat all of animals and that was all I can remember
Anyways the questions were asked by diffrent races and the representitives of the races were answering them which was nice. They were all the questions that would be politically incorrect to ask.
The tyra show always has fantastic topics. And today the topic was race and the questions everyone wonders and no one gets to ask. I payed close attention to the black people one because technically thats my race. They were asking why we put so many barretts in little girls hair. I never realized no one else did that. But I do know I walked around with a head full of barrets as a little girl and I guess thats my blackness. They also mentioned that it takes all day for black peoples hair to be done (that ones true). Ofcourse they mentioned that we all like ribs and friend chicken but thats because its GOOD. They talked about black guys with their perfect shoes, jewlary and dogs which a lot of the tougher ones are big on.
With latinos they talked abotu how they all fit in one car, the tight clothing, why they always dress their little girls up like their going to a wedding (I see nothing wrong with that, why not look beautiful all the time), they talked about how they eat all of animals and that was all I can remember
Anyways the questions were asked by diffrent races and the representitives of the races were answering them which was nice. They were all the questions that would be politically incorrect to ask.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Story time pt. 2
Hello all!
No I do not suck for not blogging yesturday. I had so many ideas but I couldent blog because my internet was not functioning correctly. So I'll double the blog today.
I'm gonna start with STORY TIME! I know its everyones favorite time now back away from the computer and go sit on the magic carpet....just kidding. I havent lost it yet, its only tuesday I have all week left to go.
So in womans choir Ms. Morton told us a story. We werernt born yet and there was this huge tornado in lawrence. She had friends over at the time and her house didnt have a basment. So her whole family plus her friends where awkwardly standing in the bathroom and she was praying for the storm to end. And when it ended there was a huge double rainbow the most beautiful shes ever seen. And she said she was doing cartweels singing "I can see clearly now the rain is gone". And the whole class started laughing when she sang that line. It reminded me of a memorie of mind......
I was at camp wood which is part of the youth epispical thing I was telling you about. Remember where I met trevin? ring a bell? Anyways there was a tornado and at the time we were at church. We go to church every day twice while at camp. And its a lot of fun because the band is there but theres also horse back riding and lake and you know all the other stuff camps have. Well we were at church and then the pastor stopped in the middle of service (which NEVER happens) and said we're going to have to continue later i've recieved news theres a tornado. Please leave the church in an orderly fashion we've got to go to the safe house thingy(those werent his exact words). So we ran and the safehouse happened to be a room with no airconditioning where we were smushed like sardines for about 45 minutes. It was pretty bad. But afterwards we all ran back to the church there was a rainbow but it wasent SUPER pretty like Ms. mortons and the air felt fresh and then when we got into church we started singing Haleluigah the great storm is over, lift up your wings and Fly. And the singing was so loud and happy. It was a moment in life I was happy to be alive.
Now the storm stories have ended and im gonna talk to you about the author of frankenstien which is what we're reading in advanced english. She met this guy while he was HAPPILY married. after he met her his marrige wasent so hot anymore. He started having a secret affair. In June they got physical and by July the mistress (author of frankenstien) was pregnent. In August the mans wife drowned herself from depresion and two weeks later the man married his mistress. I hate these kinds of storys. Guys have to change. I am all for males are perfection. I love guys. Almost all of them but they create too many of storys likes this. Dont say I do before you love the person. Because you may be happy but think of the pain your old wife feels.
Now Karma comes in the picture. There was some desiese and everyone in the womans family died including her children which is (the worst pain anyone can ever go through, i've heard from tv and books and stuff). Anyways so the husband and wife were devestated and one day the husband went boating and got sucked into like one of those circle thingys in the water and died. She was left all alone with her depression. Now is that Karma or what?
Heres another case of Karma. My mom has a cousin in maryland who shall remind namless. Shes married to this guy name Sebastian. Both people are african One day they were at their church and a pastor came. He was one of those people like benny hinn who get visions and see beyond and all that great stuff. They werent siting together and the pastor called seb up on stage and started praying like there was no tommorow. When he asked whats wrong he said do you live at this adress (keep in mind they had never met the guy) and he said yes. Then he said lady in the red dress come up. And he started praying then he goes back to seb and says wheres your wife and he says its the lady in red up stage with me and he tells them thats hes getting a vision of a coffin in their house and that they should pray. I know this because they go to the same church as all my other relitives how quickly called afterwards to share the gossip
the terrible thing is it happened again in similar fashion. And one of them is really sick.(Seb) Its really scary. he gets sick every year and every year he says its pnemonia but everyone in my house is really worried he has something more serious because hes been getting this "pnemonia" and being forced to stay at the hospital like twice a year. And he looks in bad shape. My parents still think of me as a little kid but I understand. They keep saying they think he has something else hes embarassed to say he has. The thing is aids. But Im serious my parents have never said that word around me. Its like they think if they say it to me ill go out and have sex or something. To some it may be weird but my parents choose not to talk about that kind of stuff with me at all. Good thing? idk
No I do not suck for not blogging yesturday. I had so many ideas but I couldent blog because my internet was not functioning correctly. So I'll double the blog today.
I'm gonna start with STORY TIME! I know its everyones favorite time now back away from the computer and go sit on the magic carpet....just kidding. I havent lost it yet, its only tuesday I have all week left to go.
So in womans choir Ms. Morton told us a story. We werernt born yet and there was this huge tornado in lawrence. She had friends over at the time and her house didnt have a basment. So her whole family plus her friends where awkwardly standing in the bathroom and she was praying for the storm to end. And when it ended there was a huge double rainbow the most beautiful shes ever seen. And she said she was doing cartweels singing "I can see clearly now the rain is gone". And the whole class started laughing when she sang that line. It reminded me of a memorie of mind......
I was at camp wood which is part of the youth epispical thing I was telling you about. Remember where I met trevin? ring a bell? Anyways there was a tornado and at the time we were at church. We go to church every day twice while at camp. And its a lot of fun because the band is there but theres also horse back riding and lake and you know all the other stuff camps have. Well we were at church and then the pastor stopped in the middle of service (which NEVER happens) and said we're going to have to continue later i've recieved news theres a tornado. Please leave the church in an orderly fashion we've got to go to the safe house thingy(those werent his exact words). So we ran and the safehouse happened to be a room with no airconditioning where we were smushed like sardines for about 45 minutes. It was pretty bad. But afterwards we all ran back to the church there was a rainbow but it wasent SUPER pretty like Ms. mortons and the air felt fresh and then when we got into church we started singing Haleluigah the great storm is over, lift up your wings and Fly. And the singing was so loud and happy. It was a moment in life I was happy to be alive.
Now the storm stories have ended and im gonna talk to you about the author of frankenstien which is what we're reading in advanced english. She met this guy while he was HAPPILY married. after he met her his marrige wasent so hot anymore. He started having a secret affair. In June they got physical and by July the mistress (author of frankenstien) was pregnent. In August the mans wife drowned herself from depresion and two weeks later the man married his mistress. I hate these kinds of storys. Guys have to change. I am all for males are perfection. I love guys. Almost all of them but they create too many of storys likes this. Dont say I do before you love the person. Because you may be happy but think of the pain your old wife feels.
Now Karma comes in the picture. There was some desiese and everyone in the womans family died including her children which is (the worst pain anyone can ever go through, i've heard from tv and books and stuff). Anyways so the husband and wife were devestated and one day the husband went boating and got sucked into like one of those circle thingys in the water and died. She was left all alone with her depression. Now is that Karma or what?
Heres another case of Karma. My mom has a cousin in maryland who shall remind namless. Shes married to this guy name Sebastian. Both people are african One day they were at their church and a pastor came. He was one of those people like benny hinn who get visions and see beyond and all that great stuff. They werent siting together and the pastor called seb up on stage and started praying like there was no tommorow. When he asked whats wrong he said do you live at this adress (keep in mind they had never met the guy) and he said yes. Then he said lady in the red dress come up. And he started praying then he goes back to seb and says wheres your wife and he says its the lady in red up stage with me and he tells them thats hes getting a vision of a coffin in their house and that they should pray. I know this because they go to the same church as all my other relitives how quickly called afterwards to share the gossip
the terrible thing is it happened again in similar fashion. And one of them is really sick.(Seb) Its really scary. he gets sick every year and every year he says its pnemonia but everyone in my house is really worried he has something more serious because hes been getting this "pnemonia" and being forced to stay at the hospital like twice a year. And he looks in bad shape. My parents still think of me as a little kid but I understand. They keep saying they think he has something else hes embarassed to say he has. The thing is aids. But Im serious my parents have never said that word around me. Its like they think if they say it to me ill go out and have sex or something. To some it may be weird but my parents choose not to talk about that kind of stuff with me at all. Good thing? idk
Sunday, September 27, 2009
story time and obama and music news and more
I just finished talking to my grandma at the hospital. She had a knee replacement surgery. Imagine getting your whole knee getting taken out. Brave huh? I dont know why but a term in our family when refering to the elders is that their tough cookies. Like nothing can break them in away. She sounds much better. I told her about prince charming.....Not today but a long time ago and she seems to really like talking about the topic. Its pretty funny because she knows all the people I talk about so much she can tell you about their familys, where they live and all this information. yes she knows about the only two people I really told about this blog (Samira, akira).We get that deep into things. Shes great.
Obama finally did something that pushed my buttons. He wants shorter summer vacation and more school. America has 25%-30% shorter school time then former countrys and he wants us to have equal oppurtunitys in the world with the other nations which sounds nice but means more school. The big issue is china right now. They have so many educated people who study a ton and get spots in american colleges and no one can stop it because they provide us with cheap stuff made with cheap labor which we choose to ignore. american and China have a love hate relationship. They both need each other. I love politics. A lot. I love news. Not just celebrity news but like world news. Its something I Got from my family. My favorite politic time is elections though. The Debates, getting to know the dirty secrets of the people competting to be the leader of the free world. Its great but it only happens every four years. I remember 3 elections.
The first one I was in first grade and my daddy took me for kids voting because I was the only one at my house who could do any kind of American voting at the time. He told me that i'm voting for Al gore. He was preaching this to me all week so I dont forget and that was the first itme I Was told that I am democrat. Still am btw. The second election I was in fourth/fifth grade im not so sure. It was between bush and kerry and I started getting how it works. I learned abotu the electoral college and stuff. But the most fun election by far has been the one where obama wins because I payed waay closer attention to the news stuff and everyone in my home could finally vote for the first time. which made it more fun
Some more news stuff is one of the kerdashian girls (chloe) I think got married today to a guy whos on the lakers. Theres this woman I keep seeing on the news who claims she was molested by her father many times as a child. Gross. I feel horrible for her. The father is such a sicko. Theres no excuse for child molesting. And there hasent really been much big news. Some new music is out! Janet Jackson has a new song dedicated to her brother as I'm sure more of her songs will be and its called make me. And Alicia keys has two new hits out. Dosent even matter and Empire state something with Jay Z which I kind of like. Im not usually too big of a fan of JZ because his songs are too hardcore rap for me. I like rap but theres just something about Jz.
So should I keep having a song and quote for every entery?Today I decided to only put it on only one entry I made today.
Touch up on signs? My horescope was completley irrelevent today because I stayed home after fall fun fest. Delivered some cookies and took a nap. I also did homework and didnt really do anything to live for the moment. That needs to change. I just havent figured out how yet.
Obama finally did something that pushed my buttons. He wants shorter summer vacation and more school. America has 25%-30% shorter school time then former countrys and he wants us to have equal oppurtunitys in the world with the other nations which sounds nice but means more school. The big issue is china right now. They have so many educated people who study a ton and get spots in american colleges and no one can stop it because they provide us with cheap stuff made with cheap labor which we choose to ignore. american and China have a love hate relationship. They both need each other. I love politics. A lot. I love news. Not just celebrity news but like world news. Its something I Got from my family. My favorite politic time is elections though. The Debates, getting to know the dirty secrets of the people competting to be the leader of the free world. Its great but it only happens every four years. I remember 3 elections.
The first one I was in first grade and my daddy took me for kids voting because I was the only one at my house who could do any kind of American voting at the time. He told me that i'm voting for Al gore. He was preaching this to me all week so I dont forget and that was the first itme I Was told that I am democrat. Still am btw. The second election I was in fourth/fifth grade im not so sure. It was between bush and kerry and I started getting how it works. I learned abotu the electoral college and stuff. But the most fun election by far has been the one where obama wins because I payed waay closer attention to the news stuff and everyone in my home could finally vote for the first time. which made it more fun
Some more news stuff is one of the kerdashian girls (chloe) I think got married today to a guy whos on the lakers. Theres this woman I keep seeing on the news who claims she was molested by her father many times as a child. Gross. I feel horrible for her. The father is such a sicko. Theres no excuse for child molesting. And there hasent really been much big news. Some new music is out! Janet Jackson has a new song dedicated to her brother as I'm sure more of her songs will be and its called make me. And Alicia keys has two new hits out. Dosent even matter and Empire state something with Jay Z which I kind of like. Im not usually too big of a fan of JZ because his songs are too hardcore rap for me. I like rap but theres just something about Jz.
So should I keep having a song and quote for every entery?Today I decided to only put it on only one entry I made today.
