Today I decided to play housewife. That is slightly unlike me. I mean nothing against housewives. I don't want the shows and look up to the real ones who can do all the house stuff and have a job. But I never really enjoyed that around the house kind of stuff. But I volunteered to cook today, and I cleaned quite a lot and it was not so bad. I guess some stuff is still stuck in my head and I might start giving it a try. I mean in like 3 years I can legally get married , so maybe I should get prepared or something? But I wouldn't want someone to marry me just because I can mop. One of the most disgusting weddings I ever went to were between this guy who basically hated the lady (I don't blame him,she was psycho), but she cooked him pilau one day and he was sold. He decided that if all he ever gets is pilau from her then he's ok. No it wasen't off a comedy show it was real. They are surprisingly still married, if that says anything.

Today I was doing one of my favorite pass - times and got thinking. You know we all love people that have the same hair as Kim Kardasian, or look exactly like Blanket Jackson. What we never think about is what a burden that would be. Sure everyone would love you, but you probably couldn't help but wonder if they love how YOU look or how the celebrity look. And no matter how hard you would try to express yourself and be your own person you would always be compared to Kim, or Blanket. If you were good at something, people wouldn't be paying attention to that skill they would be paying attention to how much you look like another person. Its almost a disadvantage. If would really make a person have some insecurity issues. You'd probably always wonder if you met your wife because you looked like leo dicaprio, or if your best friend only talked to you in the first place because you could do a dance similar to M.J. 's. So next time you see someone do something don't go, "Wow! That was great just like M.J.". You should be like "that was amazing! You were great". :)

I'm hoping you guys are enjoying the 2009 stuff. I'm trying hard to document not only this year, but the decade as a whole. Cross my fingers for me to finish before 2010! :)

Song of 12/30/09: This Love, Maroon 5

quote of the day:

Almost no one is foolish enough to imagine that he automatically deserves great success in any field of activity; yet almost everyone believes that he automatically deserves success in marriage.

2009 a year for music

I must say the girls won this year in music. Taylor Swift, Lady Gaga, and Beyonce made the world dance, and sing along. Their albums Fearless, The fame, and I am sasha Fierce topped the charts and were downloaded on ipods all over the world. Some of the songs I really liked were...

1. Love Story - Taylor Swift

2. You belong with me - Taylor Swift

3. Forever and always - Taylor Swift

4. My life would suck without you - Kelly Clarkson

5. 1,2,3,4 - Plain White tees

6. Down - Jay Sean

7. Do you remember - Jay Sean

8. Single Ladies - Beyonce

9. If I Were A boy - Beyonce

10. Sweet Dreams - Beyonce

11. Empire State of mind - Alicia Keys and Jay Z

12. Halo - Beyonce

13. You Found me - The Fray

14. Papazrazzi - Lady Gaga

15. Just Dance - Lady Gaga

16. Poker Face - Lady Gaga

17. Waking up in Vegas - Katy Perry

18. I gotta Feeling - Black Eyed Peas

19. Boom Boom Pow - Black eyed Peas

20. Use Somebody - King of Leon

21. Party in the USA - Miley Cyrus

22. Mad - Neyo

23. Soulmate - Natasha Bedingfield

24. Right Round - Flo Rida

25. Right now - Akon

26. So What - Pink

27. Obsessed - Mariah Carey

28. Russian Roullete - Rihanna

29. Fireflies - Owl city

30. Bad Romance - Lady Gaga

31. Dont Trust me - 30H!3

32. Good girls go bad

33. Fire burning on the dance floor - Sean kingston

34. Love Drunk- Boys like girls

35. Replay - Iyaz

36. Watcha Say - Jason

37. Spotlight - Usher ft. Gucci mane

I cant wait to look over these songs 50 years from now, or here them on a 2000s greatest hits special. :)

2009 will soon be gone

The year 2009 is soon ending. It has been 365 days gone. Let me just say, Its been a good year! I went to my first formal dances. I left the country on my own for the very first time. I visited sites I never imagined being able to see. The eiffel tower, Sagrada Familia, the Medeteranian sea. I saw how other people lived and through it saw how much I loved my life the way it is. I graduated from jr. high and left that behind me never to expirenacne it again. I began high school. Worked a little harder. I improved on piano, cello, and singing. I met a lot of new people that I enjoy talking to. I also kept the old people and made lots of new memories. I helped people get through their toughest times. And I had some tough times of my own. I got a better veiw of what I want for myself in my life. Wheather it be my future jobs (pharmacy, dentistry), or where the direction I want my life to go. I found some new values that I hope to keep with me. I followed the saying "Even when theres nothing left, hold on to hope". And there were timesd when it felt like all was lost. But that hope got me threw.

