"I'll never be perfect, believe me I'm worth it. So take me or leave me"

Hello World. Today I got and quit my first job. Lets take you back a little with the story. It all started when I got a message on my voicemail about a job offer that a close friend of mine suggested me first. They didn't give any details about what the job entailed or anything (ladies and gentlemen this is what you call a bad sign). Innocent little me took it as possibly fate and called the company back. Today I went to the interview, watched the litte video, and walked out with a job. At first I felt very accomplished. I thought about how I probably beat out the other girl I was applying with and tooted my own horn just a little bit. This lasted about 5 minutes. Thats when I started thinking about what exactly I was now with this awesome new job. I was a knife salesmen. I sold big scary knifes to strangers at their homes for a living. The red lights started flashing in my mind and I imagined myself sliced into some creeps afternoon stew only to make $15 a house call. The money was decent and I needed a job, but that wasn't the one. I don't really want to be an anything salesmen. But now i'm experienced with interviews and will walk into the next one with a new found sense of confidence. My life is really random. The little afternoon adventure as a knife salesmen took my mind off of what the real problem on my mind has been lately. When I went to Africa, I forgot to mention that I met a guy. Well he was more like a man. He had a successful job where he dressed business professional and got to travel all around Tanzania and Pemba. What can I say, I was impressed. What impressed me even more was the fact that he was interested in me. On the outside we were on two completely different levels of life, but we seemed to click. I spent the last month talking to the guy at least every other day. The conversations were exciting and we learned more and more about each other ever day. It was my secret joy. Then the conversation ended. Just stopped. My little long distance texting app hasn't rang in over a week. We weren't really dating, so I can't say I got dumped but it sure felt like it. I started wondering if it was something I said, or if I did anything wrong. Couldn't think of anything. I guess the time just came to move on. So that's where todays quote comes from. "I'll never be perfect believe my i'm worth it". It's his loss. We could've been beautiful. But who knows. Maybe i'm over reacting and it'll pick back up. I'm to blame as well. I didn't text him either, but a girls got to play hard to get sometimes. He's the guy; he should text first. Enough of my problems. I must got back to continuing the job search. Something that doesn't involve knifes or sharp objects. Till next time.. Song of the Day: Marilyn Monroe - Nicki Minaj Quote of the day: "Fear of Rejection. Rejection from the one you desire, from the dreams that keep you up at night, from the gates of heaven, from your expectations" - twitter