"Maybe this is wishful thinking/Probably Mindless thinking/If we loved again i'd swear i'd love you right"

Have you all been listening to Taylor Swifts new singles? Dear god, they are amazing. Once again I relate to every single word she's been singing and I can't wait to buy the album. Yes I said buy. I never download music by someone truly good. When someone you don't even know is able to connect with you better then you do you know you've found your favorite albums. They singles are Mine (love it), Speak Now (adore it), and Back to December (Its about Taylor Lautner love the song and him). Back to december is about thinking of the good times with a boy and wishing that she could go back in time and changed the way she loved him. I was just thinking, I don't want to be thinking about a guy like this 50 years from now wondering what if, what if. I know that those are things that can't be controlled but this song is number one on itunes right now (above Kanye Wests dumb runnaway song) for a reason. Millions of girls and maybe even some guys relate to this feeling. We live in a world thats so afraid to love and be out there and be vulnerable its crazy. We all have to put on this brave face and act like everything always ok but its not. I don't like it, I'm working on putting myself and my feelings out there. I'm tired of staying all bottled up like some genie in a bottle (Brittany references are awesome)

Yesterday I went to late night in the phog. For those of you who don't know what that is it's the beginning of KU basketball season for the fans. Its free and at Allen Fieldhouse. You get to see the new players scrimmage and they dance. Its pretty cool watching a bunch of 6 ft. 5 guys do the dougie and sing Bye bye bye by the Backstreet boys. I had a really good time and I realized that sports are like music. I mean for the player. The sport for the player is like music is to me. It's their passion. And when people have a passion that their showing other people it can be magical, even if only for a split second. You think I'm crazy right? For a second while chanting, and screaming for the team and all that as one of the players dunks the ball it feels the same as when Mariah Carey hits a high note. It gives you chills that a fellow human being can have that much talent. I might just feel too much but thats how I saw it.

Ok so this is kind of funny. I hope it is anyways, it might be one of those you had to be there things but I'm going to tell you anyways. So we're walking towards the place we're supposed to meet my dad and this guy that used to go to our school is walking front of us with his friend. She goes "Mariam, theres your man". I'm like who, I don't see anyone. Then she "nonchalatey" points. I'm like umm no, I don't like him. My cousin starts liking. Akira asks who it is then I tell her its loner boy from our old history class. She's like "OH! The one who's sister got knocked up!" really loud. For the record this is a tough guy, he's been to jail. I'm like Akira, shh he might lynch you or something. I'm actually whispering. Then my other friend goes "His locker used to be next to mine. He is sooo cute. He looks kind of like my older cousins and their pretty hot. They look like Lebron James". The guy heard every word and he starts laughing with his friends. It was weird but really funny how unaware of the obvious they were. Thats a my friend moment for you.

song of the day: Back to December by Taylor Swift (its a great song. go listen to it people)

quote of the day: Too many people die with their music still in them. Too Often it is because their always getting ready to live, and before the know it time runs out" - One Tree Hill season 2.