2009 has not only been about me though. Throught the world people discovered themselves and went threw many hardships. The first big thing that comes to my mind is this year we lost the greatest entertaiment that ever lived. Michael Joseph Jackson. No one is ever going to forget when his brothers brought him in in that pure gold casket. When his family cried for all the world to see. When Jermaine sang smile, Human nature was played by John Mayor, and how all the greats. The whole world came together to discuss what an effect a complete stranger made in their lives. It was a beautiful thing, and the modern death similar to that of Diana. The whole world will remember.

2009 was also big because we got our first African American president. That is something that no one would even dream of in the years of the past. I got to see him with my own two eyes this year. I was surrounded be about 600, 000 people I believe the number was. We all stood and for about 2 hours the whole place was silent. All 600,000 people were dead silent! We all stood and listened to this man talk. He gave us hope. Hope of new beginings. Hope of change. He inspired us. He told us of the Amercican dream. He let that little girl inside of me believe once again that a girl that started out in the poor areas of maryland. Went to public school, and has middle class parents can make it one day. Obama was a miricle sent from god and I'm happy to have witnessed this greatest. At school the whole school stoped and watched as Aretha Franklin sang. As he put his hand over the bible and his wife and little girls watched thier love be names leader of the free world!! Imagine it. We witnessed it!

On a more sad note, we remember that girl being imprisoned in north korea and our former president Bill Clinton bringing her back alive. We remember that man who shot a big amount of amercican soldiars and people loosing their loved ones. We remember not seeing Chris Brown and Rihanna at the grammys and watching the news of him attacking Americas golden girl. We watched the trials and watched his carreer slowly fall down the cracks. But we also saw him become a better man and make that song I can transform ya. That was great! We lost Ted Kennady who did everything he could to fight for this country. I cried when I saw him say he would fight through his brain cancer so he could see President Barack Obama be inagurated in office. He wanted to be there front and center. I also watched him pass the torch from the Kennedys to the Obamas. That brought shivers down my spine. We also lost Brittney Murphy, Farah Fawcett.

The miricle at the hudson shocked us all as the pilot managed to land on the water and save all those people. The world was given hope yet again when that girl was found after being lost from her family for many years (Jaycee Gudered). We watched that balloon boy "fly away" and admit that it was all for the television and press. David Letterman, John Edwards and Tiger Woods let down the worth of Men everywhere by cheating on their loving wives. Kanye West put the worth of men down even lower when he stole the spotlight from Kanye West. And Sarah Palin made all us women feel a little more stupid inside.

This was a brilliant year for music as well.....to be continued on the next blog

catching up part dos

Ok so I know this is probably against the law of winter break or something. But I'm gonna make like Obama and change this. Im going to talk about school during break. AHH. I know this is awful but sometimes rules are meant to be bent ;) . Health classes have been an issue thats "debatable" in the united states for years now. It is yet another subject where where democrates and republicans have diffrent thoughts. Republicans will tell you that health classes are bad. And if you talk about things then students are going to feel more comfortable with them and do them. Democrates think its important to teach kids what their getting into so that if they decide to make the wrong choice they know how to do it carefully and know the goods and bads to all their choices. I decided randomly today that I agree with the democrates. Health classes are important. Although my health teacher of two years was also the football coach and was just a little bit of a bum. I did learn stuff from him and it wasent as awkwards as it would have been to have to hear it from relatives and such. Maybe im just weird but sometimes its easier to believe a complete stranger then people you've known for a lifetime.

