"You just see right through me but if you only knew me, we could be a beautiful miracle...unbelievable instead of just invisible"

What do you do when the one you want doesn't want you back?

Good question, i've been wondering the same thing. I know I said I was over it. And I feel pretty over it. I mean i've given up on any hope of the two of us ending up together but part of me will always have a soft spot for him. It crazy how someone can make you fall head over heels for them without even trying. Its all in the smile, he's got this AMAZING smile...when he smiles I can't not love him. He's just the cutest thing. Wait what...? I didn't mean that. I'm over him. The smile means nothing. Who am I kidding...

I want to fall in love. I want to meet someone that makes me happy. That I can tell everything too. I guess you can say i'm just a little lonely. I figured out that my friends were way more awesome then I gave them credit for. I got to hang out with a couple of them and we had a really good time. We enjoyed it and I felt comfortable with them. I'm looking forward to next year a little more now that I know I don't have to go through the melo-dramas of not having the right shoes, or feeling invisible alone.

Last year I purposly made myself invisible. It was easier for me that way. I didn't have to deal with problems, there was no drama, and I learned. But this year, I don't want to be invisible. I want to be me. Not scared of what anyone thinks. Anyone that makes fun of me for listening to Justin Bieber, or watching gossip girl can kiss my butt. I don't care what they think anymore because I finally like the person that I am.

Now what i'm worried about is that it will be all talk and no action. I'm scared that when I get to school i'll revert back to the same old invisible me. But i'm really going to make an effort this year. Hold me too it.

song of the day: Invisible by Taylor Swift

Quote of the day: You don't realize how much you care about someone until they don't care about you. <<<< (real talk courtesy of boardofwisdom.com. they have a lot of cute sayings like this)