It is Day 5 of 365. I have 360 more days Although it wasn't one of my resolutions, I want to document my progress and write on this blog more. I know that during one of my biggest periods of growth, I blogged daily. It really helped me evaluate my situation at that time and grow as a person. I'm going to update the world on how my first five days of the year went.
Day 1 : At midnight, I was at Tonic. It was packed with people, and I was in a gold sparkly dress. If there wasn't so many people there, you would have been able to see me from a mile away. I didn't have on heels, because I'm a forever baby. I wore my white flats with gold accents. We didn't do a countdown. He just made an announcement when midnight had hit. They released balloons and everyone cheered. I don't remember what the first song I heard this year was. I feel like it was something with techno beat. I was with Mariam, Elaine, and Sarah. Sober, of course. One of the men who I left behind in 2015 texted me, and I successfully ignored him.
Day 2: I was sick and recovering Day 2. I'm still feeling the remnants of the cold I've had. I rested in the morning and got ready in time to go to the game with Emily. She had a make or break relationship decision to make and decided not to take the risk and end things. We won the game by thirty points and ate delicious Mexican food. I starved all day, so I could have as many chips as I want. When I got home I tried to call J. He answered on the first ring, told me he was at work, and said he would call me back when he got off. He called me the minute he was off from work. We had a 7 minute conversation. I checked the time. He told me about how his car was stolen over winter break. We laughed a little and I was as sympathetic as I could be. The conversation went like this.
Me: Do you want to hang out next week?
J: Negative
Me : why not?
J: Umm, remember my friend who I had put to the side for a bit? We reconnected over the holidays and are trying again. So, I gotta be faithful and all that.
Me: (In a moment of anxiety trying to sound like I don't care and spitting words out way too fast) : Well, best of luck to you two. I hope things work out better this time around.
J: Wait, this doesn't interfere with the friendship we built. That can still happen
Me: Okay (really high pitched and fake optimistic sounding)
We said our goodbyes and it ended. I feel like he was the closest thing I've had to a relationship. He chose someone else. I have songs for every moment of my relationship with him and had made a playlist for when I see him next. That playlist will be deleted soon. The song for our ending is Every Rose Has Its Thorn - Miley Cyrus version.
Day 3 : Rest and relaxation. Lots of Jane the Virgin. Still no tears over J.
Day 4: I went to a legendary basketball game. KU Vs. OU. The game went 3 OT, and the teams were truly one hell of a match. Buddy Hield made 46 points in the fieldhouse. It was unbeliebable. Definitely a game no one there will ever forget. The starters were : Wayne Selden Jr. , Frank Mason III, Devante Graham, Perry Ellis, and Hunter Mickelson. I also texted that man I left behind in 2015. Not in a moment of weakness, but in a moment of hope. I wanted him to finally act right and prove that I meant something to him. He's still playing the same games. As of right now, he remains left in 2015.
Resolutions update : I went to the gym for the first time yesterday and it went pretty well. The first 5 minutes were rough, but I got into the swing of things and did okay. I'm trying to eat less and have decided that I'm truly unhappy with my weight. Working towards achieving my goal. 10 pounds by May 1st. I've been trying to turn all my worries to prayers as well. About to read a bible passage right now.
Song of the Day: Every Rose Has Its Thorn by Miley Cyrus
Quote of the day: "No girl should ever forget that she doesn't need anyone that doesn't need her" - Marilyn MonroeI
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