Dear readers,
After a very very very very long 3rd quarter it is finally spring break. I've never needed a break as much as I needed this one. I've had so many tests, and difficult worksheets lately. Not to mention math has been kicking my butt, but I pulled through and now i'm ready to relax and have a good time. My break started early with the St. Patricks Day parade downtown with my friends. We had a pretty good time, went out to lunch then just walked around a little bit. On Friday I got to go hang out with my Sami for a tea party and we later convinced our parents to let us spend the weekend together with our little brothers and we did. It was a really great time. We window shopped, and karaoked, and invented a language. It was an endless amount of fun!
I haven't had much going on for me lately, just like I said working hard with school. But yesterday, I became fearless. I'm not talking about, oh I'm going to wear orange even though it doesn't look good on me fearless but I mean actually taking risks and doing things differently. Playing tag. I feel like Taylor Swift on her fearless album and it feels good. I don't know if its necessarily more confidence, but its definitely less fear. If someone thinks I'm stupid, then thats their loss. It used to hurt me every time someone said something negative to me but now I don't really care. It's a good feeling. Except for it makes me talk to random canadians now, but its cool because their all very nice. I want to go to canada...really bad.
Well I hope your all enjoying life, and enjoying the good weather. The videos from the news about japan and all the areas of the pacific are really sad. I've been keeping them in my prayers and it would be good if you kept them in yours. Talk more soon, I promise. mwah
song of the day: Love the Way You Lie pt. 2 by Rihanna (I can't get enough of this song, I just really like it for some reason)
quote of the day: "Loosing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But losing your reason for the journey...is far more cruel" - Nathan Scott
About Me
- Forever yours, Mariam
- My name is Mariam and through this blog I'm discovering things about the world, and about myself. Through all my blogs you'll see craziness, political insight, celebrity mania, musical interest, total drama queen-ness,all about boys, and ever changing views on everything. I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I enjoy writing it. You're about read the pages of my epic diary. Welcome to my world, and feel free to come back ;)
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Mistreated, Misplaced, Misunderstood/Miss 'no way its all good it didn't slow it down/Mistaken always second guessing underestimated, .."
Hi everyone,
Lately me and one of my numero uno amigos have been back on the track to become fearless. I've already spent a majority of my life scared of what other people think and worried about pleasing other people. I am so done with that now. Because the people you work so hard to please end up caring the least about you. Trust me, I'm speaking from experience. I put my heart and soul into impressing people and they are never content. They don't like the way you dress or they don't get your hair. They want you to be just like them, so they don't feel alone. But then your stuck there being something your not and its no fun. I've spent my whole life pretending to life weird movies because thats what all my friends liked, and acting like I enjoy doing things that I find beyond boring. Those are moments of my life wasted. I wish I could get them back. The old me was too scared to admit that I liked the show Hannah Montanna back in 7th grade and that I read Miley's book miles to go. Why, I don't know? The people I wanted to impress so bad weren't even worth my time.
I've reached the point of my life where I want to have fun being me and have fun with life while still being a good person. I want to start up conversations with people I never thought I could be friends with...this one very attractive basketball player in particular :) I used to feel like I wasn't good enough to talk to certain boys or certain people. I used to feel like I was too fat and too boring. But I'm not boring, i'm just misunderstood. People just right me off as quiet but they don't know me and they don't know weather or not i'm loud if they've never took the time to talk to me. Along with trying to be better understood and be a braver person, i'm trying to understand other people more too. There are some people I marked off as this or that that are turning out to be really cool. 2011 is the year of no more judgments.
My school did an end to the r word thing on Wednesday and it was supported by a lot of people. For the first two days I saw the signs I was like, what is the r word. I figured it was some new cuss word I wasn't cool enough to know (I don't cuss, what's the point? There are a million other words in the dictionary that I can use that haven't been labeled as bad). The r word happens to be retarded. When you think about it why would you call someone retarded. It just as bad as calling every geeky person you see asian or cellist. Its a label thats insulting to the people your calling that and insulting to the people that were actually built that way. When you call someone retarded you are saying that their mentally incapable of learning and understanding anything. Dramatic much? I don't even think people should call others stupid. Why bring someone else down? I'm the type who takes every insult to heart. Not anymore with my new midset but i've been that kid who hurt on every inch of their body from insults and mean words. So the solution to this problem, be nice. And treat others how you would want to be treated or how you would treat obama or something.
