"Wise men say only fools rush in. But I can't help falling in love with you"

HEART

Inspiration comes from so many different places. I find it everywhere. I've made it a thing to post inspirational words on my snapchat whenever I find it, so my followers (who probably don't care) can be a little inspired too. Today, I found romantic inspiration everywhere. It was a rough morning for various reasons, but when I got to work I started surfing social media networks instead of being productive as always. The first post I saw was from one of the home team bruhz. He's married to a beautiful Latin American woman who's everything I wish I could be physically. She's skinny, has great hair, takes excellent selfies. Basically a 21st century beauty from Beauty and the Beast. My big brother in greekdom loves her. His love for her is evident in everything he does. Today he made a post about how he's fighting for her and will always fight for her. He ends the post by saying their love is forever.

FOREVER

I have to dwell on that word a little bit because it holds so much power. Forever is defined as, "for all future time; for always". Always and forever. The first thing that pops in my head when I hear the word forever is prompted by my faith. Not just in this life, but the next as well. Life is the longest thing you'll ever do. He wants to love her through his long journey and after that. How beautiful. The inspiration just kept coming today though. It didn't end with Mr. & Mrs. Smith. It came to me again in the form of a proposal video : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ibiCo_kliLo&feature=share . This man spent four months on his proposal plan. He spent four months showering his girlfriend with loveeeee & affection. Watching all this made me realize a lot of things, but the first thought was that I have never been able to make a man feel that way about me. Have I gotten men to put in time? yes. A little effort? yes. But I haven't experienced a man willing to put in months of work just so he can continue to put in work or "fight" for the rest of his life.

I automatically realized the problem with the love I experience. It is one sided. Almost always. I have so much love in my heart. Sometimes I hide it, so I don't scare the other person. Sometimes I show them just how much I care and like them to the point it hurts their feelings. They feel bad about not loving me the way I love them and end it in hopes that I will find someone who can give me "what I deserve". I heard that phrase a lot from the couple of good men I've encountered in life. They talk about what I deserve and what's fair to me. The most annoying part is that they never want to be the ones to give me what I deserve. They can never actually be fair to me. Some sort of connection that's supposed to be there is missing every single time. I can't even be mad at the guys, because I understand. There are plenty of times where I've liked someone less than they like me. Regardless of how nice or cute they are, you can't really invest the way you would if the person you were with was truly the one. The way you would if they really made you feel something you've never felt before. Love is beautiful and I have been waiting my entire life to experience the feeling of actually being in love. Loving someone so much and them giving you that same love back. It's unconditional. It's consistent. It overwhelms you and despite the distance or challenges you face, you feel complete. I will continue to pray that it finds me someday.

Song of the Day: Can't Help Falling In Love by Elvis Presley

Quote of the Day: "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy. It does not boast. It is not proud. It does not dishonor others. It is not self-seeking. It is not not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrong. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails"