"I'll spend the rest of my time laughing hard with the windows down/Leaving footprints all over town/Keeping faith, karma comes around"

There are so many wonderful things that happen, big & small. Today's came in the form of a blizzard. I hate to be insensitive to all those who got in car wrecks and such as a result of the it, but it was a blessing in disguise for me. I hate a huge biology test today, and a silly chemistry lab to go to tomorrow. I didn't particularly want to participate in either of the two things. I spent my day doing absolutely nothing, and I love it. I don't know how many episode of Army Wives i've already gone through and quite frankly I don't care. The good thing about working at the university is that when school is closed, so is work. You're one hundred percent free. I feel like dancing singing that "I feel charming, oh so charming, it's amazing how charming I feeeeeel" song. I'm a child; I know. But pre-pharm isn't a joke. The work load is heavy, and there are few days to just take a breather. I made most of the day I had.

Ever since I had that giant realization that I could be myself and forget just about anyone who had a problem with who I am, life has been better. Going to a state school, there are plenty of rich sorority people that are hard for me to imagine being friend with. I've learned that people who were raised in a similar way you were are much easier to see eye to eye with. You have similar values and wants out of life. Standards are a big thing for me. I was taught to have set a standard for myself and not to lose that for anyone. You won't find me doing certain activities that I view are wrong or ever embarrassing myself for money, love, or anything else. Some people may view it as having too much pride, but I think everyone more or less has the lines that they won't cross. I have found that people respect you more for it.

I went to this pharmacy event and felt completely out of place. Everyone was friendly enough, but they were all from rich families and private schools. They all had family connections to pharmacy and knew that they could get hired by grandpa or their mother as soon as they graduated. I'm sitting there like I know this is what I want to do with my life, but I still don't even know how I could pay for all this. The people with the similar backgrounds clung together just like i've learned to do. Me and this guy who was also there were both from regular homes and didn't dress up in business suits or anything like the rest of the crowd. My dress up and pharmacy dress up are apparently not the same thing. It discouraged me a bit, but I realized it was just going to have to be another thing to overcome. Barack Obama is always a big inspiration to me. He went from low income guy to the ruler of the United States and some may argue the world. If he could make it as far as he did, I can make it through pharmacy school. By the grace of God and with the love and support of my family, whom shall I fear?

Song of the day : Catching My Breath - Kelly Clarkson (this song describes how i've been feeling a bit. Like I've spent my whole life catching my breath, taking it slow and now I'm ready to face everything head on with my best dress. Fearless. )

Quote of the Day : And in that moment I swear we were infinite. - Perks of Being a Wallflower (I still haven't read the book or seen the movie, but someone posted it on twitter. I thought it sounded magical)