Last but not least, one of my role models and favorite celebs Kim Kardashian recorded a song called Jam (Turn it up). It's a fun club song and she has a cute little voice. She just did it for fun and a majority of the money from the song goes to St. Hides so you all should support a good cause and get a fun song out of it :)
Song of the day: Jam (Turn it Up) by Kim Kardashian & F--cking Perfect by P!NK
Quote of the day: Learn from the past, make use of the preasent, fight for the future. - #ihatequotes from twitter
Lately me and one of my numero uno amigos have been back on the track to become fearless. I've already spent a majority of my life scared of what other people think and worried about pleasing other people. I am so done with that now. Because the people you work so hard to please end up caring the least about you. Trust me, I'm speaking from experience. I put my heart and soul into impressing people and they are never content. They don't like the way you dress or they don't get your hair. They want you to be just like them, so they don't feel alone. But then your stuck there being something your not and its no fun. I've spent my whole life pretending to life weird movies because thats what all my friends liked, and acting like I enjoy doing things that I find beyond boring. Those are moments of my life wasted. I wish I could get them back. The old me was too scared to admit that I liked the show Hannah Montanna back in 7th grade and that I read Miley's book miles to go. Why, I don't know? The people I wanted to impress so bad weren't even worth my time.
I've reached the point of my life where I want to have fun being me and have fun with life while still being a good person. I want to start up conversations with people I never thought I could be friends with...this one very attractive basketball player in particular :) I used to feel like I wasn't good enough to talk to certain boys or certain people. I used to feel like I was too fat and too boring. But I'm not boring, i'm just misunderstood. People just right me off as quiet but they don't know me and they don't know weather or not i'm loud if they've never took the time to talk to me. Along with trying to be better understood and be a braver person, i'm trying to understand other people more too. There are some people I marked off as this or that that are turning out to be really cool. 2011 is the year of no more judgments.
My school did an end to the r word thing on Wednesday and it was supported by a lot of people. For the first two days I saw the signs I was like, what is the r word. I figured it was some new cuss word I wasn't cool enough to know (I don't cuss, what's the point? There are a million other words in the dictionary that I can use that haven't been labeled as bad). The r word happens to be retarded. When you think about it why would you call someone retarded. It just as bad as calling every geeky person you see asian or cellist. Its a label thats insulting to the people your calling that and insulting to the people that were actually built that way. When you call someone retarded you are saying that their mentally incapable of learning and understanding anything. Dramatic much? I don't even think people should call others stupid. Why bring someone else down? I'm the type who takes every insult to heart. Not anymore with my new midset but i've been that kid who hurt on every inch of their body from insults and mean words. So the solution to this problem, be nice. And treat others how you would want to be treated or how you would treat obama or something.
Last but not least, one of my role models and favorite celebs Kim Kardashian recorded a song called Jam (Turn it up). It's a fun club song and she has a cute little voice. She just did it for fun and a majority of the money from the song goes to St. Hides so you all should support a good cause and get a fun song out of it :)
Song of the day: Jam (Turn it Up) by Kim Kardashian & F--cking Perfect by P!NK
Quote of the day: Learn from the past, make use of the preasent, fight for the future. - #ihatequotes from twitter
Friday, March 4, 2011
"I'm about to loose my mind/You've been gone for so long/I'm running out of time/I need a doctor to bring me back to life..."
Hey Everyone!
I feel like i've abandoned you. I am so sorry. But don't worry I have a list of very understanding excuses. The first one is that i'm taking my ACT in a month and I'm not in such good shape for that right now. I'm using the study books and everything to try and help me understand the math and science sections. Education is power. Yup,yup. The second reason is because i'm addicted to twitter, and the hot canadian guys on there. Its kinda cool causes i've gotten to talk to a few of them and thier really nice. I like them better then american boys becauses their more open and more free to just do dumb stuff and not care weather your impressed or not. They just do them. Thats what i'm trying to do, just do me and care less about what others think. Its working ok but I still have those nearvous moments where i'm totally insecure and am all like I wish I could rewind back in time and not say that or do that. Its happening less and less though.
