"If we all could get along, then we all could sing this song together"

Hi Everyone!
I've missed you. I'm also wondering how many of you noticed the new changes to the blog. It was time for it to get changed. Now it feels way more me. I'm kind of a bubbly person, it doesn't show at school or events with school people but everywhere else i'm really upbeat. I still haven't got over the fake me that appears at school. Its not fake buts its distant. Like I'm completely quit and try too hard to be polite. Today I was talking to this really cute guy with these two other girls and he was telling the STUPIDEST jokes. But I would laugh joke after joke, and pretend he was the funniest person i've ever seen. In my mind I was like, "what. an. idiot." I can't help but wonder if it's better to be mean and real or nice and fake? How would I rather be dealt with? Somewhere in between. I like when people are honest with me but I am not yet wonderwoman. I don't know if I would able to remain unbroken.

Speaking of Unbroken, DEMI LOVATO is coming to Kansas City. Caps to show my excitment! I love her new album, and I love her story and it would be an honor to hear her sing it live. You know I'm going to try to go to that concert. And speaking of concerts, I just got home from one. It was my friends eighteenth birthday so we went out to dinner and went to see the band St. Vincent perform. I can't say I was very impressed by them. The location reeked of bear, I was harassed for keeping my camera, and the music just wasn't my thing. It was very hippy and I couldn't connect with any of the lyrics. But I went for my friend, and I hope she had a good time. It was a nice time to reconnect with my friends and feel like part of a group again. I can be awfully lonely sometimes.

I recently joined a club though. It's called Core Club. It means Christians on the revolutionary edge or something. We're christian people active about our mission. I know Christian clubs are know for being cheesy and judgmental but this was a great punch of kids who felt Gods present in their lives. I felt connected and the club encouraged me to grow stronger in my faith and make that part of me more present in my every day life. I thought it was cool! I also recently read an article about the 9/11 terrorists. It was talking about how devoted they were to their evil plan. The entire point of the article was to ponder what life would be like if people were equally devoted to positiive things. Like saving our planet, or curing diseases. Our society has become a group of bandwagon activists. We hear stuff on CNN then all tweet about it for one day but do nothing to change it. And chances are the next week we won't even remember what we were so angry about. I want to be passionate about something that benefits others. I just need to find my cause. Any suggestions?

song of the day: Together by Demi Lovato

quote of the day: "When you stop fighting, you stop living. So...find your fight. then fight like hell 'til your battle has won" - Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill