"I dont know how it gets better than this/You take my hand and drag me head first fearless" - Taylor Swift

Dear Blog!
I've misssed you. I feel like its been forever since I wrote. I guess the last week in general has been a week full of self discoveries. It was a good week though because I got to hang out with my friend Samira, good times. We did some fun stuff and ofcourse I have a life long amount of things to laugh about now... we say the weirdest things when we're tired. I also went shopping and I just realized that i'm going to seattle in like two weeks. I'm kind of excited. Seattle will be good for me, and my music. I think i'm going to try to be more dedicated to the songs that I write. There must be a reason why I got a somewhat talent of writting all kinds of diffrents songs. It would be wrong for me to just use them selfishly. I also want to be dedicated to my story. If i'm lucky i'll finish "volume one" of my story by the end of the summer. I now have a new feeling of where I want it to go. But part of me thinks maybe the stoy is just a bit unhealthy because it makes me think about the characters and how great it would be for them to be in love and it makes me want that love more. Is that weird?

This summer from the time it began has been about being fearless for me and I drastically failed yesturday. I was dissapointed in myself. Who hasen't been scared before? We all have moments and things that we're scared of. Weather it be the future and what it holds. Fear of not succeeding. Fear of being a bad person. Fear of not being loved. And a million and one other things that people worry about every day. But i'm thinking that if you want to get ahead in life you have to be able to take risks. Put your self out there and be exposed because if you don't then life will be moving around you and you'll be in pause. I don't want to be in pause. Pause sucks. I haven't really decided what I want to do with this new fearlessness except for work on it and be a little more confident. Not cocky, confident. :)

Yesturday was the fourth of July, thats the day when we celebrate America's independence. For those you who live in the U.S. do you realize how lucky you are? For some countries like russia and North Korea the idea of freedom of speech is still unheard of. We live in a nation where you can be anywhere you want to be and everyone has an oppurtunity to be someone. Weather it be a hobo or the presidents child everyone is equal. You get so used to this lifestyle that you sometimes forget that America being this nation is a blessing. Yes it has it's problems like every other nation but hey the good parts of America definatly over shadow the bad things.

song of the day: Ridin' solo - Jason Deurulo (I love how I discovered that song before it made the top ten like years ago.)

quote of the day: All men who have achieved great things have been great dreamers.