I'm also working on fixing some of my broken friendships, which turned out to be a lot easier then I thought. Friendship like everything else in life is something that needs to be worked on. You have to care for your friends, and work on conversations and being honest. But then there comes a point where you've done all that you can and it's up to them to walk the rest of the way. Friendship is a two way road. The worst kind of friendships are the ones where you give and give and never receive. In the past couple of months i've had moments where I could have really used a friend to step up and share a happy moment with or one to help me get through a sad moment. But with them not there, I've learned to step up and care for myself. I've learned to be my own best friend. I hope I don't get too tough though, the walls around me are already high but some people have been helping them get shorter. I've met and talked tons couple cool guys on twitter and their into me or have things in common with me. It's beyond fun and i hope to keep talking to them.
I've also been learning significant things about art. I'm in this Humanities class and it's beyond boring BUT I finally understand paintings and art sculptures. I'm the girl who went all the way to the Luve museum in Paris and got bored after 10 minutes. I ended up sitting on a bench watching secret life of the American teenager with a friend instead of seeing Divinci's original last supper. I was crazy, I know but I did see the monalisa but had no idea what was even so special about it. Through Humanities class i'm understanding the differences between art pieces and really starting to appreciate artists. It's a talent I don't posses but is cool. Well that's all for now. And the message if the day....
God is Love, Love is the true magic within the world so find something or someone that your passionate about and stick to it because when you loose that spark and that love you've lost it all. Have hope too, hope can get you through anything. I promise
Song of the day: I need a doctor by Eminem and Dr. Dre (I LOVE this song)
quote of the day: Stay hopeful no matter what comes your way. God is your refuge and he will be your strength through trials and persecution - #Ihatequotes on twitter
I feel like i've abandoned you. I am so sorry. But don't worry I have a list of very understanding excuses. The first one is that i'm taking my ACT in a month and I'm not in such good shape for that right now. I'm using the study books and everything to try and help me understand the math and science sections. Education is power. Yup,yup. The second reason is because i'm addicted to twitter, and the hot canadian guys on there. Its kinda cool causes i've gotten to talk to a few of them and thier really nice. I like them better then american boys becauses their more open and more free to just do dumb stuff and not care weather your impressed or not. They just do them. Thats what i'm trying to do, just do me and care less about what others think. Its working ok but I still have those nearvous moments where i'm totally insecure and am all like I wish I could rewind back in time and not say that or do that. Its happening less and less though.
I'm also working on fixing some of my broken friendships, which turned out to be a lot easier then I thought. Friendship like everything else in life is something that needs to be worked on. You have to care for your friends, and work on conversations and being honest. But then there comes a point where you've done all that you can and it's up to them to walk the rest of the way. Friendship is a two way road. The worst kind of friendships are the ones where you give and give and never receive. In the past couple of months i've had moments where I could have really used a friend to step up and share a happy moment with or one to help me get through a sad moment. But with them not there, I've learned to step up and care for myself. I've learned to be my own best friend. I hope I don't get too tough though, the walls around me are already high but some people have been helping them get shorter. I've met and talked tons couple cool guys on twitter and their into me or have things in common with me. It's beyond fun and i hope to keep talking to them.
I've also been learning significant things about art. I'm in this Humanities class and it's beyond boring BUT I finally understand paintings and art sculptures. I'm the girl who went all the way to the Luve museum in Paris and got bored after 10 minutes. I ended up sitting on a bench watching secret life of the American teenager with a friend instead of seeing Divinci's original last supper. I was crazy, I know but I did see the monalisa but had no idea what was even so special about it. Through Humanities class i'm understanding the differences between art pieces and really starting to appreciate artists. It's a talent I don't posses but is cool. Well that's all for now. And the message if the day....
God is Love, Love is the true magic within the world so find something or someone that your passionate about and stick to it because when you loose that spark and that love you've lost it all. Have hope too, hope can get you through anything. I promise
Song of the day: I need a doctor by Eminem and Dr. Dre (I LOVE this song)
quote of the day: Stay hopeful no matter what comes your way. God is your refuge and he will be your strength through trials and persecution - #Ihatequotes on twitter
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