Down To Ride Till The Very End, It's Me and My Boyfriend

Yesterday, I had the pleasure of doing dinner and a movie with one of my best friends. I wanted to really enjoy Memorial Day Weekend, because this summer will be a boring one for me. I am working 40 hours a week. Normally this would mean more fun activities, but I am currently stuck paying rent unexpectedly. It's $385 per month + electricity. When you make less than $10 an hour, that's basically your whole pay check. The day was okay.

Honestly, not as fun as the outings we usually have. I think it's because I get kind of uncomfortable in her home. Her mom has a bad attitude, and I don't think she likes me very much. We've had our ups and downs and her mom knows about them, so that may be why she isn't the biggest fan of me. But she always ends up yelling or making everything weird. She's super kind to our third musketeer, so I know that it's just something against me. I don't experience that at my house, because they all have grown to like this particular friend. My parents are very open and when they decide to make you family, you're family. I didn't experience this with a lot of my other friends, because they're awkward in general. I don't know if they have accepted this about themselves, but I have. I think its made obvious by their interaction with other friends as well.

We went and saw Book Club which is exactly what I wanted it to be. It was humorous, but basically a classic love story with a happy ending for absolutely everyone. When we were at dinner, one line from the conversation stuck out. We were talking about my relationship in little detail, because that's just how I am. She made a comment that stuck with me. She said, "you've been together through so much. Most couples don't go through that much in 5 years and you two went through it in one". That thought was on my mind all day, then I watched Red Table Talk with Gabrielle Union and Jada Pinkett Smith. Gabrielle was talking about her relationship with Dwayne Wade and she said, "The idea that a good woman or good future wife should have propensity to handle enormous amounts of pain and that's what makes you a good wife". She that that she had to redefine that notion. She said that people are not interested in pain or hurting their significant other,

I've been through a lot with my man. I don't regret it. All of it happened to humble me, bring me closer to God, show me what he was going through by going through it myself, teach me not to trust people, remind me that money gets you out of even the worst situations. The list goes on and on. I've learned and grown a lot from it. I've also cried a lot. So many tears. I wasn't ready for everything that came with a relationship. Maybe that's why God made me wait so long before sending the right person to me. I do believe that everything that we went through made us closer. Helped us grow. I appreciate everything we went through.

It's weird though, because we never got to have a honeymoon stage and just be a normal couple. I wonder how that affected us. It has made out intimacy extremely passionate from the start. That connection was always strong because we needed each other. We really do feel like one person a lot of the time, because his hurt was my hurt and my hurt was his hurt. It made our relationship stronger.

But where do we go from here? Is it okay that we feel a lot of new relationship things don't apply to us? Is it okay that we basically feel married? I don't know. But that's something I will be pondering today. It's nice to share it with you.

Song of the Day : Bonnie and Clyde by Beyonce and Jay Z

Quote of the Day : "All relationships go through hell. Real relationships get through it"