Today I decided to play housewife. That is slightly unlike me. I mean nothing against housewives. I don't want the shows and look up to the real ones who can do all the house stuff and have a job. But I never really enjoyed that around the house kind of stuff. But I volunteered to cook today, and I cleaned quite a lot and it was not so bad. I guess some stuff is still stuck in my head and I might start giving it a try. I mean in like 3 years I can legally get married , so maybe I should get prepared or something? But I wouldn't want someone to marry me just because I can mop. One of the most disgusting weddings I ever went to were between this guy who basically hated the lady (I don't blame him,she was psycho), but she cooked him pilau one day and he was sold. He decided that if all he ever gets is pilau from her then he's ok. No it wasen't off a comedy show it was real. They are surprisingly still married, if that says anything.

Today I was doing one of my favorite pass - times and got thinking. You know we all love people that have the same hair as Kim Kardasian, or look exactly like Blanket Jackson. What we never think about is what a burden that would be. Sure everyone would love you, but you probably couldn't help but wonder if they love how YOU look or how the celebrity look. And no matter how hard you would try to express yourself and be your own person you would always be compared to Kim, or Blanket. If you were good at something, people wouldn't be paying attention to that skill they would be paying attention to how much you look like another person. Its almost a disadvantage. If would really make a person have some insecurity issues. You'd probably always wonder if you met your wife because you looked like leo dicaprio, or if your best friend only talked to you in the first place because you could do a dance similar to M.J. 's. So next time you see someone do something don't go, "Wow! That was great just like M.J.". You should be like "that was amazing! You were great". :)

I'm hoping you guys are enjoying the 2009 stuff. I'm trying hard to document not only this year, but the decade as a whole. Cross my fingers for me to finish before 2010! :)

Song of 12/30/09: This Love, Maroon 5

quote of the day:

Almost no one is foolish enough to imagine that he automatically deserves great success in any field of activity; yet almost everyone believes that he automatically deserves success in marriage.

2009 a year for music

I must say the girls won this year in music. Taylor Swift, Lady Gaga, and Beyonce made the world dance, and sing along. Their albums Fearless, The fame, and I am sasha Fierce topped the charts and were downloaded on ipods all over the world. Some of the songs I really liked were...

1. Love Story - Taylor Swift

2. You belong with me - Taylor Swift

3. Forever and always - Taylor Swift

4. My life would suck without you - Kelly Clarkson

5. 1,2,3,4 - Plain White tees

6. Down - Jay Sean

7. Do you remember - Jay Sean

8. Single Ladies - Beyonce

9. If I Were A boy - Beyonce

10. Sweet Dreams - Beyonce

11. Empire State of mind - Alicia Keys and Jay Z

12. Halo - Beyonce

13. You Found me - The Fray

14. Papazrazzi - Lady Gaga

15. Just Dance - Lady Gaga

16. Poker Face - Lady Gaga

17. Waking up in Vegas - Katy Perry

18. I gotta Feeling - Black Eyed Peas

19. Boom Boom Pow - Black eyed Peas

20. Use Somebody - King of Leon

21. Party in the USA - Miley Cyrus

22. Mad - Neyo

23. Soulmate - Natasha Bedingfield

24. Right Round - Flo Rida

25. Right now - Akon

26. So What - Pink

27. Obsessed - Mariah Carey

28. Russian Roullete - Rihanna

29. Fireflies - Owl city

30. Bad Romance - Lady Gaga

31. Dont Trust me - 30H!3

32. Good girls go bad

33. Fire burning on the dance floor - Sean kingston

34. Love Drunk- Boys like girls

35. Replay - Iyaz

36. Watcha Say - Jason

37. Spotlight - Usher ft. Gucci mane

I cant wait to look over these songs 50 years from now, or here them on a 2000s greatest hits special. :)

2009 will soon be gone

The year 2009 is soon ending. It has been 365 days gone. Let me just say, Its been a good year! I went to my first formal dances. I left the country on my own for the very first time. I visited sites I never imagined being able to see. The eiffel tower, Sagrada Familia, the Medeteranian sea. I saw how other people lived and through it saw how much I loved my life the way it is. I graduated from jr. high and left that behind me never to expirenacne it again. I began high school. Worked a little harder. I improved on piano, cello, and singing. I met a lot of new people that I enjoy talking to. I also kept the old people and made lots of new memories. I helped people get through their toughest times. And I had some tough times of my own. I got a better veiw of what I want for myself in my life. Wheather it be my future jobs (pharmacy, dentistry), or where the direction I want my life to go. I found some new values that I hope to keep with me. I followed the saying "Even when theres nothing left, hold on to hope". And there were timesd when it felt like all was lost. But that hope got me threw.