Touch up on signs? My horescope was completley irrelevent today because I stayed home after fall fun fest. Delivered some cookies and took a nap. I also did homework and didnt really do anything to live for the moment. That needs to change. I just havent figured out how yet.
Is there such thing as a sign?
Do you believe in signs? It dosent really matter where you think they come from but just signs. Like your really worried about your test then you pull on a sweater take a look at the tag in the back and the brand is sucsess or something. Would you take it as a sign or a coinidence. It kind of depends on the day for me. If it is an upbeat day and I feel good then ofcourse it will be a sign but if im kind grouchy and stuff its always just a weird coincidence.
What about horescopes? Its pretty well known that a majority of the time their made up by whatever companys writing them but dosent it come true sometimes? Some peoples theory is that the people who read their horescopes are just looking for some similaritys between their day and what they read. Its kind of like when your looking for something bad in a person you always find it. When you are looking for something in your day you will also find it. Im not sure what to think but I get some bad signs about things. Or reality checks persay. Like I was thinking about weather to go practice my piano or facebook. So I log on to facebook and clique on somes page and it says that they are no longer friends with me. But it wasent me like I was worried about. I didnt get why they would delete me, I guess they just deleted everyone. Anyways Im gonna post my sagatarious horescope for today and see if its true.
Quickie
At times, being blunt can also be charming! Dust off your direct manner and use it.
Overview
There is no need to avoid confrontation today -- in fact, you really need to make sure that you're as direct as can be! It's a really good day for you to speak plainly to all the right people.
Daily Flirt:
Keep your awesome emotional state of mind to yourself. Try not to make a big deal out of your good mood -- there's no need to ruin it if everyone else is feeling down. It's a good time to have fun with your sweetie, or acquire a new one! (hmm?)
Daily Singles:
When a song or an image transports you back in time, don't fight it. Enjoy the flood of nostalgia. It's reminiscent of happy childhood innocence. Recapture the essence of youth and apply it to your currently crazy, even sinful, adult life. (sinful? Not.)
What about horescopes? Its pretty well known that a majority of the time their made up by whatever companys writing them but dosent it come true sometimes? Some peoples theory is that the people who read their horescopes are just looking for some similaritys between their day and what they read. Its kind of like when your looking for something bad in a person you always find it. When you are looking for something in your day you will also find it. Im not sure what to think but I get some bad signs about things. Or reality checks persay. Like I was thinking about weather to go practice my piano or facebook. So I log on to facebook and clique on somes page and it says that they are no longer friends with me. But it wasent me like I was worried about. I didnt get why they would delete me, I guess they just deleted everyone. Anyways Im gonna post my sagatarious horescope for today and see if its true.
Quickie
At times, being blunt can also be charming! Dust off your direct manner and use it.
Overview
There is no need to avoid confrontation today -- in fact, you really need to make sure that you're as direct as can be! It's a really good day for you to speak plainly to all the right people.
Daily Flirt:
Keep your awesome emotional state of mind to yourself. Try not to make a big deal out of your good mood -- there's no need to ruin it if everyone else is feeling down. It's a good time to have fun with your sweetie, or acquire a new one! (hmm?)
Daily Singles:
When a song or an image transports you back in time, don't fight it. Enjoy the flood of nostalgia. It's reminiscent of happy childhood innocence. Recapture the essence of youth and apply it to your currently crazy, even sinful, adult life. (sinful? Not.)
I'm having a lot of trouble following my own advice. I mean I guess you could say there are soemthing I just know I should do in order to make a better world for myself but I dont do them. Maybe its because im not quite sure whats right or wrong. A big part of it is fear. I've gotten over fear of myself. At school I feel a lot more comfortable just being me even if thats really quiet at times or saying something dumb. So that was a nice step for me. I realize that your supposed to try to do everything you want to do it life Now. Because who knows if your gonna get another chance. Theres no time like the present right?
But does that seriously mean I should pick up the phone and call prince charming? That I should use my dads credit card and buy that book im dieing to read? That I Should forget my homework and just watch titanic because its something I love? Thats acting on your feelings right. Even though something is a little wrong there, like taking my dads card. I know its the wrong thing to do but its what I want and Im supposed to be living to the fullest, correcto? I could call prince but i've never once called him before and just saying I like you dosent really do anything for me right? But thats what I want to do. Watching titanic would be fantastic I even have the movie but ditching my homework hurts me in the long run.
So when do we truley do what we want to do. Will the day come when a person is truley free to do as they please without worrying about all these rules and expectations. Some people will tell you retirment? But think about it. By then if your young your in you 60s and you might not be physically able to do any of the stuff anymore. Like those who want to go bunjee jumping cant because their bones are week. And memory loss starts affecting people as they get older so you may have forgotten theres even a prince you need to tell something. Some people say while your in college. Welll I happen to know for a lot of people during college theres a money problem. College is expensive and not many people can afford it. So your supposed to be saving your money to be self dependent. When your an adult most people settle down. It dosent mean your dreams arent there but how are you gonna do it when your possibly married and have children. Or what if your not married because you never called that guy/girl when you were in 8th grade or whatever.
Everything you do affects you now but why is everything you want to do wrong in some way at whatever age group you are in. What is it deep inside your brain holding you back? Is it your intelligence? You fear? Or is it the part of your brain that makes up excuses to keep you from possible getting dissapointed or hurt?
But does that seriously mean I should pick up the phone and call prince charming? That I should use my dads credit card and buy that book im dieing to read? That I Should forget my homework and just watch titanic because its something I love? Thats acting on your feelings right. Even though something is a little wrong there, like taking my dads card. I know its the wrong thing to do but its what I want and Im supposed to be living to the fullest, correcto? I could call prince but i've never once called him before and just saying I like you dosent really do anything for me right? But thats what I want to do. Watching titanic would be fantastic I even have the movie but ditching my homework hurts me in the long run.
So when do we truley do what we want to do. Will the day come when a person is truley free to do as they please without worrying about all these rules and expectations. Some people will tell you retirment? But think about it. By then if your young your in you 60s and you might not be physically able to do any of the stuff anymore. Like those who want to go bunjee jumping cant because their bones are week. And memory loss starts affecting people as they get older so you may have forgotten theres even a prince you need to tell something. Some people say while your in college. Welll I happen to know for a lot of people during college theres a money problem. College is expensive and not many people can afford it. So your supposed to be saving your money to be self dependent. When your an adult most people settle down. It dosent mean your dreams arent there but how are you gonna do it when your possibly married and have children. Or what if your not married because you never called that guy/girl when you were in 8th grade or whatever.
Everything you do affects you now but why is everything you want to do wrong in some way at whatever age group you are in. What is it deep inside your brain holding you back? Is it your intelligence? You fear? Or is it the part of your brain that makes up excuses to keep you from possible getting dissapointed or hurt?
Fall Festival
I had an amazing time at fall festival. wondering what it is? Fall fun fest is where all the christian-epispical youth from all over kansas and mizzou come together and have fun. I arived with my friend meredith. Our friendship is kind of weird. Shes sort of ill mentally I Think, or slow or something. Anyways I've known her since first grade and we hang out sometime but it dosent feel like any other friendships I have. I feel like I have to be extra nice and understanding and cant ever say anything mean. But we both believe that same thing so its cool. When we got there they were playing Bear, ninja, cowboy which is like rock paper sizzors but you use your whole body. I got out both times and everyone was a little bit awkward cause we havent seen each other in awhile. And we also played do you love your neighbor? It helps as learn names and its based of the line in the bible that say to love your neighbor as yourself. Then we sang some songs and danced a little and the blow up stuff was ready.
They always get this humongous obsitcle course and blow up games outside, plus the church park so we just played around with board games, outdoor games and stuff outside. They got gigantic speakers and were playing songs that everyone loves like I gotta feeling, party in th usa you know the top songs. I knew a few people there. And this one girl named angelica that I knew was hanging out with this very wild (yes wilder then you) girl who then knew these wichita people and one of them was a very cute guy.......... No I did not forget about prince charming. He is still my prince. And always will be. And he still has the most beautiful words in the world but this guy was cute too. not AS cute but cute. And his name was either teavin or trevin. He plays the violin and hes " not good but not BAD". I sat at his table for dinner and at first he was like "your quiet" and I said I just dont have anything to say right now. So he started asking me questions and we talking a little and he gave me this look that made me feel like I had a cute personality. Cause he would mimic some of my expressions and then smile afterwards and we kind of connected. He played basketball amazingly. He was mixed. And taller then me but not by a lot. But thats over now cause he lives in wichita and is a senior so I may not see him again unless I go to other youth events out of town before he graduates. And he looked into my eyes a couple of times. Like deeply. It was weird. I wonder what he thought of me?
On the topic of epispical boys the are the sweetest you will ever meet. Im not even kidding they are all sweet hearts. Their not nessisarily all gorgeous like treavin mentioned above but they are sweet boys with nice personalities. Like when it comes to cleaning up 2 guys volunteered to vacum the girls rooms so we could just hang out outside. They hold doors for everyone walking out and at the end of events they will carry stuff and treat girls kindly, like princesses. They are good guys. And whenever I think of them in the future you just know their gonna end up being the dads carrying their kids on their sholders with a big goofy smile on their faces.
song:
how great is out god - chris tomlin
quote :
They call us the stand up, sit down fight fight fight church (catholics and their mean jokes)
- Pastor sarah knoll williams
They always get this humongous obsitcle course and blow up games outside, plus the church park so we just played around with board games, outdoor games and stuff outside. They got gigantic speakers and were playing songs that everyone loves like I gotta feeling, party in th usa you know the top songs. I knew a few people there. And this one girl named angelica that I knew was hanging out with this very wild (yes wilder then you) girl who then knew these wichita people and one of them was a very cute guy.......... No I did not forget about prince charming. He is still my prince. And always will be. And he still has the most beautiful words in the world but this guy was cute too. not AS cute but cute. And his name was either teavin or trevin. He plays the violin and hes " not good but not BAD". I sat at his table for dinner and at first he was like "your quiet" and I said I just dont have anything to say right now. So he started asking me questions and we talking a little and he gave me this look that made me feel like I had a cute personality. Cause he would mimic some of my expressions and then smile afterwards and we kind of connected. He played basketball amazingly. He was mixed. And taller then me but not by a lot. But thats over now cause he lives in wichita and is a senior so I may not see him again unless I go to other youth events out of town before he graduates. And he looked into my eyes a couple of times. Like deeply. It was weird. I wonder what he thought of me?
On the topic of epispical boys the are the sweetest you will ever meet. Im not even kidding they are all sweet hearts. Their not nessisarily all gorgeous like treavin mentioned above but they are sweet boys with nice personalities. Like when it comes to cleaning up 2 guys volunteered to vacum the girls rooms so we could just hang out outside. They hold doors for everyone walking out and at the end of events they will carry stuff and treat girls kindly, like princesses. They are good guys. And whenever I think of them in the future you just know their gonna end up being the dads carrying their kids on their sholders with a big goofy smile on their faces.
song:
how great is out god - chris tomlin
quote :
They call us the stand up, sit down fight fight fight church (catholics and their mean jokes)
- Pastor sarah knoll williams
Friday, September 25, 2009
I just read the most beautiful thing ever. Im serious it beats shakesphere and all the other losers who think they can write. It was by this guy, remember my prince? Well he can write too! And I related to every single word he said. He took some of the thoughts in my mind and put them to words. When people see me they dont really see ME. The person I am inside and only a couple people get that oppurtunity. My family and maybe like 4 of my friends..
And he talked abotu dreaming. And thats my big thing. I love to dream and hope and it just gives me faith that things will be better. Theres this part where he says "When life dissapoints me I depend on my thoughts for comfort, like a drunk with liquer". I do it too! When things horrible like my moms yelling at me or i've been called that name I hate so much yet again. I sit in my bed and I dream about this life that I want and cant reach. And he does the same thing. Its amazing. Its like I almsot saw him through this whole nother light.
Before I listed of the good things about him, look below but after reading that I see him better. There was this thing about him I just didnt really get. Part of me was wondering if he was just your typical girl magnet you know. Because I've read through a lot of his photo comments and stuff and the was he responds with the slang terms and such. He was on the football team. He started seeming like you know the guy everyone wants. Which he still is...but after reading it I got that theres something else in him. Deep inside theres this guy that isent what you see from the outside its deeper and my perfect match.
Theres another part where he talks about being afraid that maybe your not really all you think you can be so you use excuses. I do that. I dont want to fail at piano so my excuse is that im not that into it or I just dont practice because what If I do practice like im supposed to and dont get that talent I dream about. Or when I sing I worry about really just singing because what If I do and its not great? What if im just your average failure. And its a fear that lives deep inside that makes me feel insicure and I thought that only I had. Fear of being good at something, or not getting something
It even relates to him. I've known of him since like 5th grade. And at anyone of thsoe occasions I could have walked up to him and find some words not nearly as beautful as his and say them. Let him know that im there liking him, and rooting him every day even though im far away. But I havent been able too. Because im scared that I will and he wont like me at all. Or i'll be too fat, or too dark, or not have the right smile or butt or anything but if I sit and dream about it he always takes me. Thats why I choose the dreaming route because im scared to actually live life and face rejection. His words just made a little part of the world make more sense to me.
