lets catch up

This week was wonderful. Yesturday I went downtown with Samira and had a really good time. I haden't been downtown in a very long time. It reminded me of how much I love lawrence. I do love downtown and the people there. And the stores and restraunts. I dont know if I could leave for collage. I think i love it too much. Dont get my wrong I do love diffrent places and the diffrent expirences (On my list are: Greece, Italy, India, Dubai, japan), but I like lawrence. I like that its safe and I dont have to worry about getting my bag stolen or someone bringing a gun. But anyways Samira and I shopped all day and had a blast. It was a really fun week. Its sad that she lives so far away.

Guess what I came home with in my purse today? That cd. I almost had like a weird breakdown in the car but as always I have the capability of holding myself together. I was really really really dissapointed in myself. But if you think a little deeper about it. He must already know anyways. And maybe I shouldnt be so forward. (these are all the things im telling myself to act like chicking out is ok). At the end of the day I was a big baby and didnt. I tried starting a conversation but then my brother interupted with his stupid (I gave my sister 26 dollers for an ipod touch story). isent that just great? Oh well. Maybe I should listen to samira. Education before boys. Education before boys. Maybe I can have some great degree and prove that i have potential then "make a move". Who knows........

The most intresting thing happened today! So my mother bought two barbies for these girls I know Iman and Nargis. They are sweet hearts (2 and 4), and when I was their age there was nothing better then a barbie with her maching purse and shoes. But anyways we opened them up and they each started playing with them and then Iman goes," I want to be like the barbie, I need her dress, shoes, make up, shes so pretty". This is probably really common for little girls but I was a little suprised. I had this crazy foods teacher who wouldent let her kids play with barbies or watch tv. Because they send the bad message out to kids. Or theres the feminist that wont let their kids play with barbies because of the way their all skinny and stuff. For a split second I understood all that. Iman no longer wants to be Iman. She wants to be like barbie now. At a young age your a blank page and you get written on. the way society works today we dont let children find themselves we let them become like what has already been found. No one relaly lets their kids decide for themselves what they want or need. Now this isent bagging on parents. I understand that if they dont get to their kids someone else will and may be teaching them the wrong message. It really makes me wonder what everyone would be like without the influence of the outside world or anyone but themselves. like adam without eve. hmmm.

Song of the day: Reply (love it!)

quote of the day:
Education is a progressive discovery of our own ignorance.