2009 has not only been about me though. Throught the world people discovered themselves and went threw many hardships. The first big thing that comes to my mind is this year we lost the greatest entertaiment that ever lived. Michael Joseph Jackson. No one is ever going to forget when his brothers brought him in in that pure gold casket. When his family cried for all the world to see. When Jermaine sang smile, Human nature was played by John Mayor, and how all the greats. The whole world came together to discuss what an effect a complete stranger made in their lives. It was a beautiful thing, and the modern death similar to that of Diana. The whole world will remember.

2009 was also big because we got our first African American president. That is something that no one would even dream of in the years of the past. I got to see him with my own two eyes this year. I was surrounded be about 600, 000 people I believe the number was. We all stood and for about 2 hours the whole place was silent. All 600,000 people were dead silent! We all stood and listened to this man talk. He gave us hope. Hope of new beginings. Hope of change. He inspired us. He told us of the Amercican dream. He let that little girl inside of me believe once again that a girl that started out in the poor areas of maryland. Went to public school, and has middle class parents can make it one day. Obama was a miricle sent from god and I'm happy to have witnessed this greatest. At school the whole school stoped and watched as Aretha Franklin sang. As he put his hand over the bible and his wife and little girls watched thier love be names leader of the free world!! Imagine it. We witnessed it!

On a more sad note, we remember that girl being imprisoned in north korea and our former president Bill Clinton bringing her back alive. We remember that man who shot a big amount of amercican soldiars and people loosing their loved ones. We remember not seeing Chris Brown and Rihanna at the grammys and watching the news of him attacking Americas golden girl. We watched the trials and watched his carreer slowly fall down the cracks. But we also saw him become a better man and make that song I can transform ya. That was great! We lost Ted Kennady who did everything he could to fight for this country. I cried when I saw him say he would fight through his brain cancer so he could see President Barack Obama be inagurated in office. He wanted to be there front and center. I also watched him pass the torch from the Kennedys to the Obamas. That brought shivers down my spine. We also lost Brittney Murphy, Farah Fawcett.

The miricle at the hudson shocked us all as the pilot managed to land on the water and save all those people. The world was given hope yet again when that girl was found after being lost from her family for many years (Jaycee Gudered). We watched that balloon boy "fly away" and admit that it was all for the television and press. David Letterman, John Edwards and Tiger Woods let down the worth of Men everywhere by cheating on their loving wives. Kanye West put the worth of men down even lower when he stole the spotlight from Kanye West. And Sarah Palin made all us women feel a little more stupid inside.

This was a brilliant year for music as well.....to be continued on the next blog

catching up part dos

Ok so I know this is probably against the law of winter break or something. But I'm gonna make like Obama and change this. Im going to talk about school during break. AHH. I know this is awful but sometimes rules are meant to be bent ;) . Health classes have been an issue thats "debatable" in the united states for years now. It is yet another subject where where democrates and republicans have diffrent thoughts. Republicans will tell you that health classes are bad. And if you talk about things then students are going to feel more comfortable with them and do them. Democrates think its important to teach kids what their getting into so that if they decide to make the wrong choice they know how to do it carefully and know the goods and bads to all their choices. I decided randomly today that I agree with the democrates. Health classes are important. Although my health teacher of two years was also the football coach and was just a little bit of a bum. I did learn stuff from him and it wasent as awkwards as it would have been to have to hear it from relatives and such. Maybe im just weird but sometimes its easier to believe a complete stranger then people you've known for a lifetime.

Big news in the celebrity world. Taylor swift and Taylor laughtner have broken up. I know is really sad!! I really wanted them to work. One of my favorite singers and my favorite werewolf getting together would be epic. I would really enjoy if that had worked out. Peoples magazine says that the whole thing was over blown. They did date for a little while. And yes they kissed and hugged and we saw them oh so very romantic together but it was only 3 dates. After all of that htey decided that they just needed to be friends. And they still are. Not to meantion that Taylor lives in nashville and taylor L. lives in los angeles. They lived basically a contient apart. It just didnt work out for now.

