"I'm about to loose my mind/You've been gone for so long/I'm running out of time/I need a doctor to bring me back to life..."

Hey Everyone!
I feel like i've abandoned you. I am so sorry. But don't worry I have a list of very understanding excuses. The first one is that i'm taking my ACT in a month and I'm not in such good shape for that right now. I'm using the study books and everything to try and help me understand the math and science sections. Education is power. Yup,yup. The second reason is because i'm addicted to twitter, and the hot canadian guys on there. Its kinda cool causes i've gotten to talk to a few of them and thier really nice. I like them better then american boys becauses their more open and more free to just do dumb stuff and not care weather your impressed or not. They just do them. Thats what i'm trying to do, just do me and care less about what others think. Its working ok but I still have those nearvous moments where i'm totally insecure and am all like I wish I could rewind back in time and not say that or do that. Its happening less and less though.

I'm also working on fixing some of my broken friendships, which turned out to be a lot easier then I thought. Friendship like everything else in life is something that needs to be worked on. You have to care for your friends, and work on conversations and being honest. But then there comes a point where you've done all that you can and it's up to them to walk the rest of the way. Friendship is a two way road. The worst kind of friendships are the ones where you give and give and never receive. In the past couple of months i've had moments where I could have really used a friend to step up and share a happy moment with or one to help me get through a sad moment. But with them not there, I've learned to step up and care for myself. I've learned to be my own best friend. I hope I don't get too tough though, the walls around me are already high but some people have been helping them get shorter. I've met and talked tons couple cool guys on twitter and their into me or have things in common with me. It's beyond fun and i hope to keep talking to them.

I've also been learning significant things about art. I'm in this Humanities class and it's beyond boring BUT I finally understand paintings and art sculptures. I'm the girl who went all the way to the Luve museum in Paris and got bored after 10 minutes. I ended up sitting on a bench watching secret life of the American teenager with a friend instead of seeing Divinci's original last supper. I was crazy, I know but I did see the monalisa but had no idea what was even so special about it. Through Humanities class i'm understanding the differences between art pieces and really starting to appreciate artists. It's a talent I don't posses but is cool. Well that's all for now. And the message if the day....

God is Love, Love is the true magic within the world so find something or someone that your passionate about and stick to it because when you loose that spark and that love you've lost it all. Have hope too, hope can get you through anything. I promise

Song of the day: I need a doctor by Eminem and Dr. Dre (I LOVE this song)

quote of the day: Stay hopeful no matter what comes your way. God is your refuge and he will be your strength through trials and persecution - #Ihatequotes on twitter