Flaws in the human race 2

The flaw ill be discussing about today is the person that we choose to be and the one we want to be. Most people say that they will change but never do. Because as humans we think that we have infinate time to do everything. But the sad thing is someone is dieing every second. Accidents happen all the time. And im hoping that god is good to all those reading and gives them 100 years to come but in reality not many people get the chance to finally be who they want to be. I myself have tried hard to be a better person but i still find myself making horrible mistakes. Theres a girl in my geometry class who has no friends. Seriously, none. And latley ive been trying to be nice to her and talk to her. She has adhd so she just talks nonstop. And i try to listen really I do, but sometimes i just snap. And if I really tried I wouldent but some how I find myself doing it anyways. I lie to myself and say it dosent matter she'll forget about by next class. Ive also tried to be a nicer person in general. But then I hear people talking saying "what does she know about being nice? she talks about people all the time" right in front of my face. And the funny thing is im hearing all this stuff from my friends. my friends! Dont you think a real friend would be able to come up to you and say this or encourage you making an effort to be better even though you've made mistakes and the past and continue to make them everyday. Im not the perfect friend myself but encourgment does help. One of my not so close friends sits on the otehr side of me in geometry and shes always going " I feel soooooo bad for you you have to sit by her". And I dont say anything! Back to the original topic of life is too short to not be the best person you could possibly be. I dont know about your beliefs but as a christian there is heaven and hell. For the good and the bad. I want to find the strength to live my life in a good honest way so heaven is an option for me a looooooooooooooooooooooooong time from now (contradicting myself). But the argument against my theory is a side I also sometimes take. Life is too short to be hanging out with people that annoy the hell out of you, and to not be doing what you think is fun. But I know thats wrong. Why is it so tempting to go on the wrong side?...........


Quote of the day:
Accept everything about yourself--I mean everything, You are you and that is the beginning and the end--no apologies, no regrets.--Clark Moustakas

Song of the day:
Yeah usher (many happy memories)

Tv update:
Peyton sewyer is at risk of death on one tree hill :(