"Go on and try to tear me down/I will be rising from the ground like a skyscraper"

Hi everyone!
I'm lost. What else is new? I'm always lost. But I do have one thing figured out. I found out that the whole "finding yourself" thing is over rated. I now think that the whole point of like is inventing yourself. You can be anything you want to be and you have to choose which path you're going to take. You can get yourself into trouble (like Miley Cyrus, she's smoking now?!?! Ewww), you can make something of yourself, or you could waste your entire life hiding in fear. I used to be the person that hid in fear. But recently I decided I don't want to be that way anymore. I want to be fearless, and I want to really live. I also want to be a person I can be proud of and so far I really am. I'm proud of the person I am and I like who I am.

Exactly a week ago my brother and I signed up to audition for this thing called ARTS Talent agency. I had decided in the beginning of summer that I would be the next Selena Gomez. It all started when I saw her E! Hollywood Story and realized we're kind of similar. We're both shy,and we both like to sing and act. I also realized that "making it" wasn't as hard as it always seemed. She just went to an audition, did well, and BOOM she was living every girls dream. Her own show, album, clothing line, and Bieber. Doesn't get better then that.

I did some reaserch and found out that one of Disney Channels talent agents was named Kim Myers. Then fate came calling. A few weeks later after i'd forgotten the whole fantasy I got in my car driving to the gym and I heard an advirtisment for an all ages talent search hosted by non other then Kim Myers. Crazy right? Of course I signed up right away. The auditions were for singers, actors, dancers, and models. I auditioned as a singer and an actor. I practiced like crazy as my mom laughed at me thinking i've lost my mind.

We went to the auditions, and I sang SkyScraper by Demi Lovato. It sounded really awesome. That night around 2 am I find out that both my brother and I got called back and would be given the opportunity to go to Orlando and perform in front of a ton of agents. But there was a minor problem.... it costs money and I have...no money. My dad turned the whole thing down and it hit me that I wouldn't be the next Selena. I was really disapointed but then I was proud of myself. Out of the 25 girls that auditioned with singing I was one of three that got called back. My audition was in front of about 50 parents and contestants and I performed in front of all of them. It may not seem fearless to you but for me it was a huge step in the right track.

It all probably sounds kind of crazy but I took a risk and it was worth it. I need to take more of those.

song of the day: Skyscraper by Demi Lovato

quote of the day: A smile can unlock more doors than any key.