But I cant take the risk because I cant fail. I've been rejected before and it didnt feel good. And I felt pain and I dont want to feel that. Reading that 1 page paper helped me learn a whole nother side to him and like him even more. But I cant tell him. God gave me the worlds best chance. After I read through it a couple times before blogging I went to facebook and got online but then he logged off before I said anything.
I wonder if he ever got a peak inside my mind through something what he'd think of me. Would he think we were similar like I just thought. Would he think we were complete oppisites. Would he think I was just what he always thought of me? or would he see me in a new light. See the mariam inside. Would he love me? Would he hate me? Or would he not think twice about it.
I will never know.
And he talked abotu dreaming. And thats my big thing. I love to dream and hope and it just gives me faith that things will be better. Theres this part where he says "When life dissapoints me I depend on my thoughts for comfort, like a drunk with liquer". I do it too! When things horrible like my moms yelling at me or i've been called that name I hate so much yet again. I sit in my bed and I dream about this life that I want and cant reach. And he does the same thing. Its amazing. Its like I almsot saw him through this whole nother light.
Before I listed of the good things about him, look below but after reading that I see him better. There was this thing about him I just didnt really get. Part of me was wondering if he was just your typical girl magnet you know. Because I've read through a lot of his photo comments and stuff and the was he responds with the slang terms and such. He was on the football team. He started seeming like you know the guy everyone wants. Which he still is...but after reading it I got that theres something else in him. Deep inside theres this guy that isent what you see from the outside its deeper and my perfect match.
Theres another part where he talks about being afraid that maybe your not really all you think you can be so you use excuses. I do that. I dont want to fail at piano so my excuse is that im not that into it or I just dont practice because what If I do practice like im supposed to and dont get that talent I dream about. Or when I sing I worry about really just singing because what If I do and its not great? What if im just your average failure. And its a fear that lives deep inside that makes me feel insicure and I thought that only I had. Fear of being good at something, or not getting something
It even relates to him. I've known of him since like 5th grade. And at anyone of thsoe occasions I could have walked up to him and find some words not nearly as beautful as his and say them. Let him know that im there liking him, and rooting him every day even though im far away. But I havent been able too. Because im scared that I will and he wont like me at all. Or i'll be too fat, or too dark, or not have the right smile or butt or anything but if I sit and dream about it he always takes me. Thats why I choose the dreaming route because im scared to actually live life and face rejection. His words just made a little part of the world make more sense to me.
But I cant take the risk because I cant fail. I've been rejected before and it didnt feel good. And I felt pain and I dont want to feel that. Reading that 1 page paper helped me learn a whole nother side to him and like him even more. But I cant tell him. God gave me the worlds best chance. After I read through it a couple times before blogging I went to facebook and got online but then he logged off before I said anything.
I wonder if he ever got a peak inside my mind through something what he'd think of me. Would he think we were similar like I just thought. Would he think we were complete oppisites. Would he think I was just what he always thought of me? or would he see me in a new light. See the mariam inside. Would he love me? Would he hate me? Or would he not think twice about it.
I will never know.
As you know I have been intrested in the tyra show latley and today she had a couple of little things thatt got me thinking. You know who the most sucsessful people in life are? Tall males. I'm serious it was part of the show today. They make the most money and have the most children and have the highest percentage of people who end up married. Tall woman who are not models are the least sucsessful and out of all woman they have the least number of children because you know survival of the fitest? Well it dosent work out for tall woman because guys have the whole superiority thing. Anyways I thought i'd share. prove them wrong tall women out there.
Latley there have been all kind of weird conditions and storys coming up and Im gonna share another one with you today. Theres this woman who started growing again at 20. It is super weird but shes 6'6" (her chances of sucsess are down) and 500 pounds and shes still growing the way an average girl does in her preteens and teens. And she hasent stopped. She used to be your average girl you know loving those bikinnis and horse back riding and now she can barley fit into a van. She has a walker and its really sad. Keep her in your prayers
Ok so eveyrones seen the video of beyonce right? The one where she brings that poor cancer patient on stage with her and sings halo to her. It will bring tears to your eyes its so sweet. "Big ups" to her.
Today at lunch I met this girl. and it all started because we were talking about taco bell. Because they built one right in front of our school and im gonna go on monday but thats besides the point. I have never been there before and neither and this girl names sarah and people were like omgosh. And then this natilie girl was like what, next your gonna tell me you've never been to mcdonalds. And everyone started laughing then this really quiet girl serena goes i've never been to mcdonalds. Everyones first reaction was your lieing. Everyones been to mcdonalds. Come on its like breathing. Everyone does it. Then she told us she was a vegan and has been since she was born. Never once in her life has she had meat. And she said she never will because she knows whats in it and has seen the animals. So have I but that dosent stop me from having steak or whatever. So living proof. People in america go without ever touching mcdonalds...though shes the only one i've ever met.
Song of the day:
read below I blogged twice
quote of the day:
You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.
VEGAN GIRL
Latley there have been all kind of weird conditions and storys coming up and Im gonna share another one with you today. Theres this woman who started growing again at 20. It is super weird but shes 6'6" (her chances of sucsess are down) and 500 pounds and shes still growing the way an average girl does in her preteens and teens. And she hasent stopped. She used to be your average girl you know loving those bikinnis and horse back riding and now she can barley fit into a van. She has a walker and its really sad. Keep her in your prayers
Ok so eveyrones seen the video of beyonce right? The one where she brings that poor cancer patient on stage with her and sings halo to her. It will bring tears to your eyes its so sweet. "Big ups" to her.
Today at lunch I met this girl. and it all started because we were talking about taco bell. Because they built one right in front of our school and im gonna go on monday but thats besides the point. I have never been there before and neither and this girl names sarah and people were like omgosh. And then this natilie girl was like what, next your gonna tell me you've never been to mcdonalds. And everyone started laughing then this really quiet girl serena goes i've never been to mcdonalds. Everyones first reaction was your lieing. Everyones been to mcdonalds. Come on its like breathing. Everyone does it. Then she told us she was a vegan and has been since she was born. Never once in her life has she had meat. And she said she never will because she knows whats in it and has seen the animals. So have I but that dosent stop me from having steak or whatever. So living proof. People in america go without ever touching mcdonalds...though shes the only one i've ever met.
Song of the day:
read below I blogged twice
quote of the day:
You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.
VEGAN GIRL
more on michael
Imagine this scenerio. Your a docter about 58 years old. You have a pretty big office and are living sucsessfully. Your living with your girlfriend and a 50 years old man comes to your sobbing. He weighs less then 100 pounds. He has the saddest eyes you've ever scene and is being forced into things he dosent want to do. This an is...michael jackson? As you know I've been really intrested in the whole michael deal, life, music a lot about him. And I figured in order to get closer into knowing the guy I should read books about him. I litterally just finished reading The final days of michael jackson unmasked. And in the book the way he describes the death is as something possibly planned out by the kind of pop himself. Apperently he was really depressed and tired of this world.
Can you imagine. Like being so bad you dont want to be here anymore. I cant think of it. A lot of stuff must have to go wrong. But its making a little sense to me. Everyone who says saw him they say he gave a hug and said he loved them. Said goodbye or held them tighter then usual. He was leaving magic in the world before he melts away. He wrote exactly 200 songs that are left to no other person, just his children that he figured they could live off of forever. He set everything in proper order for him to just leave. Do you buy it? I dont even know whats the truth and whats not but what I REALLY want is for Janet to right a book about her brother. I want to see everything from her point of veiw but the chances are slim.....Ill twitter her about it.
And the movie is in the works. So we'll get to see with our own eyes what Mr. Jackson was like in his last days and what I want to see is a smile. But if he looks the way the book describes and the hospital people describe I may just have to bring a box of tissues and not for my never ending sniffles. I hate being sick....
Song of the moment:
The way you make me feel - micahel
quote of the day:
to come in my next blog....
Can you imagine. Like being so bad you dont want to be here anymore. I cant think of it. A lot of stuff must have to go wrong. But its making a little sense to me. Everyone who says saw him they say he gave a hug and said he loved them. Said goodbye or held them tighter then usual. He was leaving magic in the world before he melts away. He wrote exactly 200 songs that are left to no other person, just his children that he figured they could live off of forever. He set everything in proper order for him to just leave. Do you buy it? I dont even know whats the truth and whats not but what I REALLY want is for Janet to right a book about her brother. I want to see everything from her point of veiw but the chances are slim.....Ill twitter her about it.
And the movie is in the works. So we'll get to see with our own eyes what Mr. Jackson was like in his last days and what I want to see is a smile. But if he looks the way the book describes and the hospital people describe I may just have to bring a box of tissues and not for my never ending sniffles. I hate being sick....
Song of the moment:
The way you make me feel - micahel
quote of the day:
to come in my next blog....
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Ok so I just got my hair done. And I feel cute? Dont you like feeling cute. I feel bad for perfectionists who are never pleased with the way they look. A little boost of confindence is good every once in awhile.
Guess what? In chemistry they were teaching us about this new thing that their trying to invent where you have trash and then it goes dont to the smallest atom and then afterwards you type something on a key bored or microwave number code and put like peparoni pizza and the atoms will break themselves down and turn into a pizza? cool right. Reality is there are a LOT of cool inventions out there but whats even the point their all like 4, 000,000,000 dollers. I think even if my whole family lived on nothing but water and bread we couldent EVER get that. So its kind of dissapointing.
Ok a lot of weird baby stuff happened today. This woman delivered the fattest baby in history. He was a 19 pounder! I love how I put that he sounded like a hamberger :). Or hamburgesa in spanish. Oh and this other lady got pregnent twice and their not twins. Its a rare thing but it happens. Coming to bedrooms near you....
Theres a rapist going around in lawrence and im not gonna lie to you im scared. Hes aiming at college aged students though which is good....well not for them. I dont know what pursuades people to do that. Is it the fact that their not with anyone or do they just like hurting people. Its a shame that that happens in our society but when you think about it with animals its basically rape all the time. They dont meet and date. You know fall in love it just happens and whats done is done. Thank god I'm a human
Song of the day:
I'm so mad because I had an amazing one and waited all day to put it on my blog and FORGOT!
So im putting Jesus take the wheel by carrie underwood that song makes me smile.
quote (from song)
"she had a lot of her mind and she didnt pay attention, she was going way too fast. Before she knew she was on cold black sheet of glass. She saw both their lives flash before her eyes. She didnt even have time to cry she was so scared. She put her hands up in the air. Jesus take the wheel. "
Guess what? In chemistry they were teaching us about this new thing that their trying to invent where you have trash and then it goes dont to the smallest atom and then afterwards you type something on a key bored or microwave number code and put like peparoni pizza and the atoms will break themselves down and turn into a pizza? cool right. Reality is there are a LOT of cool inventions out there but whats even the point their all like 4, 000,000,000 dollers. I think even if my whole family lived on nothing but water and bread we couldent EVER get that. So its kind of dissapointing.
Ok a lot of weird baby stuff happened today. This woman delivered the fattest baby in history. He was a 19 pounder! I love how I put that he sounded like a hamberger :). Or hamburgesa in spanish. Oh and this other lady got pregnent twice and their not twins. Its a rare thing but it happens. Coming to bedrooms near you....
Theres a rapist going around in lawrence and im not gonna lie to you im scared. Hes aiming at college aged students though which is good....well not for them. I dont know what pursuades people to do that. Is it the fact that their not with anyone or do they just like hurting people. Its a shame that that happens in our society but when you think about it with animals its basically rape all the time. They dont meet and date. You know fall in love it just happens and whats done is done. Thank god I'm a human
Song of the day:
I'm so mad because I had an amazing one and waited all day to put it on my blog and FORGOT!
So im putting Jesus take the wheel by carrie underwood that song makes me smile.
quote (from song)
"she had a lot of her mind and she didnt pay attention, she was going way too fast. Before she knew she was on cold black sheet of glass. She saw both their lives flash before her eyes. She didnt even have time to cry she was so scared. She put her hands up in the air. Jesus take the wheel. "
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
I have a story. We were in spanish class and I had to write stuff about myself. So I put Yo soy honesta y sincera etc. Which means I am honest and nice. I wrote my eye color and that I was shy. And the teacher was reading it outloud and no one knew then my old crush colin raises his hand and says is it mariam? and I nod my head and it was SO suprising. I didnt think he knew me very well at all. I still dont like him anymore though...... hes just kind of shallow and has multipersonality disorders. And he dosent compare to some of the people out there
what the rest of this blog said the world will never know. I was smart enough to keep it in my head. YAY Mariam! (slow claps)
what the rest of this blog said the world will never know. I was smart enough to keep it in my head. YAY Mariam! (slow claps)
I was watching tyra today. Its like back to back from 3-5 and it sucks if your trying to get work in. I figured out I like the subjects on tyra way more than the ones on oprah because her subjects are younger. Ok so there was these two girls on the show. One was Jamila and the other was contesa. What do they have in common? The guy the luv. Jamila met him while she was in high school. They dated and he was her first love. He was everything to her. They broke up because he wasent grown up and he wasent ready to be in a calm mature relationship. He moved to new york and met contesa. Who made him a better man. But then he ran into Jamila in new york. At this time in his life he was dating Contesa. But jamila just couldent believe what a better man hes become and she wanted him for herself.