Big news in the celebrity world. Taylor swift and Taylor laughtner have broken up. I know is really sad!! I really wanted them to work. One of my favorite singers and my favorite werewolf getting together would be epic. I would really enjoy if that had worked out. Peoples magazine says that the whole thing was over blown. They did date for a little while. And yes they kissed and hugged and we saw them oh so very romantic together but it was only 3 dates. After all of that htey decided that they just needed to be friends. And they still are. Not to meantion that Taylor lives in nashville and taylor L. lives in los angeles. They lived basically a contient apart. It just didnt work out for now.

I also saw the wedding photos of Kevin Jonas and his "jersey girl". I dont know why but I couldent help but think they looked like little kids playing dress up. Kevin Jonas is 22 and when you say it like that it sounds like their not that young. They just looked little to me. I think its because they are younger then the couples im used to reading about. Kendra and Hank. Khloe and Lamar. Their both couples that are heading towards 30. Kevin is in his early twentys. i dont think i'd mind marrying then. With the education before boys thing I should be done with collage at around 23 or 24 years old. thats it I become a pharmasist. If I pass it off for a 4 year college degree like law or something then I'll be 20 or 21. hmm. Those are things you never know though. When you meet "the one". But its kind of weird. In 8ish years I could possibly a married woman. My years of childhoodness are disapearing behind me. I think I need to enjoy it more.

song of the day:
My endless love- diana ross and lional richie

lets catch up

This week was wonderful. Yesturday I went downtown with Samira and had a really good time. I haden't been downtown in a very long time. It reminded me of how much I love lawrence. I do love downtown and the people there. And the stores and restraunts. I dont know if I could leave for collage. I think i love it too much. Dont get my wrong I do love diffrent places and the diffrent expirences (On my list are: Greece, Italy, India, Dubai, japan), but I like lawrence. I like that its safe and I dont have to worry about getting my bag stolen or someone bringing a gun. But anyways Samira and I shopped all day and had a blast. It was a really fun week. Its sad that she lives so far away.

Guess what I came home with in my purse today? That cd. I almost had like a weird breakdown in the car but as always I have the capability of holding myself together. I was really really really dissapointed in myself. But if you think a little deeper about it. He must already know anyways. And maybe I shouldnt be so forward. (these are all the things im telling myself to act like chicking out is ok). At the end of the day I was a big baby and didnt. I tried starting a conversation but then my brother interupted with his stupid (I gave my sister 26 dollers for an ipod touch story). isent that just great? Oh well. Maybe I should listen to samira. Education before boys. Education before boys. Maybe I can have some great degree and prove that i have potential then "make a move". Who knows........

The most intresting thing happened today! So my mother bought two barbies for these girls I know Iman and Nargis. They are sweet hearts (2 and 4), and when I was their age there was nothing better then a barbie with her maching purse and shoes. But anyways we opened them up and they each started playing with them and then Iman goes," I want to be like the barbie, I need her dress, shoes, make up, shes so pretty". This is probably really common for little girls but I was a little suprised. I had this crazy foods teacher who wouldent let her kids play with barbies or watch tv. Because they send the bad message out to kids. Or theres the feminist that wont let their kids play with barbies because of the way their all skinny and stuff. For a split second I understood all that. Iman no longer wants to be Iman. She wants to be like barbie now. At a young age your a blank page and you get written on. the way society works today we dont let children find themselves we let them become like what has already been found. No one relaly lets their kids decide for themselves what they want or need. Now this isent bagging on parents. I understand that if they dont get to their kids someone else will and may be teaching them the wrong message. It really makes me wonder what everyone would be like without the influence of the outside world or anyone but themselves. like adam without eve. hmmm.

Song of the day: Reply (love it!)

quote of the day:
Education is a progressive discovery of our own ignorance.

