"It won't be long till I'm going to need somebody to lean on"

The struggle between Good Mariam, and Bad Mariam continues. Before I went on my lady in the street but a... rant, this was the blog post I had in mind. I hear this song on the radio all the time, and it really resonates with me. It makes me think all of the time about the person I am, and the person I want to be. Here's the opening lines :

Sometimes I think
What will people say of me
When I'm only just a memory
When I'm home where my soul belongs

Was I love
When no one else would show up
Was I Jesus to the least of those
Was my worship more than just a song

It makes me question weather I was any of this. Like most college students, I can be pretty self absorbed. I am normally concerned with homework, work, and other me related things. I make time to watch Army Wives at least once a week, but I can't tell you I make sure to hold the door for that stranger who's far enough away that it would be okay. Americans have always been individual oriented. We're all supposed to pull our weight and somehow make it work. We forget that not everyone can do that, and all of us need help along the way. My goal is to try and open my eyes to other people's heartache and pain. Look outside myself and help others more often. I remember when that Penn State football coach died, my mom said that that man had to have died of a broken heart. Now I realize there was probably some scientific disease or whatever to what happened to him, but I agreed with her analysis. A broken heart can hurt a lot more then a broken bone can. A lot of people associate heartbreak to being dumped. But any extreme disappointment can cause your heart to break, and hope in humanity to be lost. If you know anyone who's going through that, I encourage you to not take it lightly and be that person for them. If you're religious, you can think of it as being Jesus to the least of those. If it's not, you can think of Al Green's Song Lean on Me. The line that sticks out the most from those is "It won't be long till I'm going to need, somebody to lean on".