So girl, she salked. Sent text messages and phone calls. And the man told contesa. Ofcourse she was ANGREY. But he asked for permission to see her one last time and make his decision about her and "set her straight" so they went on a date. And the way it ended has two diffrent storys. Jamila claims he said he was engaged and that he loved contesa but something was missing and then they got physical. But they guy claims he told her that he wanted contesa and left, never went up to her hotel room. Anyways Contesa won that war.
The next situation was similar except for there was this girl stuck on her high school sweet heart who happened to be 6'2''. And he still wanted her. She was the only woman who respected him and didnt cheat on him so he was ecstatic to hear she wanted him. But she was engaged to a guy who happened to be a complete oppisite. He was 4'11''. A little man with a big heart (ok im being cheesyy) Anyways, she went on the date and had the time of her life and ended with a big kiss. This date was recorded and that little mans face during that was horrible. He made tyra start crying and he started crying but at the end she said she wanted the little guy. And it was sweet but tyra told that man to set some rules
quote from tyra:
If you just roll over and let us girls treat you like crap then we're gonna start looking for something else. We like the rules even though we many not act like it
So girl, she salked. Sent text messages and phone calls. And the man told contesa. Ofcourse she was ANGREY. But he asked for permission to see her one last time and make his decision about her and "set her straight" so they went on a date. And the way it ended has two diffrent storys. Jamila claims he said he was engaged and that he loved contesa but something was missing and then they got physical. But they guy claims he told her that he wanted contesa and left, never went up to her hotel room. Anyways Contesa won that war.
The next situation was similar except for there was this girl stuck on her high school sweet heart who happened to be 6'2''. And he still wanted her. She was the only woman who respected him and didnt cheat on him so he was ecstatic to hear she wanted him. But she was engaged to a guy who happened to be a complete oppisite. He was 4'11''. A little man with a big heart (ok im being cheesyy) Anyways, she went on the date and had the time of her life and ended with a big kiss. This date was recorded and that little mans face during that was horrible. He made tyra start crying and he started crying but at the end she said she wanted the little guy. And it was sweet but tyra told that man to set some rules
quote from tyra:
If you just roll over and let us girls treat you like crap then we're gonna start looking for something else. We like the rules even though we many not act like it
Science?
I missed a day of blogging. I didnt feel well but its ok. I will make it up to you with two blogs today. The first one is about science/evolution/religion in schools.
We watched a video about a small town called dover in pensilvania. They were trying to decide on a new ninth grade biology book when the principal brought up a book called panda's and people. In panda's and people they saw that Charles Darwins theory on evolution is not necisarilly correct (which I believe). And in this book they have a topic called Intelligent design which means that some things on earth couldent have evolved and had to be made by an intelligent designer. The example in the book is a picture of a beach and words are written saying John loves mary. And the book says that this couldent have been made by just wind blowing it was made by an intelligent designer.
Some people see a problem with this and others dont. What some people have a problem with is taht the intelligent designer sounds like God. which casues contrevorsy because in the constitution says you cant teach about religion in school. And one side was saying this isent talking about God this is talking about an intelligent designer and the other side was completly outrages saying an intelligent designer isent even science because you cant do expriments or watch it. That side one.
Now heres my question. Can you watch a monkey evolve into a human? Is that considered science? Anyways thats just something to think about
Song of the day:
Hot mess - cobra starship
quote of the day:
If theres a disater in the community of dover dont turn to God, you just rejected him from your community - a television paster.
We watched a video about a small town called dover in pensilvania. They were trying to decide on a new ninth grade biology book when the principal brought up a book called panda's and people. In panda's and people they saw that Charles Darwins theory on evolution is not necisarilly correct (which I believe). And in this book they have a topic called Intelligent design which means that some things on earth couldent have evolved and had to be made by an intelligent designer. The example in the book is a picture of a beach and words are written saying John loves mary. And the book says that this couldent have been made by just wind blowing it was made by an intelligent designer.
Some people see a problem with this and others dont. What some people have a problem with is taht the intelligent designer sounds like God. which casues contrevorsy because in the constitution says you cant teach about religion in school. And one side was saying this isent talking about God this is talking about an intelligent designer and the other side was completly outrages saying an intelligent designer isent even science because you cant do expriments or watch it. That side one.
Now heres my question. Can you watch a monkey evolve into a human? Is that considered science? Anyways thats just something to think about
Song of the day:
Hot mess - cobra starship
quote of the day:
If theres a disater in the community of dover dont turn to God, you just rejected him from your community - a television paster.
Monday, September 21, 2009
So my brother taught me a new word today. Gerney. Have you ever heard of it? According to him a gerney is the thing they cary you on to get in the hospital. Last time I checked it was a strecher but apperently the "cool talk" is gerney. I hope my readers had a good day today. I sort of did. nothing too great happened. Except for some intresting conversation at lunch and a day that went by fast at school which I loved. And gossip girls tonight which Im sure ill enjoy. And my mom bought cake which is always good. If your down go out and buy some cake. Or cookies. Or something sugar and super fattning. Nevermind, bad advice. Go eat a carrot or something.....
In diversity club we had a good discussion thingy last wensday and I dont recall blogging about it. She showed us pictures. And at first they were all white men. Then she showed us pictures of all black men. Then she showed us pictures of all latina men. And she asked what they had in common. No one knew. They were all bad people. Criminals who've mudered, stole and dont really bad things. And the whole point of this was that everyone makes mistakes and NO one can judge you because of the color of your skin. Because all skin colors make mistakes and do good things. so there, dont hate just appriciate (cheesy stuff, I know).
Charisma is something I really like. Have you ever met anyone that has that. Their just easy to be around and have a good aura to them. I think its pretty cool being charismatic. Its been awhile since we've talked boys. And I personally love that conversation topic in real life because their so....perfect. And fun to talk about but I havent really had any milestones in the subject latley. I havent met any boys at school who I want to date or anything. There are some pretty attractive people there but I dont know the ones that arent in my class and high school is such a blur. Its really hard to try and get to know people. So go out and find some boys for me.
I had a story but im not gonna share it till later. It involves "friends" and orchestra last year. ooh your just dieing to know now right?
Song of the day:
Dosent mean anything - Alicia keys. I love her music. She was my favorite artist for the longest time. If I aint got you is the best. I know every word. I also love no one and diary and just everything that alicia has ever done. So youtube this song and listen to it. Not on cd or itunes yet.
quote of the day:
An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind - ghandi
tv update tommorow!
In diversity club we had a good discussion thingy last wensday and I dont recall blogging about it. She showed us pictures. And at first they were all white men. Then she showed us pictures of all black men. Then she showed us pictures of all latina men. And she asked what they had in common. No one knew. They were all bad people. Criminals who've mudered, stole and dont really bad things. And the whole point of this was that everyone makes mistakes and NO one can judge you because of the color of your skin. Because all skin colors make mistakes and do good things. so there, dont hate just appriciate (cheesy stuff, I know).
Charisma is something I really like. Have you ever met anyone that has that. Their just easy to be around and have a good aura to them. I think its pretty cool being charismatic. Its been awhile since we've talked boys. And I personally love that conversation topic in real life because their so....perfect. And fun to talk about but I havent really had any milestones in the subject latley. I havent met any boys at school who I want to date or anything. There are some pretty attractive people there but I dont know the ones that arent in my class and high school is such a blur. Its really hard to try and get to know people. So go out and find some boys for me.
I had a story but im not gonna share it till later. It involves "friends" and orchestra last year. ooh your just dieing to know now right?
Song of the day:
Dosent mean anything - Alicia keys. I love her music. She was my favorite artist for the longest time. If I aint got you is the best. I know every word. I also love no one and diary and just everything that alicia has ever done. So youtube this song and listen to it. Not on cd or itunes yet.
quote of the day:
An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind - ghandi
tv update tommorow!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
My brother is really funny when hes sick because he just starts talking. I think its the medicine. So he was talking about his dream and how he and my dad were on a search for power rangers or something. And I was thinking abut how he must live in a pretend world. Because you dream about what you think about, well thats one theory anyways and that must be what he thinks about.
He was also complaining about disney and nickelodian. How they had too man "girl shows" It was funny he says "girl shows make boys look stupid. Even I carly, the make spencer look like a baphoon (love the word choice) In boy shows we respect girls and in their shows they treat us like crap(didnt love that word choice but I told him). Like true jackson vp. in the first episode the boy said lets eat out of the toilet, and astro boy has machine guns in his butt..." thats just a little about it he went on and on and on I thought i'd share it.
I just read miley cyrus's book. Miles to go. And in it she says her family dosent believe in an age for love. So when she fell in love with "prince charming" cough cough nick jonas her family was fine with it. I honestly dont think that theres an age that people cant fall in love. A lot of people say you cant be in love your just a kid. But the way I see it a little kid of middle school kid can love their parents right? And their parents can mean the world to them to the point where they'd take a bullet for them. Thats love right. And loving family and the oppiste sex is the same emotion. Love. Only with one you have physical attraction and with the other you dont. So I think people can fall in love at any age it just dosent happen very often.
He was also complaining about disney and nickelodian. How they had too man "girl shows" It was funny he says "girl shows make boys look stupid. Even I carly, the make spencer look like a baphoon (love the word choice) In boy shows we respect girls and in their shows they treat us like crap(didnt love that word choice but I told him). Like true jackson vp. in the first episode the boy said lets eat out of the toilet, and astro boy has machine guns in his butt..." thats just a little about it he went on and on and on I thought i'd share it.
I just read miley cyrus's book. Miles to go. And in it she says her family dosent believe in an age for love. So when she fell in love with "prince charming" cough cough nick jonas her family was fine with it. I honestly dont think that theres an age that people cant fall in love. A lot of people say you cant be in love your just a kid. But the way I see it a little kid of middle school kid can love their parents right? And their parents can mean the world to them to the point where they'd take a bullet for them. Thats love right. And loving family and the oppiste sex is the same emotion. Love. Only with one you have physical attraction and with the other you dont. So I think people can fall in love at any age it just dosent happen very often.
Second blog of the day, lots to say
Ok theres some world news for you. What is it with politicions latley. Their getting into more trouble then our bad girl celebs.
John edwards? what. a. pig. Thats the only way I could think to start descibing him. Hes married and his wife has cancer. I think shes terminally ill. He has children. He wanted to be president of the united states then he pulls a monica lewinsky. ugh. thats the second time ive heard that happen in the democratic party and it is embarassing. Why would someone do that. I dont understand cheating. Especially when your married. So heres the way I understood marrige. You reach a point in a relationship with someone you love where you realize you want to be with a person forever. So you stand in front of everyone and proclaim your love for a person. And when you say I do you want to be with that person FOREVER. Not just a couple seconds or 10 years but as long as you both shall live. So why the hell do you need someone else. If your married that person is supposed to be everything to you. Now I understand abusive relationships and aranged marriges but thats a diffrent story. Those people didnt say I do by choice but I think before you decide to comit yourself to someone you better realize there will be bad times and you cant just move on to the next home wrecker.
Whats with all this obama hate? America should be ashamed of itself. 8 months ago everyone loved obama. He was a hero and could no worng. But now everyone dosent like him. All the news stations are like grr obama. grr health care. The stupid republican comericals have reached my last nearve. I dont understand whats not to like about getting cheap health care. To go to the emergency room for something minor in a small town is $150 dollers. If it can be just 80 and the money can go to the government and maybe even lower your taxes and raise the econamy why not do it. People suck. I still thing President Barack Obama is awesome and thats all there is.
John travolta is an amzing actor who gave us hair spray. Can we please leave him alone? He lost his only son. His creation. Someone he loved and cared for. The paparazzi really needs to give him some time. Mourning is something that has to be done alone and no one really knows what hes going through. lets not make it any harder for him and his wife than it needs to be.
Big news this week
Oprah has her season premire this week and the whitney housten interview made a lot of buzz. Katherine heigal from 27 dresses adopting a special needs child also was big in the magazines. It was offly nice of her to do that. Janet jackson sent taylor swift flowers the day after the whole kanye thing. that was definatly a nice thing to do. For someone so big to take time out of their scheduale to something like that. Patrick swazye died this week also and they played a song on his honor monday at school after first hour. I didnt know that he was behind that song "im having the time of my life, and I owe it all to youuu". The michael news of the week was tha this family is getting like 60,000 dollers a month. that was pleasing. Because you know those kids lost thier father and I think at this point they deserve the money more than anyone else because he probably loved them more than anyone.
John edwards? what. a. pig. Thats the only way I could think to start descibing him. Hes married and his wife has cancer. I think shes terminally ill. He has children. He wanted to be president of the united states then he pulls a monica lewinsky. ugh. thats the second time ive heard that happen in the democratic party and it is embarassing. Why would someone do that. I dont understand cheating. Especially when your married. So heres the way I understood marrige. You reach a point in a relationship with someone you love where you realize you want to be with a person forever. So you stand in front of everyone and proclaim your love for a person. And when you say I do you want to be with that person FOREVER. Not just a couple seconds or 10 years but as long as you both shall live. So why the hell do you need someone else. If your married that person is supposed to be everything to you. Now I understand abusive relationships and aranged marriges but thats a diffrent story. Those people didnt say I do by choice but I think before you decide to comit yourself to someone you better realize there will be bad times and you cant just move on to the next home wrecker.
