"Its alright just wait and see/Your string of lights is still bright to me/Who you are is not where you've been/Your still an innocent"

Hey everyone!
I'm about to tell you what you already know. 2010 is coming to an end. We only have a few days of this year left. Can you believe how fast it went? It totally sped by for me. I had a lot of resolutions last year but one of my number one resolutions was to be fearless. 2009 was the year that Taylor swifts fearless album came out and she's a really good role model for me. I loved how she spoke of stepping out in your best dress and taking on the world fearless. Its pretty great stuff for me, and I did a couple times. I managed to take some risks year and try new things. This is also a big year because I never felt like a pretty girl before. I know it sounds dumb and whats coming next will sound a little vain but i'm serious. I always felt like I could be pretty, if I lost enough weight to come in around 100 on the scale, if my hair grew past my shoulders, if I didn't have such big hips and a list of other things. But this year I learned that I am pretty, and anyone who doesn't think I am can kiss. my. fat. ass (as tyra banks put it). This is how I am and whoever doesn't love that can deal because I love it and thats all tha matters right?

That was a pretty big thing for me to finally come to like me. I never hated myself but I didn't love myself either. But 2010 was the year that that changed. I still have some self confidence issues but i'm getting better. This year, I tried to stop myself from liking a boy. Not just any boy but the one i've been caught up on this whole time. The boy who popped out of no where with his cute brown eyes, and amazing smile and turned my whole world upside down by saying less then a hundred words or so. Yes, hes magic. I tried to stop myself from having feelings for him because I thought that maybe I wasn't good enough for someone so amazing. Maybe I deserved someone more "my level". Then I realized that I deserve the best, just like everyone else. And the best for me, the one who I thought had the capability to make me happy for the rest of my life (if he wanted) was this one boy. The one i'm glad I hung unto because what exatly is this world without hope?

I've also had some sucsess this year, in my hobbys and talents. I took my piano playing skils to a whole nother level when I mastered a mozart sonata. It was something to really be proud of. I got a highest honors ribbon in the competition I entered and it felt good :) I really improved on my music. I wrote some pretty awesome songs from the bottom of my heart. I got to record in my uncles studio and it was awesome because he put background to my voice and I had a hit in my hands. I'm really proud of that song because when I was bored with a piece of paper in my hand that first time i tried to write I never thought that the vision in my head would able to come out in a song. And when I felt something, like sadness in Over and Over again I was able to turn it into something fabulous. I started writting and completed my first book, Mary and Amir and started writting the sequal too it. I sort of improved on my guitar playing abilities and learned some new notes, I plan on getting further at this in 2011. These are just a few of the things that I'm proud for acomplishing this year, and that made this year worthwhile. I may just miss 2010 :)

song of the day: Innocent by Taylor Swift

quote of the day: I'm not pushing you away, I'm holding on for dear life, but I need you to need me back - Brooke Davis (one tree hill season 3 finale)