"Some nights I wish that this song would end, cause I could use some friends for a change"

Its been way too long since I sat and talked about feelings. The last three months have been filled with some fo the highest of highs and lowest of lows. The world lost a magnificant person who faught till the very end. The loss of any life is a tragedy, but when it ends before they really even got to live... I guess it opened my eyes to the fact that the world isn't this magical place where bad always loses and the good can live happily ever after. My faith grew and is continuing to grow despite some of the bad i've seen in the world surrounding me. I've really been working on setting my mind on the things above and finding my joy from the Lord. I joined the church choir which has been a great experience. I love contemporary christian movies along with hymns, so it's awesome to get to sing them twice instead of once on weekends. I got a lot of great support from members of my church. They really appreciate me stepping up and getting involved. This is the path worth taking. I guess I just don't see myself being just another wasted teen. I have way too much potential and was raised right. That's just something I don't feel the need to experience at the moment.

That being said, everyone elses life revolves around those things. Obviously not every single student on campus, but the people that make up my life and my everyone for sure. I've grown closer to two of my friends in particular, and I really like having them around. We were always friends, but never this close before and having them in my life has been great. I'm really happy for my friends. They're finding love left and right. I'm single and don't question it. I know that you're always right where you should be in life. I've had more then a couple crushes. Some were unrealistic, and some could have maybe worked out but they didn't.

I haven't achieved the fearlessness I was longing for in those blog posts in the beginning. I still doubt my self at times and just feel uncomfortable around new people. I started working which is a big deal for me. It's my first job, and I love having my own spending money. I like being independent. It's a work study job and I answer phones and work the front desk for about fifteen hours every week. I completed the first semester of college pretty gracefull (keep in mind this blog is coming before finals). I really want to make the Deans List. I don't know why it's such a big deal to me, but I take pride in my academics. It's about more then just me. I'm doing it for my family and all the people I love. I want to make them proud.

song of the day: Some Nights by Fun. (I think this is one of the best songs i've heard in a long time. The drum part is amazing and i'm in love with the harmonies)

quote of the day: "Well i've been afraid of changing cause I built my life around you. But time makes you bolder, children get older and i'm getting older too.." - Dixie Chicks