So yesturday something inside of me woke up or changed. I found out that prince read my super personal paper thing about him. I talked all about how I feel. Im pretty suprised I was able to let out feelings like that. I'm also pretty glad that he read it. (not that i'd admit that to samira anytime soon). This means that I wanted him to know all along. But along with that I wanted him to love me. And thats not going to happen unless I "make a move". So folks I'm going to make a move. The plan so far is this. Im going to send him a cd of love songs and songs that are just me.and inside there will be a list of all the songs and why I put the cd. I'll also try not to blab so much about how great he is and meantion that a reply would be fantastic. and before this im going to try to give him a heads up some how. Sounds perfect huh? WRONG

Making a move means getting a response. what if he dosent want me back. Even i'll admit that im not the perfect girl. BUT he is the perfect guy and perfection may only want perfection. what if it turns out that he dosent like me? What happens then..... well hopefully it wont go in that direction. On a posative note what if he does love me back. ahhh. he loves me back. isent that great? What if he asks me out. what if we date. ooh finally the perfect boyfriend. it would have to be long distance and i'd most likley have to tell my parents who i hope would understand. I'm kind of worried Samira would be upset with me if it turned out well. I think she'd be mad that im damning her brother to hell but she should understand I would never hurt her little angel. :)

Today is Christmas. I dont feel like i've felt in christmases past. I feel my childhoodness slipping away. I used to be super excited about opening my parents and all this stuff. But it may have just been because I had friends over so I was less into it and less religious. But I do love this day and all it represents. its my saviors birthday. :) This christmas I got: A north face jacket and clothes, An ipod touch from my mom, dad, and brother, and a really cool guitar from my uncle japhet. Its been a good christmas. I recieved lots of nice material things. I've also recieved lots of love from my family. The people who matter the most. I am truley greatful for them. really I am. (I know what your thinking, even ben samira :) ). I wonder what next christmas will be like. Every move I make effects the future and where I will be by then. I know i'll still love christmas more than all other holidays. Im also pretty sure ill feel the same way about my family and friends. And who knows maybe ill have a cute boyfriend who I love by then.....

Its been awhile so your probably wondering what i've been up too. So Samira and her little brother Aflah came. Its been fun. Me and samira chit-chatted for a long time in order to catch up on the like 5 months we didnt get to talk about boys and some other smaller subjects. Samiras been keeping me in check on the whole "right and wrong stuff". Maybe I should follow her ways. hmmm idk. We watched half of my sisters keeper. It reminds me that the days of earth are limited. and if you dont go through and do everything you want and need to do while your healthy and alive then you'll never get too. I do understand that theres heaven and nothing will ever beat it. I truley do believe it. But I still feel like thats no reason not to enjoy the life i'm living now. And I want ture love. Its important to me. I want someone to take care of me and love me unconditionally. Not necesserily now. But sometime before its too late. I will also keep the same new years resolution. to be brave. In order to reach some of my other goals. to speak my mind, and not to be scared of any situation or anything. well thats all for today readers.

MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY
*****************************CHRISTMAS*******************************************

Song of the day: Joy to the world

Quote of the day: OMG! This is real. your going to make a move. It will be like a slap across the face to all of us. WAIT! Are you going to get married ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! - Samira Ali

Does sucsess = money or is it the other way around?

Its been awhile since I thought of a good topic to blog about but it came to be around 9 o'clock last night. That was when the Freestate girls basketball team defeated the lawrence high girls varsity team. It was a close game but no doubt the freestate girls were better and im not just being biast. One girl on our team is 6'5". thank god your not that tall right? I mean shes got game and talent but shes too tall. And that is a problem if you remember my tallness being similar to a disability blog. But anyways the freestate team is better. And the way it kind of works around hear is that Freestate is where the better off kids and Lawrene high is where all the poor kids from the shealter and like 10% of lawrences elite go. What happens is the southwest jr. high kids get split up because a majority of them are better off into Lawrence High and Freestate. Then the central kids are split up also and then most of the east side kids go to LHS and the west siders/north siders go to freestate. And it seems to me that Freestate wins at everything.

We made it to the regional football thing and got second place. We beat every team in the area with the exception of the team who won regionals. Our chamber choir gets to go compete at disneyworld every year no exceptions and wins at all the areas. Our bands and orchestras are also really good but I would say that LHS is equal when it comes to band stuff. Now we're all kids. A majority of the people grew up in Lawrence. And the only thing diffrent is the incomes that people make. But Freestate high school is better at everything? Does that mean that the more money you have the more likley you are to be sucsessful. Lets take a look at the teenage celebritys. The first thing that comes to mind is miley cyrus and the jonas brothers. Mileys dad was a filthy rich country singer and she stayed number one with her hit party in the USA for motnsh. The jonas brothers had musical background with their father who knew how to play the guitar and all that stuff. That one girl that acts on nickalodean is Julia Roberts neice. See whats in common with these storys? Rich parents. I'm starting to realize that when a person dosent have the advantage of money it dosent come as easy.