I also saw the wedding photos of Kevin Jonas and his "jersey girl". I dont know why but I couldent help but think they looked like little kids playing dress up. Kevin Jonas is 22 and when you say it like that it sounds like their not that young. They just looked little to me. I think its because they are younger then the couples im used to reading about. Kendra and Hank. Khloe and Lamar. Their both couples that are heading towards 30. Kevin is in his early twentys. i dont think i'd mind marrying then. With the education before boys thing I should be done with collage at around 23 or 24 years old. thats it I become a pharmasist. If I pass it off for a 4 year college degree like law or something then I'll be 20 or 21. hmm. Those are things you never know though. When you meet "the one". But its kind of weird. In 8ish years I could possibly a married woman. My years of childhoodness are disapearing behind me. I think I need to enjoy it more.

song of the day:
My endless love- diana ross and lional richie

lets catch up

This week was wonderful. Yesturday I went downtown with Samira and had a really good time. I haden't been downtown in a very long time. It reminded me of how much I love lawrence. I do love downtown and the people there. And the stores and restraunts. I dont know if I could leave for collage. I think i love it too much. Dont get my wrong I do love diffrent places and the diffrent expirences (On my list are: Greece, Italy, India, Dubai, japan), but I like lawrence. I like that its safe and I dont have to worry about getting my bag stolen or someone bringing a gun. But anyways Samira and I shopped all day and had a blast. It was a really fun week. Its sad that she lives so far away.

Guess what I came home with in my purse today? That cd. I almost had like a weird breakdown in the car but as always I have the capability of holding myself together. I was really really really dissapointed in myself. But if you think a little deeper about it. He must already know anyways. And maybe I shouldnt be so forward. (these are all the things im telling myself to act like chicking out is ok). At the end of the day I was a big baby and didnt. I tried starting a conversation but then my brother interupted with his stupid (I gave my sister 26 dollers for an ipod touch story). isent that just great? Oh well. Maybe I should listen to samira. Education before boys. Education before boys. Maybe I can have some great degree and prove that i have potential then "make a move". Who knows........

The most intresting thing happened today! So my mother bought two barbies for these girls I know Iman and Nargis. They are sweet hearts (2 and 4), and when I was their age there was nothing better then a barbie with her maching purse and shoes. But anyways we opened them up and they each started playing with them and then Iman goes," I want to be like the barbie, I need her dress, shoes, make up, shes so pretty". This is probably really common for little girls but I was a little suprised. I had this crazy foods teacher who wouldent let her kids play with barbies or watch tv. Because they send the bad message out to kids. Or theres the feminist that wont let their kids play with barbies because of the way their all skinny and stuff. For a split second I understood all that. Iman no longer wants to be Iman. She wants to be like barbie now. At a young age your a blank page and you get written on. the way society works today we dont let children find themselves we let them become like what has already been found. No one relaly lets their kids decide for themselves what they want or need. Now this isent bagging on parents. I understand that if they dont get to their kids someone else will and may be teaching them the wrong message. It really makes me wonder what everyone would be like without the influence of the outside world or anyone but themselves. like adam without eve. hmmm.

Song of the day: Reply (love it!)

quote of the day:
Education is a progressive discovery of our own ignorance.

So yesturday something inside of me woke up or changed. I found out that prince read my super personal paper thing about him. I talked all about how I feel. Im pretty suprised I was able to let out feelings like that. I'm also pretty glad that he read it. (not that i'd admit that to samira anytime soon). This means that I wanted him to know all along. But along with that I wanted him to love me. And thats not going to happen unless I "make a move". So folks I'm going to make a move. The plan so far is this. Im going to send him a cd of love songs and songs that are just me.and inside there will be a list of all the songs and why I put the cd. I'll also try not to blab so much about how great he is and meantion that a reply would be fantastic. and before this im going to try to give him a heads up some how. Sounds perfect huh? WRONG

Making a move means getting a response. what if he dosent want me back. Even i'll admit that im not the perfect girl. BUT he is the perfect guy and perfection may only want perfection. what if it turns out that he dosent like me? What happens then..... well hopefully it wont go in that direction. On a posative note what if he does love me back. ahhh. he loves me back. isent that great? What if he asks me out. what if we date. ooh finally the perfect boyfriend. it would have to be long distance and i'd most likley have to tell my parents who i hope would understand. I'm kind of worried Samira would be upset with me if it turned out well. I think she'd be mad that im damning her brother to hell but she should understand I would never hurt her little angel. :)

Today is Christmas. I dont feel like i've felt in christmases past. I feel my childhoodness slipping away. I used to be super excited about opening my parents and all this stuff. But it may have just been because I had friends over so I was less into it and less religious. But I do love this day and all it represents. its my saviors birthday. :) This christmas I got: A north face jacket and clothes, An ipod touch from my mom, dad, and brother, and a really cool guitar from my uncle japhet. Its been a good christmas. I recieved lots of nice material things. I've also recieved lots of love from my family. The people who matter the most. I am truley greatful for them. really I am. (I know what your thinking, even ben samira :) ). I wonder what next christmas will be like. Every move I make effects the future and where I will be by then. I know i'll still love christmas more than all other holidays. Im also pretty sure ill feel the same way about my family and friends. And who knows maybe ill have a cute boyfriend who I love by then.....