Whats with all this obama hate? America should be ashamed of itself. 8 months ago everyone loved obama. He was a hero and could no worng. But now everyone dosent like him. All the news stations are like grr obama. grr health care. The stupid republican comericals have reached my last nearve. I dont understand whats not to like about getting cheap health care. To go to the emergency room for something minor in a small town is $150 dollers. If it can be just 80 and the money can go to the government and maybe even lower your taxes and raise the econamy why not do it. People suck. I still thing President Barack Obama is awesome and thats all there is.
John travolta is an amzing actor who gave us hair spray. Can we please leave him alone? He lost his only son. His creation. Someone he loved and cared for. The paparazzi really needs to give him some time. Mourning is something that has to be done alone and no one really knows what hes going through. lets not make it any harder for him and his wife than it needs to be.
Big news this week
Oprah has her season premire this week and the whitney housten interview made a lot of buzz. Katherine heigal from 27 dresses adopting a special needs child also was big in the magazines. It was offly nice of her to do that. Janet jackson sent taylor swift flowers the day after the whole kanye thing. that was definatly a nice thing to do. For someone so big to take time out of their scheduale to something like that. Patrick swazye died this week also and they played a song on his honor monday at school after first hour. I didnt know that he was behind that song "im having the time of my life, and I owe it all to youuu". The michael news of the week was tha this family is getting like 60,000 dollers a month. that was pleasing. Because you know those kids lost thier father and I think at this point they deserve the money more than anyone else because he probably loved them more than anyone.
So has anyone ever had an assigned partner on an assigment? Im sure after like 3rd grade you got assigned people. Now you know the thing that bugs me most about assigned partners. Its when you get a partner who wont carry their own weight, you know do their part. Its very very annoying because then one person has to do everything. What I wonder is does the partner realize what their doing or have they just never had to do something on their own. Or I remember like 3 years ago my friends decided to do this thing for christmas where everyone gave money and we bought each other christmas presents. Right from the bat this one girl goes, Im not gonna pay but I better still get a present. Its like umm...excuse me? Anyways if your assigned a partner or soemthing my words of wisdom of the day is do your part.
I always worry about what I say. Sometimes I can have a biggish mouth. And you know thats one of the bad things about never being able to mind read. You never know if what your saying is hurting someone. Like just not I was texting samira and she stopped texting me and I wondered if I said something bad. same thing with other people thats just the most recent situation. Sometimes I just basically write whats in my mind in an email or text or something and i've had to suffer for it a couple times because the people got offensive. My school friends dont like to hear the truth. They like to be lied too. When you dont take their side on a situation or say something that dosent make them look angleic they get upset. And honestly I dont like it. I understand that the truth hurts and maybe its not my buisness to go around telling them but if their your friends you should be able to tell them anything right? I dont know but I really worry about what im saying and maybe im not careful enough. If I say anything mean I didnt mean it 99.9 % of the time. the one percent applies to hitler and others like him. I mean to be mean to that kind of person
Plans are a funny thing. you know everyone makes plans. Some of them are short and simple, like im going to the grocery store tommorow and others are complicated like Im gonna turn right climb the 50 ft tree and marry Channing tatum after his first divorce. The chances of that one working out for you are pretty slim. Not to rain on your parade if thats someones plan its just not as easy as the grocery store thing. In reality not matter how many times we plan and go over something its probably still not gonna happen because are futures are already planned out. So its almost a waste of time sitting around making plans. I mean I am really big on the lieing in bed and imagining things. Latley ive gotten a new storyline that i'm very much enjoying. Its like a more personalized cinderella story. I really like it. I have really good realistic hair and cute outfits in this little future fantasy of mine. Another thing thats funny is here I am planning this daydream/plan of mine when all the people involved are probably under their covers making their plans that have NOTHING to do with your plan. I mean there could be zero similarity except that everyone involved is human. So anyways thats my little random talk about plans.
I'm wondering if I should be more specific about things. I like to keep things broad partly so my readers (samira) can put their own thing in the situation so it makes more sense to them. Kind of like a fill in the blank. I dont know though maybe one day ill have like a 20 questions thing where I have to answer them all in specific detail.....or not. but maybe. I dont really have any secrets that NO one knows. Like I said big mouth. hard to keep secrets. Now im really blabbing. bye
Song of the day:
Justin timberlake kind of mood. How about my love, and sexy back.
quote of the day:
Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is going to come from. The next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that its right around the corner and you open up your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it, you just might get the thing you’re wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it, with all of your heart. – Lucas Scott, Nathan Scott, Brooke Davis, Haley James Scott & Peyton Sawyer
I always worry about what I say. Sometimes I can have a biggish mouth. And you know thats one of the bad things about never being able to mind read. You never know if what your saying is hurting someone. Like just not I was texting samira and she stopped texting me and I wondered if I said something bad. same thing with other people thats just the most recent situation. Sometimes I just basically write whats in my mind in an email or text or something and i've had to suffer for it a couple times because the people got offensive. My school friends dont like to hear the truth. They like to be lied too. When you dont take their side on a situation or say something that dosent make them look angleic they get upset. And honestly I dont like it. I understand that the truth hurts and maybe its not my buisness to go around telling them but if their your friends you should be able to tell them anything right? I dont know but I really worry about what im saying and maybe im not careful enough. If I say anything mean I didnt mean it 99.9 % of the time. the one percent applies to hitler and others like him. I mean to be mean to that kind of person
Plans are a funny thing. you know everyone makes plans. Some of them are short and simple, like im going to the grocery store tommorow and others are complicated like Im gonna turn right climb the 50 ft tree and marry Channing tatum after his first divorce. The chances of that one working out for you are pretty slim. Not to rain on your parade if thats someones plan its just not as easy as the grocery store thing. In reality not matter how many times we plan and go over something its probably still not gonna happen because are futures are already planned out. So its almost a waste of time sitting around making plans. I mean I am really big on the lieing in bed and imagining things. Latley ive gotten a new storyline that i'm very much enjoying. Its like a more personalized cinderella story. I really like it. I have really good realistic hair and cute outfits in this little future fantasy of mine. Another thing thats funny is here I am planning this daydream/plan of mine when all the people involved are probably under their covers making their plans that have NOTHING to do with your plan. I mean there could be zero similarity except that everyone involved is human. So anyways thats my little random talk about plans.
I'm wondering if I should be more specific about things. I like to keep things broad partly so my readers (samira) can put their own thing in the situation so it makes more sense to them. Kind of like a fill in the blank. I dont know though maybe one day ill have like a 20 questions thing where I have to answer them all in specific detail.....or not. but maybe. I dont really have any secrets that NO one knows. Like I said big mouth. hard to keep secrets. Now im really blabbing. bye
Song of the day:
Justin timberlake kind of mood. How about my love, and sexy back.
quote of the day:
Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is going to come from. The next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that its right around the corner and you open up your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it, you just might get the thing you’re wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it, with all of your heart. – Lucas Scott, Nathan Scott, Brooke Davis, Haley James Scott & Peyton Sawyer
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Movies I watched
Ok so I was kind of in the free movie mood because I havent watched them in a long time and theres so much I need to catch up on. And so I watched away we go. Away we go kind of has the juno, rachels getting married vibe. Like its not your typical hollywood movie its simplar you know what I mean. Its rated R though. :/. But theres only like 1 part that you know, is r rated. So anyways its about this couple who've been dating for a long time their in their mid 30s but the girl dosent want to get married because she dosent see the point. Anyways she gets pregnent. They live out in the middle of know where in a really bad house. And their really excited that when the baby comes it will be close to the fathers parents home since the mothers passed away. Well they decide to move. And they start to feel like messed up people so their in a serch for the perfect home for their family and run into funny relitives and friends. Its a really good laugh with a good ending.
I also watched My sisters keeper today. Omigosh so, so sad. Its a true story and its about a girl who was artifically made to be the perfect match of her sister who has cancer. So all her life shes been giving body parts to her sister. And its just the storys of their lives and the girl has had cancer since she was life three. Its about their fight and stuggle. It will bring you to tears. I mean pouring tears. And it kind of hurt me a little more because a boy from my elementry schol who i'd like to consider an old friend passed away from cancer. I went to a diffrent junior high and we kind of drifted. But hes gone now, and I wish I could have said something to him or scene him. But I know hes in a better place right now cheering up people because thats the kind of guy he was. But anyways I recomend them both.
I also watched My sisters keeper today. Omigosh so, so sad. Its a true story and its about a girl who was artifically made to be the perfect match of her sister who has cancer. So all her life shes been giving body parts to her sister. And its just the storys of their lives and the girl has had cancer since she was life three. Its about their fight and stuggle. It will bring you to tears. I mean pouring tears. And it kind of hurt me a little more because a boy from my elementry schol who i'd like to consider an old friend passed away from cancer. I went to a diffrent junior high and we kind of drifted. But hes gone now, and I wish I could have said something to him or scene him. But I know hes in a better place right now cheering up people because thats the kind of guy he was. But anyways I recomend them both.
Ok so yesturday at about 8 o'clock I think a miricle happened. I understand football sorta now. K here it goes. Theres a guy (quarterback?) and they pass the ball to him then a bunch of guys protect him by hovering around him and taking down any guy that get in his way which leaves the guy free to run for a touchdown? I feel so cool. Anyones freestate won 58-14 yesturday. Shawnie mission north sucks, really bad. It was all in all kind of fun. Our new stadium payed by the stimulas is wonderful.
Bad news. My speakers broke. Its the ultimate disaster. I cant want tv shows on my comp anymore or listen to music on itunes. I need a fix it man to do it. right. now. But unfortunetly all I have is my brother who will only succeed in breaking it more.
Ok so what do people think about pda? you know public display of affection. At the football game yesturday a girl I happened to be sitting with was making out with her boyfriend like the whole time. NO one else was doing it and she got a lot of stares from adults and teens alike. Part of me thinks she was showing off but the jokes on her cause shes not his only girlfriend but anyway I was wondering what other people think about it. I dont mind it too much if it stops at kissing but when it keeps moving up lessons I think the saying get a room works very well. And maybe if you were so in love you seriously couldent stop then go somewhere more private or something because there were lots of little kids there and it wasent the best move in my opinion.
Quote of the day:
Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it’s one day further from the last time you saw each other, it’s one day closer to the next time you will. – Peyton Sawyer
song of the day:
Human nature -michael jackson
Bad news. My speakers broke. Its the ultimate disaster. I cant want tv shows on my comp anymore or listen to music on itunes. I need a fix it man to do it. right. now. But unfortunetly all I have is my brother who will only succeed in breaking it more.
Ok so what do people think about pda? you know public display of affection. At the football game yesturday a girl I happened to be sitting with was making out with her boyfriend like the whole time. NO one else was doing it and she got a lot of stares from adults and teens alike. Part of me thinks she was showing off but the jokes on her cause shes not his only girlfriend but anyway I was wondering what other people think about it. I dont mind it too much if it stops at kissing but when it keeps moving up lessons I think the saying get a room works very well. And maybe if you were so in love you seriously couldent stop then go somewhere more private or something because there were lots of little kids there and it wasent the best move in my opinion.
Quote of the day:
Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it’s one day further from the last time you saw each other, it’s one day closer to the next time you will. – Peyton Sawyer
song of the day:
Human nature -michael jackson
Friday, September 18, 2009
Hazing is bad. I just watched tyra and she did a whole half of a show on it. It started with this girl who was a total multiple bad words but we're gonna call her meanie, buttface. When she was in military school her third night there she got hit by padlocks. And because she survived she got initiated to this club of buttfaces. And because she got hurt you'd think she'd break the cycle. No this made her want to hurt people. So she became like the leader of the club. She loves hazing people. Shes crazy and cold hearted. Her mom was also on the show in tears after all the stuff her daughter said she did to other people without even breaking a sweat. This girl that she hazed was there. She was in tears. She peeded on her clothes and made them wear it. The woman beat her. And stuff and all because the girl had pickles and she wouldent share. mental huh? The poor girl became depressed and suicidal and it was her first time publically speaking about her pain.
Dont haze people. Be smart.
So I was in spanish class today and I witnessed my first drug deal. I sit in between these two guys. Blank and blank 2. And blank was talking to blank two about how he had "Green" in his car and asked blank 2 if he has cash with him. Blank two said yeah their switch the greens at lunch. So during lunch being the nosy girl that I am I watched as they walked outside and came back rushing right to their lockers. I didnt turn them in. But in class the next day they were talking about the night they had and blank two said his mom noticed he was "messed up" so he pretended that he got bullied into it. When you see the two of them you never would have guessed they were involved in that kind of thing but they are. I just thought i'd share.
Hi Samira! How are you? I figured since at somepoint I think you'll read this I might as will say salutations (i love charlottes web). Whats new with you?
Song of the day:
Freestate fight song (im going to the first home game today)
quote (parental guidence advised):
Nobody dies a virgin because the world f***s us all - 2pac
I know, I know samira I could have gotten a better quote but thats the only one I could find real quick for today. Ill make it up to you with a better one.
Dont haze people. Be smart.