Now im not saying that poor people just dont come with talent. I mean im sure if the homeless people in the downtown areas had oppurtunitys to do stuff they could be nba stars and such too. The real reason that the freestate teams are better isent that they just look at the cash in their storages and play better. Its that their parents could afford to get them personal trainers and voice lessons. They could go to all the summer camps and stuff that helps you improve your skills at whatever talent that you do have. But do not give up hope if you didnt go to the camps and such. There is a chance that you could pull a beyonce and be discovered by someone who does have money to develop your skills. So words for the wise. Great people with smiles and be polite. Wear really cute clothes that show that you could have potential. And wait to be discovered. But a word for those who are wiser. Study so that you dont end up being that hobo because a job isent being a celebirty or sports player but it will get you somewhere.

Song of the day:
Silver bells (LOVE that song)

Quote of the day:
#52 you suck, you give fat people a bad name!! -Brand willis at the basketball game last night. HE won a cupcake eating contest if that tells you anything.

Good morning! Last night I had a lot of dreams and im going to share them with you. The first one was a nightmare. I was at school and things were going ok then there was a school shooting. And no one really knew what was going on but I got taken into a room by my gi joe english teacher. And she nailed this tire thing to my back and it somehow worked like handcuffs and I was supposed to go out into the bus with the other prisoners of war. But I was smart and jumped in a car with my friend meredith and her family. The plan was for them to drop me off at home and make my parents send me to my family in seattle as far away from this whole mess as possible. I dont know what went wrong but I some how ended up back in the school and the last scene I saw from this was my friend with a big army gun being in charge of the whole thing! weird huh? It was terrifying.

Then after I had recovered from that I tried to get back to sleep and the dream continued. Everything was done and I heard my parents downstairs trying to get my attention and my mom was trying to defend me where as my dad was saying we cant let her stay like this. And as I was walking down the stairs I couldent talk or communicate. And I guess I was refusing to eat or do anything because that nail and me back made me messed up. It was not good. It was scary.

Then I went back to sleep again. And this dream touched me the most. I was in tears throughtout most of it. I was on a field trip with my jr. high friends and basically everyone from my elementry school. Olive was walking in front of me really fast and then keenen (the sweetest boy who was in 6th grade with me and died from cancer) was trying to catch up with her. But she was so busy running after all this other stuff she couldent hear him. And the world was just so loud I couldent hear what keenen was trying to say. And he kept trying to keep up with the people he left behind but he couldent. and I felt soo bad. And I yelled QUIEEEEEET! really loud trying to get the world to be quiet so I could hear him and keep him there. And so I went into this room and there was two pages on a computer. the words were all upside down and keenen in his big poofy black jacket was watching me try to read it. I read aloud in silence "just because you cant see the sky in the dark, dosent mean its not there". and he looked over me with these longing eyes. and on the other side upside down I made out the words happy birthday olivia. and he didnt say a word but I just felt like he wanted me to tell her and he was trying to say that hes still here. It was the most message like dream i have ever had. I will tell olivia about it and give her her birthday greeting and this blog goes out to keenen. R.I.P buddy, everyone may move on but you will not be forgotten.

song of the day:
I'll be missing you p.diddy

quote of the day:
Just because you cant see the sky at night dosent mean its not there.

Birthday news

Yesturday at 9:30 p.m. I turned 15 years old. I have been alive for 15 year. 2 and a half decades. It dosent feel that long but I took some time to really think about what that means and what I want to come out of this year. I want to be happy, I want to do better in school, I want to be more in touch with my friends, I want to be closer to my family, and I want to find the right guy. I dont really know who it is but I do know that NONE of the ones I thought were right commented on my wall or told me happy birthday on facebook. Thats one thing that bothers me. How can strangers be kind enough to tell you happy birthday, and people you know and thought you might like not even say anything. Prince didnt tell me happy birthday. hes been dethroned. not forever but he is definatly on probation. some other guys did comment on my wall though. Half of them were complete strangers who just cared. maybe im around all the wrong guys...

