Good morning! Last night I had a lot of dreams and im going to share them with you. The first one was a nightmare. I was at school and things were going ok then there was a school shooting. And no one really knew what was going on but I got taken into a room by my gi joe english teacher. And she nailed this tire thing to my back and it somehow worked like handcuffs and I was supposed to go out into the bus with the other prisoners of war. But I was smart and jumped in a car with my friend meredith and her family. The plan was for them to drop me off at home and make my parents send me to my family in seattle as far away from this whole mess as possible. I dont know what went wrong but I some how ended up back in the school and the last scene I saw from this was my friend with a big army gun being in charge of the whole thing! weird huh? It was terrifying.

Then after I had recovered from that I tried to get back to sleep and the dream continued. Everything was done and I heard my parents downstairs trying to get my attention and my mom was trying to defend me where as my dad was saying we cant let her stay like this. And as I was walking down the stairs I couldent talk or communicate. And I guess I was refusing to eat or do anything because that nail and me back made me messed up. It was not good. It was scary.

Then I went back to sleep again. And this dream touched me the most. I was in tears throughtout most of it. I was on a field trip with my jr. high friends and basically everyone from my elementry school. Olive was walking in front of me really fast and then keenen (the sweetest boy who was in 6th grade with me and died from cancer) was trying to catch up with her. But she was so busy running after all this other stuff she couldent hear him. And the world was just so loud I couldent hear what keenen was trying to say. And he kept trying to keep up with the people he left behind but he couldent. and I felt soo bad. And I yelled QUIEEEEEET! really loud trying to get the world to be quiet so I could hear him and keep him there. And so I went into this room and there was two pages on a computer. the words were all upside down and keenen in his big poofy black jacket was watching me try to read it. I read aloud in silence "just because you cant see the sky in the dark, dosent mean its not there". and he looked over me with these longing eyes. and on the other side upside down I made out the words happy birthday olivia. and he didnt say a word but I just felt like he wanted me to tell her and he was trying to say that hes still here. It was the most message like dream i have ever had. I will tell olivia about it and give her her birthday greeting and this blog goes out to keenen. R.I.P buddy, everyone may move on but you will not be forgotten.

song of the day:
I'll be missing you p.diddy

quote of the day:
Just because you cant see the sky at night dosent mean its not there.