It is better to have love and lost, then to have never loved at all. Love is something that cant really been described because it feels diffrent to all people. To some they get butterflies, or cant stop thinking about them. To some it can be something as diffrent from their smell to the way the pretend to laugh at their jokes. I have liked sooooo many people. Some because it was convienient, some because it was a challenge, some because I was physically attracted, or I liked their personalitys. But with some crushes I've have (very few) it just feels right. i cant really explain it but I feel happy when their around, I notice myself being extra careful with my hair, what I say, or how I act. It feels good to be around them or to think about them or to say them update their status on facebook. Now your probably thinking whats the problem? You love him. Go for it. Tell him/kiss him/start flirting. But heres the problem. I figure out that ive created an allusion of that person. Reality is that ive talked to them a couple times (not too deep of stuff but just about life in general), but I dont full know 100% what this guy is like. Part of me thinks that im scared of opening up to people. men in paticular. I dont know what does it but i feel scared about opening up to them. I feel like if they do maybe i'll reck the ilusion they have created about me in their minds. the perfect me that i know that i most likley wont be. But this year the time has come to be brave. Sort of. Im gonna work on it. Its not like im gonna just walk up to someone and admit my love to them or something. Love, whos to know when your really in love? Maybe thats not what i mean. But if I were a sim I would click the express fondness button. Cross your fingers for me and maybe I would gain a bravness hidding deep inside. Anyways this wasent even suposed to be the point. The point is dont stop trying to find love just because its easier to be numb or feel nothing all. Its better to feel the power of love and liking someone and be hurt becuase that way your feeling.

Quote of the day:
Its better to have loved and lost, then never to have felt at all

Song of the day:
Liberian girl (nakupenda pia, nakutaka pia, mpenzi we) mj speaks swahilli in it