On the posative note. I had a great time last night at dinner with my friends. We went to Rudy's pizza and have some cheese, beef, and peporoni pizza. It was delicious. The absolute perfect pizzas. I ordered the worlds most amazing cake. It has my favorite baby picture of me. If you know me at all you've probably seen it. I have braids and barrets in my hair. Im sitting on a ledge looking down and behind me is the sanfransisco bridge, with water, and the bluest sky i've ever seen. I cant remember that moment but I'd like to think I was perfectly happy at that moment in my life. No problems at all. Anyways I put in candles and lit them and my friends + about 30 strangers sang happy birthday to me. I blew out candles and made a wish. the cake was as good as it looked.

I also got some presents. My mom,dad, and brother gave me a bath and body works lotion kit, the brand new alicia keys cd, a michael jackson dangerous short film dvd, and the JLO perfume. My godmother sent me a 25 dollor gift card to itunes. Elaine Frank gave me the cutest wallet and a gold purse. Sarah and Taz all got me borders gift cards. Taz gave me Gossip girl the prequal as well. Olivia M. also got me a book. Take a chance: A gossip girl the carlyles novel. Milly got me an american eagle gift card. Akira got me earrings made by her mama`. Lisa got me braclets, a lotion/chapstic kit, and the cutest headband. And I also got some more things from other people I cant think of but im really thankful for them all. It was a great birthday and I really enjoyed it. Too bad its over.

The fun continues on tommorow though. Im going to Olive's big birthday party and a christmas party at evelyns on monday. It should be a great time. I also hope to go shopping at KC mall with my mom. Samira are you going to come over? we must plan.

p.s. i just remembered another present. my dads friend gave me 20 bucks :)

Ok so dont think i've forgotten about my dear blog. I now speand all my time studying for finals, and trying to learn everyhting I didnt learn all semester in 2 days. Its awful (i think this is my new favorite word). Tommorows my birthday and i'm pretty excited about it. Im going to go out to dinner with some friends and my mom ordered a cake for me. Claps for a pretty cake. I have to get back to studying but on friday around noon ill update you on all the crazines that my life has been. bye for now!

One of the best weekends of my life; am i loving life ? YES!

I had a super fantastic amazing great weekend!!! It was just too fun and everything went perfectly!!! On friday after school I tried to take my drivers test again and it didnt go well. Its really embarassing and I took it as a sign the weekend would be awful. Good thing I was wrong!! Ok so after the test I rushed home and used my awesome card maker program to make a sixteenth birthday card for sarah chavez!! Shes a great friend. Really quiet but always nice. We all met at papacinos for some local pizza. Its really cool they make gigantic slices the size of your face. (Samira we have to go there next time your in town). Then we had some downtime so we went to urban outifitters and looked at their amazingly cute clothes. then at 7:30 the limo came!! It was so exciting. It was my second time in a limo. The driver would take us anywhere we want and the driver opened and closed the doors for us. There were leather seats and juice in a fancy wine like bottle. Elegent looking cups and the lights inside would change colors. There were two televisions inside. We took lots of people and went to taco bell for a bathroom break :). We drove by our school and took pictures and just enjoyed the ride the rest of the way. Afterwards we went to her house to open presents and have cake. It was a really great party.

On saturday morning I woke up with a smile on my face from the night before. I had my breakfast and I began beutifying. I took the crappy nail polish off my nails and replaced it with the pretty pink metalic one I had bought from walmart. I also gave myself a facial using my mothers mary kay products. Afterwards I had some downtime so I was just doing random things to keep myself busy. I showered at at 1 I had a hair appointment with my name on it. I got my hair curled and It looked great if I saw so myself. I didnt finish till around 4 though so when I got back olivia and akira were already at my house. So then I straightened olivia's hair and then we all did out makeup and such. Taz also came. Then we got dressed and took some pictures around the house, to comemorate the fabulous day.

