A few things about who I am and who I want to be

Ok so I was just thinking. If I had to come up with some things about me, really truthful things what would they be. I cant really say that I know myself well. I mean even I confuze myself sometimes cause i'll agree with two totally oppisite things. I guess thats the first thing about me. Im confuzed about so many things. I havent really gotton life figured out yet. I've been alive more then 5,000 days. you'd think I would have gotten it by not but im still trying. I was born in maryland. Hyattsville. The reason I like to bring that up is becuase I wouldent be me without being born there. I lived in what now that I think about it wasnet too great of a neighboorhood. More people spoke spanish around there then english which now isent to much of a coincidence. Keep in mind that was 1994. I've been able to speak two languages since I was one. I learned swahilli and english at the same time and by two I could hold full conversations in both languages. I was a pretty smart kid. Ive always felt the most comfortable at home. I used to love playing with dolls. Barbies. And singing along to diffrent childrens vhs tape.

I grew up pretty close to my 4 cousins. We used to do all kinds of stuff together. Best of friends we all were. Then I started school. I was really quiet there. Nobody knew why. I mean I guess from first glance I would have looked lonley but I didnt feel comfortable. I dont know why. I mean kids used to be really into power rangers which i will admit to watching. I remember having a friend names ingrid who I guess you could say everyone wanted to be like. She wore dresses to school every day and always had the newest toy or whatever it is kids like. I still have my kindergarden school pictures. Anyways thats my past then I moved to lawrence. Which is a good town. I dont think i'd be the same person if I never moved here. I love it here. its a small town but its home. sure I wish I had a mall close by but thats not that big of a problem.

I attended deerfield elementry school which was good school. the best in town actually. Because most all the children came from good familys and we were all pretty smart for our age. I was a year younger then everyone else from the start. Maryland wasent too strict about which age to start school.

I'm talking about my history but thats not nessicarily who I am. I'm a girl who likes to read. I am pretty girly. I love my dresses, and makeup, and jewlary. Not to mention glitter. My whole room is pink which I guess dosent really win me cool points but I love it in there. I like to sing. and latley ive been trying song writing which is going ok. I mean those who have heard what I wrote didnt say anything bad about it. Im kind of a romantic. I like romance movies and books and all that stuff. I've never been in love with a guy before. Im a big dreamer. I guess you can say im the kind of person who is never content with what their stuck with. I always want to be better. To change. I aim to be the perfect person even though i am far from it. I play the piano and the cello. Im ok at playing both. Ive been playing the piano for much longer though.

Music is magic to me. I think its amazing how artists can draw you in an take you away from whatever issues your having. I mean without even saying a word. I guess you can say the artists I consider this talented would be Michael jackson, and many others. The songs which ive listed to faithfully for awhile would be: Love story, bleeding love, our song, Teardrops on my guitar, Hate that I love you, I'm only me when im with you, Forever, you belong with me, so small, bubbly, and many more. I didnt lie about these I took them right from my top played lists. I listen to all kinds of music. My new favorites would be Check yes juliet, Happy ending, Right now, Knock you down, kiss a girl and fire burning on the dance floor.

I love to dance. A lot of people dont that. I dance at school dances but I go wild in my room alone with my ipod. i could dance forever. I've always wanted to dance in the rain. It seems like one of the most fun things ever. I want to travel all over the world someday. I like seeing new things for short periods of time but when the time comes it feels good to be back in america. Relaxed and living the life im used too. English and swahilli speaking countrys also make the staying thing easier.

I like weddings. Partly because im a romantic and partly cause I like the stuff that dosent have to do with the actual marrige. The beautiful outfits. How wonderfully the place is decorated. Candles. Speached about how the people were ment to be. I would be a wedding planner when I grow up but they dont make enough to survive comfortably so im gonna be something in medicine instead. I also think its amazing how two people can comit to spending the rest of their lives together even though they know there will be bad times but they trust each other and have faith that they'll get through it. Its awesome.

I make a 4.0 but I dont really consider myself smart. i mean its not like I just know information like some people I have to try really hard to remember stuff. It dosent come naturally. I absolutley hate math. And depressing people. I dont like it when people are angry all the time and such. Because lifes honestly too short to be mad. I suck at all sports. Im ok at basketball though. I practiced a lot last year and got good at 3 pointers even but i would never try out for the team. I have stage fright. Theres something a little bit insecure about myself. Havent been able to figure it out but it gets worse when people are watching me.

My goal is to be a nice, caring, and accapting person. I want to be able to take risks and never regret not doing something due to fear. I want to be succsessful to the point where I am proud of myself and have made the life of at least one other person better because of what i did (i dont count). So thats basically all anyone needs to know about me i guess. I dont know why I wrote all this out. Ok so I know why.......but it goes back to me being a dreamer and blah blah blah. ok well you officially know a good chunk about mariam. :)