So I was in spanish class today and I witnessed my first drug deal. I sit in between these two guys. Blank and blank 2. And blank was talking to blank two about how he had "Green" in his car and asked blank 2 if he has cash with him. Blank two said yeah their switch the greens at lunch. So during lunch being the nosy girl that I am I watched as they walked outside and came back rushing right to their lockers. I didnt turn them in. But in class the next day they were talking about the night they had and blank two said his mom noticed he was "messed up" so he pretended that he got bullied into it. When you see the two of them you never would have guessed they were involved in that kind of thing but they are. I just thought i'd share.
Hi Samira! How are you? I figured since at somepoint I think you'll read this I might as will say salutations (i love charlottes web). Whats new with you?
Song of the day:
Freestate fight song (im going to the first home game today)
quote (parental guidence advised):
Nobody dies a virgin because the world f***s us all - 2pac
I know, I know samira I could have gotten a better quote but thats the only one I could find real quick for today. Ill make it up to you with a better one.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
So when do you think this whole boys cant cry because they have to be tough thing started? I was talking to my uncle J on the phone yesturday which is always a blast. Hes one of my favorite family members because he dosent talk to me like a little kid. He tells me about his girlfriends and the horrible partys hes been to and tells me why not to do certin things and its nice. But he was talking to me about how he went to see my sisters keeper with his girlfriend and it was so sad he could cry but he didnt because hes a guy. Why cant guys cry again. I mean I like a tough guy just as much as the next girl. I think its because girls like to feel protected and the feel that if their guy is crying then its the other way around.
Well newsflash. Everyone cries. Even though he dosent do it around you I bet you he cries at home. Just because you dont see him dosent mean it dosent happen. Another reason I think guys dont cry is because supposedly in modern society if a guy cries and is sensitive hes gay. Which I honestly dont believe at all. I think it would be nice for guys to be as comfortable expressing their feelings as girls are. I mean when they dont cry or express their feelings for us were worried sick night and day about it. And when they do their too sensitive. Thank god im a girl and when a movie hits the soul I can cry like a baby.
Song of the day:
Marys song - taylor swift (ahh im scared im gonna run out of good songs)
Quote of the day:
There should be those among whom we can sit and weep and still be counted as warriors. - native proverb
Well newsflash. Everyone cries. Even though he dosent do it around you I bet you he cries at home. Just because you dont see him dosent mean it dosent happen. Another reason I think guys dont cry is because supposedly in modern society if a guy cries and is sensitive hes gay. Which I honestly dont believe at all. I think it would be nice for guys to be as comfortable expressing their feelings as girls are. I mean when they dont cry or express their feelings for us were worried sick night and day about it. And when they do their too sensitive. Thank god im a girl and when a movie hits the soul I can cry like a baby.
Song of the day:
Marys song - taylor swift (ahh im scared im gonna run out of good songs)
Quote of the day:
There should be those among whom we can sit and weep and still be counted as warriors. - native proverb
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
So what exactly is a good life? You know right normally after someone dies people start saying he/she lived a good life. What is that? Im thinking it depends on who you are and what you want. To some a good life may be a long life. To others it may be a life filled with adventures and traveling. To some it might be the "american family" life. You know married with children. Everyone kind of has their own definition. But the way I see it you cant really reach any of these points without two in one kind of thing. Having goals and getting those goals by knowing what you want. Which is a pretty hard question. What exactly does a person need to be happy. Love? Sucsess? Fortune? There really isent an answer to what is the formula to life. People just kind of go with it. But maybe it all starts now. You know like maybe that guy who sits next you in caculus or something is the one you should marry and if you dont talk to him tommorow your formula to sucsess in life is ruined. But its kind of something to think about. The things your doing now is affecting who you'll be and what kind of life you'll live. So wear the pants and go out there and make your life worth living.
You know what makes me happy? I love it when someone you've seen go through a lot has a smile on their face because it kind shows you that if they can do it, then you can do it too. Thats kind of what having a hero is all about. Someone to look up too. But another thing to remember is your hero makes mistakest too. Which is kind of crushing when you think about it. No matter how hard you try you will never be the perfect human being but I think you can get pretty close by doing good deads and just caring for other people. So do that.
Song of the day:
Seasons of love - rent
quote of the day:
A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life. - Darwin and no not the one from the wild thornberrys
You know what makes me happy? I love it when someone you've seen go through a lot has a smile on their face because it kind shows you that if they can do it, then you can do it too. Thats kind of what having a hero is all about. Someone to look up too. But another thing to remember is your hero makes mistakest too. Which is kind of crushing when you think about it. No matter how hard you try you will never be the perfect human being but I think you can get pretty close by doing good deads and just caring for other people. So do that.
Song of the day:
Seasons of love - rent
quote of the day:
A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life. - Darwin and no not the one from the wild thornberrys
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Ok so I dont know exactly how to to put this because I kind of never have. Its a part of my past that I dont even quite understand. From when I hit first grade to just recently I was kind of scared. And embarassed of being me. I couldent do it. I felt like there was something wrong with me. And to be honest im not sure what caused it. when I was in maryland I got a lot of compliments and I was the cute little girl because a lot of my parents friends didnt have kids then so me and my cousins were the cute african kids in town but I just didnt feel good about myself. Now that I look back on it maybe it was being one of two black kids in my class. It was always awkward during the martin luther king days when the teachers would be like kids at school couldent sit next to black people and blah blah blah. I hated those days. It took this year and maybe last year where I started to feel like I didnt care and I liked myself. Just the way I am.
Ok now that ive been honest with my blog twice and deeply regret both back to normal stuff. Patrick swazie died yesturday. What a shame. Ive never seen dirty dancing but I plan on seeing it sometime now. Kanye apolagized to taylor. I havent seen what taylor or latoya jackson said on the view today which sucks because I really wanted too. The gossip girl season premire was ahmazing. I feel in love with chuck, dan , and nate all over again. I love the name nate dont you? Especailly when its short for nathen and nathaneil (however you spell that)
Song of the day:
Im still loving paparazzi by lady gaga and sweet dreams by beyonce and anything NOT by kanye west.
quote of the day:
Happiness is nothing more than good health and bad memories :) I like that.
Ok now that ive been honest with my blog twice and deeply regret both back to normal stuff. Patrick swazie died yesturday. What a shame. Ive never seen dirty dancing but I plan on seeing it sometime now. Kanye apolagized to taylor. I havent seen what taylor or latoya jackson said on the view today which sucks because I really wanted too. The gossip girl season premire was ahmazing. I feel in love with chuck, dan , and nate all over again. I love the name nate dont you? Especailly when its short for nathen and nathaneil (however you spell that)
Song of the day:
Im still loving paparazzi by lady gaga and sweet dreams by beyonce and anything NOT by kanye west.
quote of the day:
Happiness is nothing more than good health and bad memories :) I like that.
Monday, September 14, 2009
VMA's
Ok so everyone is talking about last night. And the biggest topic is kanye west. What. A. Jerk. How dare he. I dont care how many times he apolagizes he is dead to me. Just because he sings about Gold diggers, and living the good life dosent mean he can go around ruining moments. Taylor swift has never dont anything to him. yes, beyonces good. But so is katy perry and in a strange way lady gaga. Hes an embarassment to the african american community. So full of himself he forgot the manners his poor mother (r.i.p.) taught him. Someone needs to set him straight.
Entrances. I think Lady gaga has an amazing entrence. Kermit the frog as a date is genious but beyond weird. I dont know where she gets her ideas. Shes either mental or i dont know what. I mean imagine if thats the kind of thoughts she has in her mind. Her outift was crazy. Her performance was crazy. The girls good but maybe shes just insane. I think the roomers about her being you know what is a little mean. I would feel horrible if people were saying that about me. Alicia keys ofcourse looked classy as did beyonce. Pink and shakira were wearing the same dress and arrived within minutes of each other which was kind of funny. Jermaine and Joseph Jackson were there
The michael jackson tribute was amazing. The dancers were so good. Im starting to appriciate dance more now. Theres just something aboout it. Its beautiful almost. Watching someone do something so perfectly. Anyways it was great and then Janet Jackson did scream which was also wonderful. I dont think shes done anything live since "the incident". superbowl, you know. All the performances were great. They picked really good songs. Sweet dreams, papparazzi, dont trust me you know the top songs. And the new moon trailer was amazing. Dakota fanning actually looked like a vamire. ITs definatly a miricle. Thats all I have to say.
Entrances. I think Lady gaga has an amazing entrence. Kermit the frog as a date is genious but beyond weird. I dont know where she gets her ideas. Shes either mental or i dont know what. I mean imagine if thats the kind of thoughts she has in her mind. Her outift was crazy. Her performance was crazy. The girls good but maybe shes just insane. I think the roomers about her being you know what is a little mean. I would feel horrible if people were saying that about me. Alicia keys ofcourse looked classy as did beyonce. Pink and shakira were wearing the same dress and arrived within minutes of each other which was kind of funny. Jermaine and Joseph Jackson were there
The michael jackson tribute was amazing. The dancers were so good. Im starting to appriciate dance more now. Theres just something aboout it. Its beautiful almost. Watching someone do something so perfectly. Anyways it was great and then Janet Jackson did scream which was also wonderful. I dont think shes done anything live since "the incident". superbowl, you know. All the performances were great. They picked really good songs. Sweet dreams, papparazzi, dont trust me you know the top songs. And the new moon trailer was amazing. Dakota fanning actually looked like a vamire. ITs definatly a miricle. Thats all I have to say.
I dialed the numbers and he picked up the phone. He said hi.. Its amazing how many things I wanted to say at that moment like do you know how amazing you are, do you know I dream about you, do you know I think I may even love you I like you so much but instead I said hi is blank there and he said yeah and the conversation was over. I like this guy. A lot. And hes not just a guy hes a guy I feel comfortable around. It makes me smile just thinking about him. Hes perfect. From what Ive seen hes never made a mistake. Hes been nothing but kind to me. I talk to him like I havent talked to many guys. I dont feel like I have to be careful or like I cant be myself. Somethings just diffrent about him. Hes beyond cute. He sings and watches one tree hill. And I can just see myself working with him
Whats the problem? I cant even begin to say it. I dont know where to start. I dont know what he'd say. I dont know if he'd even like me. I listen to the lyrics to his song over and over again and pretend it was about me. I know pathetic right, but I just dont know.....I want him to want me. But I dont know how he feels. I cant ask how he feels. Ive tried talking to him via internet a couple times it didnt work. He just never replied. It kind of made me face reality. The truth is he probably only thinks of me as his sisters friend. Or some girl. I know he could have anyone in the world he wanted. He just has that kind of charm ya know? But could that person be me? Could I even love him the way his amazingness deserves? Should I tell him. Should I give up. Its a bid mess and I dont have the answers. I might never have them but all I know if I like him soo much. He means a lot to me unlike the other crushes ive had. But I cant say it. I could talk about other things with him. I had the pleasure of spending a couple days with my best friend and him and we talked and it wasent weird but it wasent like "datish". I dont know. Its a confuzing mess but maybe all it takes is 3 words.
song of the day: All my life
Quote:
All my life, I pray for someone like you and I pray that you feel the same way too.
Whats the problem? I cant even begin to say it. I dont know where to start. I dont know what he'd say. I dont know if he'd even like me. I listen to the lyrics to his song over and over again and pretend it was about me. I know pathetic right, but I just dont know.....I want him to want me. But I dont know how he feels. I cant ask how he feels. Ive tried talking to him via internet a couple times it didnt work. He just never replied. It kind of made me face reality. The truth is he probably only thinks of me as his sisters friend. Or some girl. I know he could have anyone in the world he wanted. He just has that kind of charm ya know? But could that person be me? Could I even love him the way his amazingness deserves? Should I tell him. Should I give up. Its a bid mess and I dont have the answers. I might never have them but all I know if I like him soo much. He means a lot to me unlike the other crushes ive had. But I cant say it. I could talk about other things with him. I had the pleasure of spending a couple days with my best friend and him and we talked and it wasent weird but it wasent like "datish". I dont know. Its a confuzing mess but maybe all it takes is 3 words.
song of the day: All my life
Quote:
All my life, I pray for someone like you and I pray that you feel the same way too.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
watch this
Theres so much I could type about this episode and I think people have to see it all people no matter who you are or what you believe in. It teaches you a life lesson on people and reminds you that everyone has feelings. Its not cheesy and very little background info needs to be known. The 2 guys exiting the bus that run into the school are brothers. The blond is one of the brothers x girlfriend. The brunette is married to the girl in the tutor center. The other characters are sort of self explanitory. and the two men at the very end are also brothers.
http://video.aol.com/video-detail/one-tree-hill-with-tired-eyes-tired-minds-tired-souls-we-slept/3651242794
quote:
Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred.How did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children out into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return but knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?
http://video.aol.com/video-detail/one-tree-hill-with-tired-eyes-tired-minds-tired-souls-we-slept/3651242794
quote:
Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred.How did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children out into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return but knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?
Friday, September 11, 2009
Ok, so has anyone every heard the saying that men marry their mothers? Its popped up in two of the books that ive read now. One is along for the ride by Sarah dessen. And what hapenes is the mother hates the woman her son is engaged too but everyone says their exactly the same. Their the same height, both brunettes, same complextion, and their both very powerful educated woman who seem kind of cold hearted to everyone but have a deeper core. Isent that intresting? I think its intersting. I wonder if its true. Im trying to compare my mom to my grandma in my mind. They get along and they both like to laugh and like weddings and music and dancing but I dont think their that similar. Who knows though. Its an intresting thought. Im gonna try to think up some married couples I know who I know the husbands mother and see if it works out well.
