"You know that's what ever woman wants to be, somebody's chelsea"

Why would a person hang on to a daydream that won't happen? That's the question I asked myself as I watched Trina renew her vows to her sex addict husband who everyone knows will cheat again. Not to be a hater, I think that people can change and marriage shouldn't just be thrown away. I admire their decision to fight for their commitment. On the other hand, I think that by lying to yourself you're only going to hurt more when you let yourself see what's been in front of you all along. I'm a daydreamer. It's rare that i'll give up on something even though my chances are slim. I'm the type to buy lottery tickets and enter contests. Life can change in an instant, and there's no reason to believe that you won't be the one that gets lucky. That would just be being a negative Nancy. I've set myself up for some gigantic disappointments by following this philosophy though. When I think, were those risks worth it? I can never decide.

Obviously everyone wants to get some kind of happily ever after. Some people search for that by advancing in their careers, meeting their soulmates, or simply smiling through whatever obstacles life throws their way. Everyone wants something different. If you give up what you really want, in order to try something different will you always wonder "what if I had tried harder?". No one wants to be the one who could have had it all, but settled for something less. I don't want to have regrets. I don't want to be Adele watching the one I love marry someone else singing Someone Like You for the rest of my life, you know? On the same show I was watching earlier (Braxton Family Values), they asked Toni if she believed marrying for money is a bad thing. She said, "You can learn to love anyone". She was half joking, half serious. My cousin had the same kind of views a week or so back when we were having a similar conversation. He said that he thinks he could love anyone that loves him. Especially if it was with all their heart, and that person genuinely cared about him. Maybe spending your whole life chasing "the one" stops you from finding someone who will stand by you through the good and bad, and put up with the ish that comes with all people.

The show Catfish is a perfect example of this (with the exception of the weird gender lie situations). These people spend years of their lives talking to someone online. The actual person generally turns out to be less well off then they claimed, and at least 20 pounds bigger then they looked in the picture. A majority of these relationship normally end at the realization the person isn't Drake "25 sittin on 25 mil (million dollars for those of you who don't speak Canadian jewish rapper). If a couple of those people had found a way to look past some of those little things, they may have found exactly what they were looking for.

I heard this man talking once and it really stuck with me. He said he hasn't won any awards and he doesn't have a hit album, but he has a fan. She hangs his pictures up on the wall, supports all his ideas, and wants to keep up with all the latest events in his life. That person was his wife. He didn't need to be Drake, or a male model in order her to see him as someone great.

I guess what i'm trying to say is that hanging on to some fantasy soulmate might stop you from finding someone you're compatible with that could make you feel as if you're someone special. If only some of the idiots I liked could realize that. I had to come to that realization on my own, maybe they will too. Or maybe i'll quit going for that type and start looking for someone who can love me as much as the man in the Reba show loved Chelsea (you didn't get that? check out this song). Get over the fact that it's country.

Song of the day : Somebody's Chelsea by Reba

quote of the day: "I am an ordinary man with ordinary thoughts, I have no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I have love another with all my heart, and to me that is enough." - The Notebook

Celebrity news of the day : Destiny's child is coming back!! AHHH!!! I've been waiting so long for this. They're doing another song together, and a greatest hits thing And Justin Timberlake is working on another album too. I never could forgive him for bringing Sexy Back then deciding to act. like what? Good music from everyone. Can't wait to hear it all.