Hello,
I got back from school about an hour ago. I rode the bus home for the first time since high shcool started. And I kinda forgot it was a new bus cause in my old bus 9th graders basically ruled and it was like home. we could talk about anything. So me and some friends do what we do best. talk about boys :) And we kinda forgot there was this junior guy in front of us who could know all these people. I figured something out about myself. The more I like a guy the harder it is to do anything about it. I worry that if I do anything i'll ruin it. And I dont want to get hurt. This year my heart has prizon bars and bull dogs gaurding it. Im not gonna let anyone close untill I 100% trust them. And no more jerks. Or guys who are just plain mean. Because I dont need them. And I need to love myself first. before I can love any other. And im getting there. But of course i still cant help crushing. so, i'm wondering if you like one person who just dosent go away no matter how much you like other people or they do does that mean they are your priorite and way more special. Thats the way i've always taken it. like theres that one guy who can always slip through the bars without doing anything but smiling. It takes my breath away. But enough about boys since im an indepnedent girl who dosent need that. Today school was nice. Ok, last thing about boys. This cute guy kept looking at me during this one assembly. And I was looking at him and sometimes we'd be looking at the same time but i dont think he likes me. hes a senior. and i didnt feel anything except the little smile that creeps on your face when you see a very cute boy. but now were done. I met some people in school today who could be more potential friends. my chemistry partners really nice and maybe 1 or 2 others. making friends in high schools a little tough especially since everyone already came with their friends. AHHH I forgot to paragraph. im sorry readers :(


Quotes of the day courtisy of flair:
Love is giving someone the chance to destroy you and trusting them not too. and I thought this was kinda cool. the word bed looks like a bed. Look closly its like the head and footbboard and the top of the e is the matress.

Song of the day:
Chasing pavments. still love that song

Tv update:
Saw the new episodes of secret like. omigosh. Amy and adrianne are really going at it and i think something may have happened between amy and ricky over the summer but who knows.