Its been awhile so your probably wondering what i've been up too. So Samira and her little brother Aflah came. Its been fun. Me and samira chit-chatted for a long time in order to catch up on the like 5 months we didnt get to talk about boys and some other smaller subjects. Samiras been keeping me in check on the whole "right and wrong stuff". Maybe I should follow her ways. hmmm idk. We watched half of my sisters keeper. It reminds me that the days of earth are limited. and if you dont go through and do everything you want and need to do while your healthy and alive then you'll never get too. I do understand that theres heaven and nothing will ever beat it. I truley do believe it. But I still feel like thats no reason not to enjoy the life i'm living now. And I want ture love. Its important to me. I want someone to take care of me and love me unconditionally. Not necesserily now. But sometime before its too late. I will also keep the same new years resolution. to be brave. In order to reach some of my other goals. to speak my mind, and not to be scared of any situation or anything. well thats all for today readers.

MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY
*****************************CHRISTMAS*******************************************

Song of the day: Joy to the world

Quote of the day: OMG! This is real. your going to make a move. It will be like a slap across the face to all of us. WAIT! Are you going to get married ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! - Samira Ali

Does sucsess = money or is it the other way around?

Its been awhile since I thought of a good topic to blog about but it came to be around 9 o'clock last night. That was when the Freestate girls basketball team defeated the lawrence high girls varsity team. It was a close game but no doubt the freestate girls were better and im not just being biast. One girl on our team is 6'5". thank god your not that tall right? I mean shes got game and talent but shes too tall. And that is a problem if you remember my tallness being similar to a disability blog. But anyways the freestate team is better. And the way it kind of works around hear is that Freestate is where the better off kids and Lawrene high is where all the poor kids from the shealter and like 10% of lawrences elite go. What happens is the southwest jr. high kids get split up because a majority of them are better off into Lawrence High and Freestate. Then the central kids are split up also and then most of the east side kids go to LHS and the west siders/north siders go to freestate. And it seems to me that Freestate wins at everything.

We made it to the regional football thing and got second place. We beat every team in the area with the exception of the team who won regionals. Our chamber choir gets to go compete at disneyworld every year no exceptions and wins at all the areas. Our bands and orchestras are also really good but I would say that LHS is equal when it comes to band stuff. Now we're all kids. A majority of the people grew up in Lawrence. And the only thing diffrent is the incomes that people make. But Freestate high school is better at everything? Does that mean that the more money you have the more likley you are to be sucsessful. Lets take a look at the teenage celebritys. The first thing that comes to mind is miley cyrus and the jonas brothers. Mileys dad was a filthy rich country singer and she stayed number one with her hit party in the USA for motnsh. The jonas brothers had musical background with their father who knew how to play the guitar and all that stuff. That one girl that acts on nickalodean is Julia Roberts neice. See whats in common with these storys? Rich parents. I'm starting to realize that when a person dosent have the advantage of money it dosent come as easy.

Now im not saying that poor people just dont come with talent. I mean im sure if the homeless people in the downtown areas had oppurtunitys to do stuff they could be nba stars and such too. The real reason that the freestate teams are better isent that they just look at the cash in their storages and play better. Its that their parents could afford to get them personal trainers and voice lessons. They could go to all the summer camps and stuff that helps you improve your skills at whatever talent that you do have. But do not give up hope if you didnt go to the camps and such. There is a chance that you could pull a beyonce and be discovered by someone who does have money to develop your skills. So words for the wise. Great people with smiles and be polite. Wear really cute clothes that show that you could have potential. And wait to be discovered. But a word for those who are wiser. Study so that you dont end up being that hobo because a job isent being a celebirty or sports player but it will get you somewhere.

Song of the day:
Silver bells (LOVE that song)

Quote of the day:
#52 you suck, you give fat people a bad name!! -Brand willis at the basketball game last night. HE won a cupcake eating contest if that tells you anything.