Freestate high shcool was bleh today. My first three classes actually went pretty good because the evil student teacher that I dont like was gone again and we got to talk about september 11th in english with the real teacher. And then we took a test, and wrote a letter to ms. morton in womans choir. And english sucked but its first hour and first hours always horrible. Me and my amiga taz went out for lunch today. We had arby's curly fries and it was scrumdidlyumcious. And we made it to school in plenty of time I wasent even late. Its fun getting a little break from school. But then when I got back it was unbarable. I did like 50 math problems and had to watch the worlds most boring movie on divinshi in history and then we watched myth busters in chemistry which I could barley stay awake through. Dont get me wrong I like myth busters but I was so worn out from the whole dat it was .......not good.
Have you noticed americans are loosing old fashioned manners? I like manners. Really I do and I dont think I wouldent be friends with someone who didnt have manners or date someone who didnt but I just see lack of it so much. Like what happened to guys holding doors open for girls wheather they know them or not? Or pulling out chairs. Sit down restraunts arent nearly as formal anymore and I think its just like toning down humanity you know? What makes us diffrent from animals? Our ability to be civilized and it seems we're becoming less and less of that so when your at a restraunt use the right for and use your words like please, thank you, excuse me you know im sure your parents taught you so dont embarass them blog readers!
Song of the day:
Feel this - Betheny joy Galeotti. Its a great song by the person who plays haley james scott on the best shoe ever ONE TREE HILL. Which starts up again on MONDAY. Im so freakin excited even though lucas and peyton wont be on there.
Quote of the day:
It's often just enough to be with someone. I don't need to touch them. Not even talk. A feeling passes between you both. You're not alone. - (Maryilyn Monroe who has amazing quotes by the way)
tv update:
Latoya jackson is doing her first interview in quite awhile tonight.
Freestate high shcool was bleh today. My first three classes actually went pretty good because the evil student teacher that I dont like was gone again and we got to talk about september 11th in english with the real teacher. And then we took a test, and wrote a letter to ms. morton in womans choir. And english sucked but its first hour and first hours always horrible. Me and my amiga taz went out for lunch today. We had arby's curly fries and it was scrumdidlyumcious. And we made it to school in plenty of time I wasent even late. Its fun getting a little break from school. But then when I got back it was unbarable. I did like 50 math problems and had to watch the worlds most boring movie on divinshi in history and then we watched myth busters in chemistry which I could barley stay awake through. Dont get me wrong I like myth busters but I was so worn out from the whole dat it was .......not good.
Have you noticed americans are loosing old fashioned manners? I like manners. Really I do and I dont think I wouldent be friends with someone who didnt have manners or date someone who didnt but I just see lack of it so much. Like what happened to guys holding doors open for girls wheather they know them or not? Or pulling out chairs. Sit down restraunts arent nearly as formal anymore and I think its just like toning down humanity you know? What makes us diffrent from animals? Our ability to be civilized and it seems we're becoming less and less of that so when your at a restraunt use the right for and use your words like please, thank you, excuse me you know im sure your parents taught you so dont embarass them blog readers!
Song of the day:
Feel this - Betheny joy Galeotti. Its a great song by the person who plays haley james scott on the best shoe ever ONE TREE HILL. Which starts up again on MONDAY. Im so freakin excited even though lucas and peyton wont be on there.
Quote of the day:
It's often just enough to be with someone. I don't need to touch them. Not even talk. A feeling passes between you both. You're not alone. - (Maryilyn Monroe who has amazing quotes by the way)
tv update:
Latoya jackson is doing her first interview in quite awhile tonight.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Have you ever heard the saying, "She deserves it, or serves him right". Whenever something bad happens after a couple hours of the tragadie someone says something like that. Its bound to happen wheather the problem is big or small. But do you think anyone really deserves this stuff? I mean part of me the side that bad, mean, and angry is kind of like yes some people do deserve this stuff. Like murderers, rapists you know the big bad wolves of the world do deserve a little payback. But the good inside me has the whole "Everyones gods, creatures the bad and the good" no one deserves harm stuck inside of me. So Im wondering what you guys think.
So I was having a kind of nice dream last night. I was all warm in my bed and fell right asleep. In my dream I was like in a college classroom and we were discussing african american stuff and the teacher was my modern world history teacher. They were a ton of strangers, all my friends, and you know a guy...."THE guy" was in the front of class but i didnt know it. I could only see a guy from the back and the whole dream during the whole lecture I kept moving forward through the sea of people trying to get to the crowd to the guy in the red shirt who i didnt know was him at the time and people kept asking me questions and trying to trip me and eventually I made it to the front of the class. And it was him! (I havent dreamt about him in a looong time) so anyways he was sitting there just adorably and he kept moving his foot not in a weird was but i do it and its hard to explain and anyways I sat down next to him and he turned around with a huge smile and then duh duh duh duh duh duh du DAH my alarm goes of the the at&t ringtone. Wata crush what was about to be a beautiful moment.
School was intresting today. There was three fights and not a lot of love in the air so sad. Ok so now Im gonna kinda hit my celeb news. A couple years back anna nicole smith died and it was a very sad loss to society and the whole worlds hots went out to dannielynn her daughter. And she was recently seen on tori and dean happy as a horse and her birthday was a couple days back and the world kinda sighed in relief when they saw her happy and stuff in the pictures so thats good news! And ellens joining as an american idol judge....dont now what I think of that since she cant really sing......I think latoya jackson might be a good replacment for paula. shes just as nice and hasent really had an opputunity recently. Mtv music awards announced their showing the trailer for michael jacksons this is it movie coming out in october so everyone go and support adorable little blankets daddy and go watch the movie. Also a new madea movie coming out hoping to see it saturday
Quote of the day:
"Night will follow day, sure as the sun and moon. Remember I will always be with you. Just fold your hands and pray and I am beside you." - tweeted by miley cyrus
Song of the day:
Sweet dreams -beyonce
So I was having a kind of nice dream last night. I was all warm in my bed and fell right asleep. In my dream I was like in a college classroom and we were discussing african american stuff and the teacher was my modern world history teacher. They were a ton of strangers, all my friends, and you know a guy...."THE guy" was in the front of class but i didnt know it. I could only see a guy from the back and the whole dream during the whole lecture I kept moving forward through the sea of people trying to get to the crowd to the guy in the red shirt who i didnt know was him at the time and people kept asking me questions and trying to trip me and eventually I made it to the front of the class. And it was him! (I havent dreamt about him in a looong time) so anyways he was sitting there just adorably and he kept moving his foot not in a weird was but i do it and its hard to explain and anyways I sat down next to him and he turned around with a huge smile and then duh duh duh duh duh duh du DAH my alarm goes of the the at&t ringtone. Wata crush what was about to be a beautiful moment.
School was intresting today. There was three fights and not a lot of love in the air so sad. Ok so now Im gonna kinda hit my celeb news. A couple years back anna nicole smith died and it was a very sad loss to society and the whole worlds hots went out to dannielynn her daughter. And she was recently seen on tori and dean happy as a horse and her birthday was a couple days back and the world kinda sighed in relief when they saw her happy and stuff in the pictures so thats good news! And ellens joining as an american idol judge....dont now what I think of that since she cant really sing......I think latoya jackson might be a good replacment for paula. shes just as nice and hasent really had an opputunity recently. Mtv music awards announced their showing the trailer for michael jacksons this is it movie coming out in october so everyone go and support adorable little blankets daddy and go watch the movie. Also a new madea movie coming out hoping to see it saturday
Quote of the day:
"Night will follow day, sure as the sun and moon. Remember I will always be with you. Just fold your hands and pray and I am beside you." - tweeted by miley cyrus
Song of the day:
Sweet dreams -beyonce
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
"Laugh while you can its cheap medicine". Did you know laughing was good for your heart. Its scientifically proven plus I one hundred percent believe it. Have you ever really cried it out? I dont mean a couple tears you know from falling off your bike but cried from sadness, dissapointment, death whatever it is. And have you noticed when you think of something funny and smile and laugh a little you may look crazy and super mood swingy but it makes you feel good. At least for me. I decided to start the blog with that so laugh a lot.
I went to school today and it went alright. High school is.....kind of blank. I dont really have any feelings about it. Its just...school. I like it and the people are nice and I feel pretty comfortable there. The teachers are ok better than a lot of others ive had. Its just not really making a big impact on me and the way my lifes going like the other levels of education that I passed through. Im learning but it seems more like a routine that dosent change and thats what I wanted at first but it gets a little....dry.
I havent listened to Obamas speech yet so when I do ill probably talk about it. Barack all the way. Forget the lousy old fashioned republicans and their stupid comercils. They drive me crazy. I have piano tonight and I really dont want to go. I hate group lessons. I wish I could just play at home for fun. I enjoy piano every once in awhile but the teachers so old and makes everything so boring. And the "Group" or a couple other kids arent that great. I dont know I just....dont enjoy it. The other kids are nice but were not really friends of have a connection other then piano.
Swine flu is hitting the nation like the black plauge (please god dont let it be that bad). There are some simple ways to prevent it though. Wash your hands. Thats a really big one. I've seen some gross habbits with coughing around school. I hate it when people just cough into thin air I can practically see their germs everywhere. If your gonna go out to eat stick to the big chain restraunts because those are more cleanlier and have more monitering. Shopping, I know its fun but dont go around touching a lot of stuff then touching your face or sucking your thumb or whatever it is you people do when your not reading my blog :) Be clean, and dont get swine flu and die
Love - Mariam
Quote of the day:
A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge (I really like this, you want a 4.0 go out and hug someone and call that special someone ;) even though its beyond intimidating....I understand if you'll stick to your low grade point average out of fear but Im not encouraging it. Dont be a big baby like ms. blogger her)
Song of the day:
Dont trust me 30H!3
"shush girl, shush your lips, do the helen keller and talk with you hips"
Celeb news:
Janets gonna open up the MVA im super exciting about that. Nicole Richie had a baby boy. And thats about it.
I went to school today and it went alright. High school is.....kind of blank. I dont really have any feelings about it. Its just...school. I like it and the people are nice and I feel pretty comfortable there. The teachers are ok better than a lot of others ive had. Its just not really making a big impact on me and the way my lifes going like the other levels of education that I passed through. Im learning but it seems more like a routine that dosent change and thats what I wanted at first but it gets a little....dry.
I havent listened to Obamas speech yet so when I do ill probably talk about it. Barack all the way. Forget the lousy old fashioned republicans and their stupid comercils. They drive me crazy. I have piano tonight and I really dont want to go. I hate group lessons. I wish I could just play at home for fun. I enjoy piano every once in awhile but the teachers so old and makes everything so boring. And the "Group" or a couple other kids arent that great. I dont know I just....dont enjoy it. The other kids are nice but were not really friends of have a connection other then piano.
Swine flu is hitting the nation like the black plauge (please god dont let it be that bad). There are some simple ways to prevent it though. Wash your hands. Thats a really big one. I've seen some gross habbits with coughing around school. I hate it when people just cough into thin air I can practically see their germs everywhere. If your gonna go out to eat stick to the big chain restraunts because those are more cleanlier and have more monitering. Shopping, I know its fun but dont go around touching a lot of stuff then touching your face or sucking your thumb or whatever it is you people do when your not reading my blog :) Be clean, and dont get swine flu and die
Love - Mariam
Quote of the day:
A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge (I really like this, you want a 4.0 go out and hug someone and call that special someone ;) even though its beyond intimidating....I understand if you'll stick to your low grade point average out of fear but Im not encouraging it. Dont be a big baby like ms. blogger her)
Song of the day:
Dont trust me 30H!3
"shush girl, shush your lips, do the helen keller and talk with you hips"
Celeb news:
Janets gonna open up the MVA im super exciting about that. Nicole Richie had a baby boy. And thats about it.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Do you know how hard it is to focas on school when your tired? Its very, very hard especially when your mind is wandering like crazy from things to things. Thats kind of how my dad went. Lots of mind wandering. I love to analysize things in my mind and sometimes I got carried away. Especially at night then my mind just starts thinking about everything and before I know it half the nights over. Its really not a good habbit. Anyways school was the same as it always is. Long and boring but not too horrible. I learned some stuff in chemistry, math, and history the rest was sort of a waste of precious lifetime. It was more of what I already know. Unfortunetly we didnt get to watch Obama's speech in womans choir. Not because of the stupid controversy but because we had some serious german to learn for a song and mrs. Morton didnt even bring it up. Im gonna watch it on youtube though, no worries fellow americans.