After we were already we met at paisanos at 6:30. We had to wait in line for about 30 mintues. It was awful. That was with reservations by the way. We had a terrible waiter who was making rude comments, and was un clean with out food. (apperently someone say him sneeze on the alfrado, thank god I didnt get that). And then Elaine called her father to complain about how awful the waiter was and her father came in with an angrey look on his face and managed to get us ALL our tip money back. But by then we were already 40 minutes late to formal. It was definaly worth the wait. When we got there it looked like the party was starting off and people were starting to dance and our whole group got out there and had the time of our lives. We danced during ALL the songs. I only sat down during the slow songs becaue I sadley didnt have a date. But I didnt even really mind that. I danced like i've never danced before and had a good time with some of the best friends I could ever ask for! I'll never forget formal :)

Song of the day:
Emprie state of mind - Jay Z and Alicia keys (<3)

Quote of the day:"You try to pretend like you're paying attention to your family, but in the meantime, you're like "Grandma, can you pass the gravy? I'M OPEN!" - Ray romano speaking about thanksgiving

Ok so ive officially accidently deleted this twice now, so its time for try number 3. Will it be a sucsess, Si mamacitas . si! So everyone who is eveyrone is talking about one this. Is it the economic failure? no. Is it the fact that 30,000 more troops are being sent to iraq? no. is it that these are some of the last days of oprah? no. Its tiger woods. He ran into a tree AND the world has found out that he is a cheater. Not one mistress, not two, but three! Why are we talking about this so much? I understand its terrible that hes cheating on his model wife and basically cheating on his 2 baby boys too. But hes not the first person to do it. You want to know why their talking about it so much? Its because theres no new news coming out. The celebritys have all escapped and left this rough winter to us and gone to their private islands. do you want to know how I know? Well walk down the magazine isle at walmart. What do you see? Lots of covers that look like this: Oprahs dieing in 10 days, Celulite, anorexia, and something is going on with brad and angelina (marrige, divorce, baby, adopting, fight, true love). Whenever theres nothing to talk about people start talking about the above. Its kind of weird, but they always do. But soon it will all be over because kendra and kourtney will be having their babys and everyone loves baby news. Did you know celebity children baby pics sell for millions? its crazy.

I went and did something I've never done before. I went make up shopping. I now added to my small collection of make up items all being pinkish purplish colors because thats what my dress color is. I am getting so excited about formal! I guess its just finally something to look forward too. Its been a sort of dry couple of months and nothings going on this winter. But be bored no more. Now we have.......two concerts next week, my birthday, christmas, and winter formal! It couldent get any better! I have my masterwork rehersals tonight and it should be pretty serious. All 500 of us will practice together for the first time. In italian. And we have to figure out where we all stand but ms. morton says she has it under control. I trust in her! Finals are also coming up and im a little on the worried side. I dont want to reck my good grades which could happen. ahh pray for me. Im keeping it short and sweet today. :)

song of the day: Walking on sunshine - aly and aj

quote of the day:
With our love, we could save the world - george harrison (who was meantioned on jason mraz's twitter post today!)

You know what makes a country not suceed? Its one simple thing. Are you thinking money, or bad leaders because thats not it. Its not having love for your own people. Thats why Tanzania is one of the poorest nations in the world. The leaders have no compassion for their own people. I heard some terrible storys today and I'm gonna tell you some. There were 3 men and they were arrested for a crime. 2 of them were greek and italian and one of them was tanzanian. None of them were involved with the crime and the greek goverment interfered and saved their people. The tanzanian goverment didnt give a crap about their person. He got hung in jail and the night before he wrote a letter that he gave to a man from gahna to take to tanzania and make sure to get it published in the paper. He got hung and the goverment saw the paper but didnt care. So what someone died. It meant nothing to them. Its absolutley terrible.

I partly want to study politics and then go back to zanzibar and shake things up, just like benezair bhutto did with pakastan. The only issue is i'm an american citizen and cant run for office but if I was I would totally go back and run for office and make sure it was dont fairly. I would get the U.S. to back me up and make the voting go through them. And they would do it becaue the U.S. can basically go to any country and do whatever they want. Is that right? I mean they are the worlds biggest power. And they do donate a lot of money to help people but is it fair that they get privllages that other countrys could only dream of. If an american citizen gets arrested for a crime in thailand they only have to stay in jail for 5 years and then they come to the u.s. "to pay the rest of their time" but a majority of the people end up being let free for "miss treatment". Thats pretty unfair because someone from any other country would have to stay in thailand and deal with the terrible punishments. Its just really sad.

