"Jelousy's just love and hate at the same time"

Its been awhile. Let me fill you in. This last month and a half has been filled with all kinds of ups and downs. My mother had surgery which went really well. She's been around every day and we're really enjoying it. I love my mom. We annoy each other and get too much fun out of teasing each other, but my days are really much brighter with her around. Especially since my dad is so far away a lot of the time. I miss him a lot. But most days its just guilt. He works so hard to make sure that we all are satisfied with life and have everything we need. Its not fair that he has to work so hard. I guess its the push that keeps me being the best person I can be. If he's giving up his life for mine, I might as well make mine one that he'll be proud of. My brother and N. are the same as always. They bring me a lot of joy too. Sometimes you need someone your own age to relate to, and I feel like I can tell both of them anything. Even the crazy things I do, and the embarassing thoughts I have sometimes. Family loves you no matter what, and mine is truly one of the biggest blessings in my life.

So the most memorable day in March was undebatably March 1st. I know what you're thinking. Justin Bieber's birthday! It was, but that wasn't what made it so special. N. and I had row 14 tickets to Drakes Club Paradise Tour. We got ready and got there really early. I'm a crazy fan...the first thing I did was locate the tour buses. I hope you're not getting the wrong idea. I'm not a celebrity groupy. I just enjoy meeting the people that I have so much respect for on T.V. or on the radio. All i'm after is a picture and some small talk. N. happened to know a member of the ASAP tour. They had talked earlier and he offered to have us hang out with them, but she slipped on the fact I was 17. They wanted to do some not very legal drugs and God stopped us from being in an awkward situation. They don't hang out with people who are underage so that ended fast. After finding the buses, we went inside spring center and were blown away with all the magic that is the Club Paradise tour. A$AP Rocky opened the tour and he was definitely something. He had a lot of energy and sang his hits (not that I knew any of them...) There was a moment in the show where he encouraged people to "lift their joints up". Never seen that many drugs in my life..or really ever... People were smoking inside the Sprint Center and it was so many people that it was impossible to stop them all.

Kendrick Lamar followed A$AP Rocky. He had a more different feel. He wasn't as energetic and didn't really dance or anything, but that made me focus on the words more. He talked about "ADHD babies" and I learned that the reason a lot of the people in the generation a little before me had ADHD, because they were crack babies. I never made the connection myself. That was interesting. After his performance some of my favorite men in lawrence made an apperence, The KU basketball team. I felt the energy in the room change a little. Everyone got super excited. Guess were they were sitting? The floor. Where on the floor? Just a couple rows in front of me. In a moment of pure fearlessness, I didn't want to miss out on an introduction and a picture. I met Thomas Robinson, Tyshaun Taylor (he was very into his phone so it was more like saw then met), Travis Releford, and Merv Lindsay (my favorite player). They were really sweet and started the night off with a bang.

Drake was an extraordinary entertainer. His lyrics are strong enough to speak for themselves. He could of stood there and sang without doing anything and still be great, but he didn't. He put on the best light show ever. The lights were just doing al kinds of cool things. What I loved about Drake was that he wasn't scared to have a good time. He danced around and smiled a lot. He was honest. He worked off the energy of the crowd and got better and better as the night went on. There were parts when he kind of acted that were really cool. He lifted up the lights and pointed out indivisuals in the audience. Everyone felt special, but he didn't see me. We were one of the biggest shows on his tour, so he was overjoyed that so many people showed up. After the concert I tried to meet him and failed. I met A$AP Rocky for a few seconds and had a full length conversation with A$AP Nast. He's a sweetheart. All the people on the tour were really friendly and cool. They had told me and the other people waiting not to excpect much. Apperently Drake likes to be alone. It's kind of fitting of his character. Anyways, that was the drake concert.

song of the day: Shot For Me by Drake

quote of the day: "May your neighbors respect you. Trouble neglect you. Angels protect you, and heaven neglect you" - Drizzy Drake