"No one knows/That you cry and you don't tell anyone/That you might not be the golden one/& your tied together with a smile but your coming undone"

Hello!
Us girls are really something else. I feel like I go through so many emotions in just one week its crazy. I'm happy , sad, excited, upset, jealous, passionate about some cause or another. I just go through everything in such a short period of time. But when I'm hurt, I guarentee you no one knows about it! I cried in school once, that was in first grade. Never again has a tear escaped me during school. Its just a little pact that I have with myself. And some people say Women aren't strong! I think we're strong especially when it comes to guarding our hearts and our feelings. I love the quote thats like "Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down". Story of my life, sometimes I out up a tough front and can hide the saddness in me. I may tell you i'm fine but I just want to see who can see through that. Who knows me well enough. I have to say i've been dissapointed more often then not. But those people who cared enough to wrestle the truth out of me, those are the people I call my best friends today :)

Taylor Swift said it best in the song from her first album called Tied together with a smile. At many different points in my life I've been tied together with the smile and the apperence that i'm alright. I'm really shy at times. I'm getting so much better now though. Honestly, it used to be terrible. Especially around cute important boys named prince or others i've gone through. I just fel like I wasen't cool enough, or pretty enough. The thing is ladies, that shows. I used to think I was the queen of hidding it but now when I see other girls, the old mes. It's the most obvious thing in the world.

It's kind of sad that we live in a society where over half the people have some kind of issue thier not sharing with someone else. I think this is why so many people end up commiting suicide. They have silent cries taking over their lives until they can't take it anymore. I think if we all could be there for at least one other person if our lives we could change a little piece of the world. Sometimes it feels like no body cares enough to listen, and sometimes it seems like your the only one out there with this problem. I guarentee thats not true and someone else out there has felt the exact same way as you. You'll never know that if you don't speak out. If any of you readers need someone to turn too just comment i'm here.

But girls, the minute you let that fake smile come undone and you let out whatever crazy emotion your feeling I guarantee you'll feel better. Light as a feather. You'll feel free. (this applys to guys too)

song of the day: Tied together with a smile - Taylor Swift

quote of the day:
The feelings that I hide...
The line you never read...
You can see it on my eyes...
Read it on my face...
Trap inside are lies...
Of the past I can't replace...
With memories that linger...
Wont seem to go away...
Why can't I be happier...
Today's a brand new day...
The hurt that I'm feeling now...
Won't disappear overnight...
But someway, somehow...
Everything will turn out alright...
No more wishing for the past...
It was meant to be...
It didn't seem to last...
So I have to set him free...

(someone wrote this for chicken soup for the teenage soul, and I bet you they felt better when they shared this feeling. Theres one feeling I still haven't been able to share. I will though, someday. Or else i'll regret it forever)