Mistreated, Misplaced, Misunderstood/Miss 'no way its all good it didn't slow it down/Mistaken always second guessing underestimated, .."

Hi everyone,
Lately me and one of my numero uno amigos have been back on the track to become fearless. I've already spent a majority of my life scared of what other people think and worried about pleasing other people. I am so done with that now. Because the people you work so hard to please end up caring the least about you. Trust me, I'm speaking from experience. I put my heart and soul into impressing people and they are never content. They don't like the way you dress or they don't get your hair. They want you to be just like them, so they don't feel alone. But then your stuck there being something your not and its no fun. I've spent my whole life pretending to life weird movies because thats what all my friends liked, and acting like I enjoy doing things that I find beyond boring. Those are moments of my life wasted. I wish I could get them back. The old me was too scared to admit that I liked the show Hannah Montanna back in 7th grade and that I read Miley's book miles to go. Why, I don't know? The people I wanted to impress so bad weren't even worth my time.

I've reached the point of my life where I want to have fun being me and have fun with life while still being a good person. I want to start up conversations with people I never thought I could be friends with...this one very attractive basketball player in particular :) I used to feel like I wasn't good enough to talk to certain boys or certain people. I used to feel like I was too fat and too boring. But I'm not boring, i'm just misunderstood. People just right me off as quiet but they don't know me and they don't know weather or not i'm loud if they've never took the time to talk to me. Along with trying to be better understood and be a braver person, i'm trying to understand other people more too. There are some people I marked off as this or that that are turning out to be really cool. 2011 is the year of no more judgments.

My school did an end to the r word thing on Wednesday and it was supported by a lot of people. For the first two days I saw the signs I was like, what is the r word. I figured it was some new cuss word I wasn't cool enough to know (I don't cuss, what's the point? There are a million other words in the dictionary that I can use that haven't been labeled as bad). The r word happens to be retarded. When you think about it why would you call someone retarded. It just as bad as calling every geeky person you see asian or cellist. Its a label thats insulting to the people your calling that and insulting to the people that were actually built that way. When you call someone retarded you are saying that their mentally incapable of learning and understanding anything. Dramatic much? I don't even think people should call others stupid. Why bring someone else down? I'm the type who takes every insult to heart. Not anymore with my new midset but i've been that kid who hurt on every inch of their body from insults and mean words. So the solution to this problem, be nice. And treat others how you would want to be treated or how you would treat obama or something.

Last but not least, one of my role models and favorite celebs Kim Kardashian recorded a song called Jam (Turn it up). It's a fun club song and she has a cute little voice. She just did it for fun and a majority of the money from the song goes to St. Hides so you all should support a good cause and get a fun song out of it :)

Song of the day: Jam (Turn it Up) by Kim Kardashian & F--cking Perfect by P!NK

Quote of the day: Learn from the past, make use of the preasent, fight for the future. - #ihatequotes from twitter