My life is kind of on the boring side, but have no fear Mariam with the exciting blog will be coming back to you soon. After she gets some serious sleep
song of the day:
MY latest song written a few minutes ago shake, shake, shake it and please come save me (which is kind of oppisite to another song I wrote) ones slow and ones fast
quote of the day:
Not a shred of evidence exsists in favor of the idea life is serious
(I really like this, maybe taking love so serious is just something dumb humans do. Look at monkeys, they just do whatevery they want all day and no stres or issues happen_
Tv update:
Yesturday was the season finale of season two of secret life of the american teenager. I was so mad at the end of it, where george is holding "his son" and realizes he dosent look like him and looks more like Anns boyfriend whom I hate. Just when they were abotu to be a happy family again. Im glad we finally got to find out about adriannes past but does ricky leaving that night mean that he didnt want to be with adrianne. I wish that if Ben didnt love amy he would just break up with her. Then she would have more options. Like ricky. I love ricky and amy and their baby together. It would be a perfect little family. Grace is kind of dumb always dumping jack one day hes not gonna want her back and shes gonna regret it. I cant believe I have to wait till January!
My life is kind of on the boring side, but have no fear Mariam with the exciting blog will be coming back to you soon. After she gets some serious sleep
song of the day:
MY latest song written a few minutes ago shake, shake, shake it and please come save me (which is kind of oppisite to another song I wrote) ones slow and ones fast
quote of the day:
Not a shred of evidence exsists in favor of the idea life is serious
(I really like this, maybe taking love so serious is just something dumb humans do. Look at monkeys, they just do whatevery they want all day and no stres or issues happen_
Tv update:
Yesturday was the season finale of season two of secret life of the american teenager. I was so mad at the end of it, where george is holding "his son" and realizes he dosent look like him and looks more like Anns boyfriend whom I hate. Just when they were abotu to be a happy family again. Im glad we finally got to find out about adriannes past but does ricky leaving that night mean that he didnt want to be with adrianne. I wish that if Ben didnt love amy he would just break up with her. Then she would have more options. Like ricky. I love ricky and amy and their baby together. It would be a perfect little family. Grace is kind of dumb always dumping jack one day hes not gonna want her back and shes gonna regret it. I cant believe I have to wait till January!
Monday, September 7, 2009
Ello blog and veiwers,
I havent blogged in quite a while. Nothing really happened on friday. I relaxed watched some Twilight which gets better every time I watch it. I did my nails to boost my confidence and just relaxed to the 50th power. I also got in trouble for doing nothing but relaxing but I cleaned and made up for it the next day. On saturday I did more relaxing packed and went to a friends house. They were throwing a party which was nicley done lots of food, and laughs and everything else a good african party has. Then we hung out and did fun stuff for the rest of the weekend. We went to basically every store in crown center, and went across the link thing which was really fun. Then we went on a running adventure to get to the red van. It was beyond fun and I really enjoyed myself. It was some very, very, very good times.
Guys are amazing.....some more then others.....enough said :)
EVERYONE WATCH SECRET LIFE RIGHT NOW! bye
~Mariam
song of the day:
All star and for your info. it not the world was macaroni its the world was gonna roll me :)
I havent blogged in quite a while. Nothing really happened on friday. I relaxed watched some Twilight which gets better every time I watch it. I did my nails to boost my confidence and just relaxed to the 50th power. I also got in trouble for doing nothing but relaxing but I cleaned and made up for it the next day. On saturday I did more relaxing packed and went to a friends house. They were throwing a party which was nicley done lots of food, and laughs and everything else a good african party has. Then we hung out and did fun stuff for the rest of the weekend. We went to basically every store in crown center, and went across the link thing which was really fun. Then we went on a running adventure to get to the red van. It was beyond fun and I really enjoyed myself. It was some very, very, very good times.
Guys are amazing.....some more then others.....enough said :)
EVERYONE WATCH SECRET LIFE RIGHT NOW! bye
~Mariam
song of the day:
All star and for your info. it not the world was macaroni its the world was gonna roll me :)
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Chris Brown on larry king, abuse, and most likley randoms
Ok so last night at 9 pm eastern time a lot of people like myself were parked in front of the tv watching chris brown on larry king for the first time since the "incident". I had heard his apolagy and was looking forward to hearing the story. Heres the way I see it she either did something to provoke him because it seems like he really does love her I mean he let her meet his mom thats pretty big, so he couldent just start hitting her. The other option is hes psyco which I really dont want to believe. Ive loved his music since the very begining when he did run it and excuse me miss. I sang along to every word and still can but i was dissapointed in him. But I do honestly believe that he regrets his disicion to do what he did that night and its gonna stay with him for the rest of his life. Thats officially part of his legacy now, wife beater. And It dosent look good next too humanatarian, artist of the decade, grammy award winner. One of those words sticks out if you know what I mean
Abuse is sick. If I were rihanna honestly I wouldent go back. How could someone that truley cares for you attack you like that. How could they hit you and hurt you knowing exactly what their doing. Is that love? Because if it is id rather stay numb. I understand fighting with words but when you intentionally hurt someone. You shouldent go back because you gotta face reality he does not love you the way a person should be loved. Hes got it mixed up in his head somehow. Or she actually. This isent remembered or thought of very often but im sure their some psyco girlys out there who beat up their man. And those guys shouldent be embarassed and the same thing applys to you she dosent really love you.
Last but not least the late and great michael jackson is being burried today. He started as dust and to dust he will return. May he rest in peace. He entertained to world for so many and I really feel bad for his kids. I dont even want to think about loosing a parent and they have to go through it. Keep them in your prayer and thoughts along with CB and rihanna
Song:
No scrubs - TLC
anything by chris brown or rihanna it seems relevent
quote of the day:
What is evil? Killing is evil, lying is evil, slandering is evil, abuse is evil, gossip is evil: envy is evil, hatred is evil, to cling to false doctrine is evil; all these things are evil. And what is the root of evil? Desire is the root of evil, illusion is the root of evil.” - buhdda
Abuse is sick. If I were rihanna honestly I wouldent go back. How could someone that truley cares for you attack you like that. How could they hit you and hurt you knowing exactly what their doing. Is that love? Because if it is id rather stay numb. I understand fighting with words but when you intentionally hurt someone. You shouldent go back because you gotta face reality he does not love you the way a person should be loved. Hes got it mixed up in his head somehow. Or she actually. This isent remembered or thought of very often but im sure their some psyco girlys out there who beat up their man. And those guys shouldent be embarassed and the same thing applys to you she dosent really love you.
Last but not least the late and great michael jackson is being burried today. He started as dust and to dust he will return. May he rest in peace. He entertained to world for so many and I really feel bad for his kids. I dont even want to think about loosing a parent and they have to go through it. Keep them in your prayer and thoughts along with CB and rihanna
Song:
No scrubs - TLC
anything by chris brown or rihanna it seems relevent
quote of the day:
What is evil? Killing is evil, lying is evil, slandering is evil, abuse is evil, gossip is evil: envy is evil, hatred is evil, to cling to false doctrine is evil; all these things are evil. And what is the root of evil? Desire is the root of evil, illusion is the root of evil.” - buhdda
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Hello, im peter jennings and this is World news tonight
Does anyone know where my title came from? It the 90s and maybe the early 2000s, past 2004 I think world news tonight put on by abc news was ran by a man named peter jennings. He was really popular in my home because we love news. And when the newscaster is good it makes the story all the more exciting. It was really sad when he passed away. He had cancer possibly from smoking. Anyways may he rest in peace.
There are two stories currently in the news that truley disgust me. One way more then the other and im gonna start with that one. There is a Libiyan man out there who killed like 200 sum people in a bombing and thank the lord got put to jail which is wonderful right? well it would have been if he stayed in jail but he gained pancratic(?) cancer and so the jail people and british government allowed him to come continue the remainder of his life in Libya with his mother. bull crap if you ask me. Someone who killed 200 people should not be free. He'll just do it again. he was messed up then and he probably is now too. Now thats not the worst part. As his plane landed in libya people werent throwing rotten tomatoes at him for embarassing their country there was a huge crowd cheering him on like some kind of hero? is that messed up or what. A bad guy is being treated like a hero. Imagine what the familys of those 200 must have felt. Time heals all wounds but man loosing someone you love hurts. It really disgusted me and im upset over it but god has his reasons for everything. It reminded me of a story from the bible I will share...
Ok so im sure if your in the modern day society you've heard the name Jesus christ. Not trying to be picky against other religions but its just something you know like buhda, dali llama, muhamed, abraham their just the big names in religions and Jesus is one of them. The story of Jesus is pretty commenly known but towards the last days of his life he was thrown in jail for no crime at all by the roman goverment simply because they wanted to show their suppeority. And during the jewish passover one jail person is allowed to be realesed. There was a murderer and Jesus. They picked the murderer. The crowd was unanimous. Storys like that really bug me, how humans can be so dumb.
Ok next story im gonna keep kinda short,because ive kind of blabed for awhile. there is a woman who broke some kind of track record in africa. And all women were proud of her till things got suspicius by the press. Apperently she has manly features like the way her face is and muscles and hair. And this story disgusted me because I feel horrible for her. I mean imagine if you were a girl and people told you you looked manly and had all guy features. That ought to be really really embarassing. And if it is a guy it sucks that they would do that raise the worlds hopes about what a woman can do and then it turns out to be a guy. Anyways just sharing a little news.
And last but not least celebrity news: well the big thing in magazines is that chloe kerdashion and kendra the play boy bunny are expecting. The dugger family is having their 19th child. (what do people of think of that by the way. I think its cute and as long as she has her household under control she can have even 39 babys). Michael jackson is being laid to rest this week (for those of us a little slower burried). This girl thats been missing for 18 years was found. DJ AM was killed but I dont even know who he is but the celebritys are pretty messed up over it. Whitney hustons comeback is pretty big news and thats all for today.
song of the day:
You want to have a pretty good laugh? listen to Rockin the beer gut by the trailer choir. No it dosent promote alcaholism but its a country sort of romance song about a girl whos not the smallest but he loves her and stuff. Its funny
quote of the day:
"You know guys, you could walk around with no pants and they wouldent notice!"
"True strength is holding yourself together when everyone expects you to fall apart"
Book update:
still reading being nikki which is super amazing!
tv update:
I loved secret life yesturday. People were suspicious about ricky having a thing for ashley but even hes not that messed up to date his sons aunt. He and adrianne broke up which i mean its about time and I really want him to be with amy. Ben got a call from some italian and I have a feeling its a girl he had an affair with. Graces mother started dating(loser). Mrs. jenkins is on bed rest and wouldent give up her dog.
There are two stories currently in the news that truley disgust me. One way more then the other and im gonna start with that one. There is a Libiyan man out there who killed like 200 sum people in a bombing and thank the lord got put to jail which is wonderful right? well it would have been if he stayed in jail but he gained pancratic(?) cancer and so the jail people and british government allowed him to come continue the remainder of his life in Libya with his mother. bull crap if you ask me. Someone who killed 200 people should not be free. He'll just do it again. he was messed up then and he probably is now too. Now thats not the worst part. As his plane landed in libya people werent throwing rotten tomatoes at him for embarassing their country there was a huge crowd cheering him on like some kind of hero? is that messed up or what. A bad guy is being treated like a hero. Imagine what the familys of those 200 must have felt. Time heals all wounds but man loosing someone you love hurts. It really disgusted me and im upset over it but god has his reasons for everything. It reminded me of a story from the bible I will share...
Ok so im sure if your in the modern day society you've heard the name Jesus christ. Not trying to be picky against other religions but its just something you know like buhda, dali llama, muhamed, abraham their just the big names in religions and Jesus is one of them. The story of Jesus is pretty commenly known but towards the last days of his life he was thrown in jail for no crime at all by the roman goverment simply because they wanted to show their suppeority. And during the jewish passover one jail person is allowed to be realesed. There was a murderer and Jesus. They picked the murderer. The crowd was unanimous. Storys like that really bug me, how humans can be so dumb.
Ok next story im gonna keep kinda short,because ive kind of blabed for awhile. there is a woman who broke some kind of track record in africa. And all women were proud of her till things got suspicius by the press. Apperently she has manly features like the way her face is and muscles and hair. And this story disgusted me because I feel horrible for her. I mean imagine if you were a girl and people told you you looked manly and had all guy features. That ought to be really really embarassing. And if it is a guy it sucks that they would do that raise the worlds hopes about what a woman can do and then it turns out to be a guy. Anyways just sharing a little news.
And last but not least celebrity news: well the big thing in magazines is that chloe kerdashion and kendra the play boy bunny are expecting. The dugger family is having their 19th child. (what do people of think of that by the way. I think its cute and as long as she has her household under control she can have even 39 babys). Michael jackson is being laid to rest this week (for those of us a little slower burried). This girl thats been missing for 18 years was found. DJ AM was killed but I dont even know who he is but the celebritys are pretty messed up over it. Whitney hustons comeback is pretty big news and thats all for today.
song of the day:
You want to have a pretty good laugh? listen to Rockin the beer gut by the trailer choir. No it dosent promote alcaholism but its a country sort of romance song about a girl whos not the smallest but he loves her and stuff. Its funny
quote of the day:
"You know guys, you could walk around with no pants and they wouldent notice!"
"True strength is holding yourself together when everyone expects you to fall apart"
Book update:
still reading being nikki which is super amazing!
tv update:
I loved secret life yesturday. People were suspicious about ricky having a thing for ashley but even hes not that messed up to date his sons aunt. He and adrianne broke up which i mean its about time and I really want him to be with amy. Ben got a call from some italian and I have a feeling its a girl he had an affair with. Graces mother started dating(loser). Mrs. jenkins is on bed rest and wouldent give up her dog.
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