I had a sleepover last night and it was really fun. At first I didnt think it would work because normally its just me and akira or just me and taz at my house but never me, taz, and akira at once. But it was fun we just hung out and had deep conversations that are hard to have at school or other places. It was nice to reconnect because they were my first new friends when I went to central and we dont really get to hang out together that often. I dont like big groups of people as much as small groups of people because its hard to talk about stuff when its a big group and its hard to get on a deeper level of friendship with big groups because most of the time the big group is split into little groups of best friends. Friendship is a good thing to have. I love all my friends! Your all the best things I could ever ask for.

Song of the day: True friend - Miley cyrus

Quote of the day:Better to be wise by the misfortunes of others than by your own.

So I know your sitting there wondering whats new in the sad and pathetic life of Mariam Ali. Well, ill tell you. Today I stayed after school for diversity club and the song that the teacher picked for us to sing is Lean on Me by Al Green. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the song and I hate al green. Weird huh? He performed at the grammys one year and I just didnt like it. It wasent too good , and since that day i havent liked that guy. The gramy nominations were made but more about that later. After the club meeting I went and sat in the commons and this group of guys was staring me down and I did the only thing I could do, pulled out my phone and algebra book! Then one of these guys came up to me and said."hey mariam".

He has math with me but he's like never talked to me. And he asked how things were going and I said pretty good and then the conversation just kinda died. And he yelled at his friend who was hiding behind a pole but he looked really dumb because hes a big boy and Im thinking he might have a thing for me and his friend was acting like we knew each other. It was weird. Nothing against the guy but I dont think we're very compatible. Hes friends with sebastian, but from what hes told me about him he steals stuff and hes funny. But I think its the peverted kind of funny. Anyways that kind of boosted my confidence. I still got it! Just with all the wrong guys....Did I tell you Jacob is dating this asain girl? Yeah hes dating this asain girl. Right when things were going ok for us with the eye contact smiling thing we've been doing. But now hes with the asain all the time. And I get disgusted and he sticks his tounge down her throat. I just want to yell go back to china! But then I realize that she could just yell back go back to africa! And then i'd be stumped and it would ruin the illusion or picture jacob could have of me. Or maybe im nothing to him. But then hes not that important to me as we discussed earlier.He dosent seem like the forever kind of guy......but at least hes not...

Ok so i have a friend named Marina and shes a nice girl but shes not the brightest crayon in the box. And she has a crush on this stoner. Like for real hes into drubs. And hes dumb. And he looks off into nothing sometimes and isent even fully there. But ill tell you one thing hes got going, his looks. Not amazing but somewhere in between. And shes ignoring the fact that hes a total loser because hes "cute". And she calls him "her stoner". She dosent EVER use his name? Isent that dumb? How the hell is she going to have a relationship with a guy who she dosent mention by name and dosent care about anything but illegal activity. I dont understand. How could someone love someone like that? Taz 222 gave me the answer. So she thinks that guys look diffrent to diffrent people. Like maybe I'll see lets say chris brown and see the most attractive, sweet, guy in the world and Samira will look at chris brown and think ewww i hate him. Its not that his face or features are diffrent. Its some weird science thing that makes you attracted to a person. I totally believe it! I think its true, because there are some guys ive been attracted too that truley suprise everyone. Its WEIRD!

Song of the day:
Watcha say - someone I cant think of.

Quote of the day (I think its halarious, i just broke out laughing) its from naughts and cross: "No. he just made you pregnant instead dad said bitterly. " Callum didnt rape me, he really didnt! -Sephy. "But your pregnant, he must have "mother said. "I'm pregnent because we made love to each other, And it was te ost magical wonderful night of my life. My only regret is that we cant do it again- . -sephy. Dad slaped me SO hard he kocked me off my feet.

I dont know why but when It gets to the dad part I just crack up